She looked at me from across the cafe. At first I didn't think much of it. She was a cute, girl-next-door type who wore bookish horn-rimmed glasses and her brown hair in a braided ponytail. I guessed she was a few years younger than me.
I was there to work, having dropped my car off at the shop down the street for what was expected to be a couple hours worth of repair work.
Free WiFi. Check. Good coffee. Check.
Attention from any woman was flattering after 5 years on my own. I smiled and nodded back. She smiled at me, then turned her attention back to whatever it was she was doing on her laptop, taking a sip of her tea.
The cafe was small, but airy, with high white tin ceilings and light wood floors. A mix of quiet alternative rock played on the speakers with eclectic art on the walls.
She wore a mustard colored blouse that draped neatly over a slim frame, revealing little. Strapped sandals that gave her an extra inch of height when she stood up did show off her well manicured toes. Most strikingly: She wore a long denim skirt, unbuttoned enough so that when she crossed her legs, she revealed a single, fit thigh. Her leg, like the rest of her skin, was pink, as if she had spent a day in the sun without enough sunscreen.
As I started to hammer away at my work — tackling emails and writing a report, I found myself occasionally looking up, only to catch her glancing at me as well. We'd smile, then get back to work.
It was oddly satisfying — me a 40-something-year-old guy with graying temples, flirting with this cute, librarian-type like we were in high school.
Focus. Work, I thought to myself.
She got up and went to the restroom, eyeing me curiously as she did so. I nodded and mouthed "hello." She sneezed and looked embarrassed, stumbling a bit as she continued to the restroom.
Work. Focus. And I did.
I am about six feet tall, 200 pounds. I'm self conscious about losing some hair on the top and certainly not someone who gets a ton of flirtatious attention from random women. My ego was boosted enough by this G-rated situation that I felt more productive and my report seemed to flow out of my fingers and into my laptop for a few minutes.
A small piece of paper was dropped on my table. I looked at it in puzzlement, then looked up to see her smiling, a dimple in her cheek. She quickly looked away and walked back to her seat across the room.
Were we teenagers? I unwrapped the folded note, which said "Amanda" followed by her phone number. I blushed, keeping my head down a bit. I also felt myself get half an erection.
I picked up my phone and texted her. "Thanks for your number. I feel like I'm in back in school."
I was processing what to do next — go over and talk with her? Offer to buy her another drink?
She texted me back.
"Kinda mysterious communicating this way, right? Don't let the teacher know." A winking emoji ended the message before another quickly popped up.
"Tell me about yourself."
OK, she wanted to get to know one another via text. She played it safe, I thought.
"I'm a writer and run my own communications firm," I wrote back. "First time in this cafe. Car is in the shop down the street."
"So you're stranded here?" she wrote back, winking emoji at the end.
"Yes, for an hour or two, I'm afraid. What about you?"
"My mom is in dialysis down the road. I bring her once a week when my dad can't and sometimes come here while she gets her treatment."
How do you respond to that, I wondered. Uhhh... I'm sorry about your mom... you're a good daughter...
Don't say something stupid, I thought.
Before I figured it out I saw another bubble on my screen and looked up to see her typing another message out. She looked at me, obviously hesitating before she worked up the courage to hit the "send" button.
"OK, weird question: Do you think I'm pretty?" She ended the message with an emoji that had no mouth.
Wow. This was forward. And the question was a little weird. But the answer was obvious. I looked at her, smiling. She was not playing it as safe as I had expected.
"Yes! Cool glasses," I quickly tapped, finding an emoji with glasses. "Love your braid. I like your skirt (and your your leg). Cool earrings, too."
I hit send, hoping the leg comment wasn't going to sound like I was some kind of a weirdo. TMI?
Blushing face emoji came back my way. We both looked up and smiled.
"May I come over and sit with you?" I wrote back. Her answer was almost immediate.
"No."
No?
Another text-in-progress bubble came up.
"I've got something I've always wanted to do." Blushing face emoji, again. "Bear with me. I am nervous."
I looked up and gave her a quizzical smirk before her next message came in.
"I'm going to go into the restroom. I'm going to leave the door unlocked."
I was stunned and waited for the next text I could see she was typing. She did look nervous. She also looked determined.
"I'll count to 30 before locking the door. If you're feeling adventurous, come in. But... shhh! Don't say a word when you come in!" Zipper-mouthed emoji.
I raised my eyebrows and looked at her. She shyly looked down at her laptop. Then typed another text.
"If this is too weird, plz let me know."
I looked at her and smiled. Then, I typed back: "Lead the way."
She collected her bag, straightened her glasses and got up from her table. Taking a deep breath, she began walking again toward the restroom in the back of the shop. She gave me a mischievously fast, slightly embarrassed smile as she walked by. She was blushing. She also seemed to have a slight bead of sweat on her forehead. She clutched her laptop bag over her chest, reminding me of someone walking down the hall at school, holding her folders as if to protect them.
Holy shit. This was really happening.
Was there a decision to be made? Maybe she was psycho. Maybe she was going to kill me. Maybe she was going to scream when I opened the door. More likely: This was some elaborate setup by a friend playing a practical joke.
Since my wife had passed away, friends had been telling me I needed to get out, go on a few dates. Tinder. Whatever. I was horny, but just couldn't see myself going through the process of dating. I had kids to take care of, a job to do. I still loved and longed for my wife.