It was getting towards the end of her night shift. During the holiday period, they were always uneventful. You had to be there, no one else wanted to be there, but you just got through it somehow.
This time around, it had been made so much easier by keeping in touch with a close friend of hers. Callie had been going through some difficult times in the past few weeks... but John had been there for her even before her troubles began.
He'd supported, encouraged, and more recently he'd been open and honest about how he really felt about her. The timing had been awful... she had confided so much in him... then one innocent afternoon he had blurted out how often he'd thought about her, and more importantly WHAT he'd thought.
There had always been subtle signs, the odd throwaway comment from him, she presumed in jest. Sometimes, her mind had wandered, not only to how badly he'd been treated himself, but to how he had treated her... how things would be if she wasn't engaged, or if she'd met him earlier. The thoughts had kept her warm some nights, but that's all they were - thoughts. Deep down, she'd always thought he wasn't giving her a second glance.
In her mind, after years of a pedestrian relationship, not without its issues, she was the annoying younger sister - taken under his wing when stepping into her new job in a new area. Little did she know, until he'd come clean that afternoon, that he had often felt the same way about her, and his enthusiasm for working with her extended to more than just being her friend.
That said, after a heart to heart... and a little more of an encounter when she had considered splitting from her fiancΓ©, they had decided to be JUST FRIENDS. She had dealt with her own demons in the relationship, and despite choosing to work hard at her relationship and make a go of it, he hadn't cut her loose. This reinforced his promise to be friends first, anything else second.
The encounter often stuck in her mind though. She replayed it over at times when she stole some time to herself. A weekend of exploring herself, and him, her feelings for herself, her friend, and her partner before coming to a decision. She didn't regret it, she loved Mark... and because of her encounter with John, and the relaxing closeness she still felt for him, she never would regret it.
And now, a week on... she was finishing another night shift. John had been keeping her occupied, but had long since fell asleep with is phone in his hand. She was going to take him up on his offer to stop at his this morning, in relative peace, away from her fiancΓ© and daughter, whilst he did his usual bachelor stuff of sport, computers and dog walking to let her sleep.
As she left work, thoughts and echoes of last weekend spun into her head. She blamed the sleep deprivation combined with that last shot of coffee she'd had before leaving. At least this time it was broad daylight, and there was no opportunity to gradually slide closer on the sofa after some wine.
She slipped into her car and drove slowly, almost on automatic, the short route to John's house. Since her relationship issues, she'd had a key. Useful for using the house when he was away, helpful for calling in after work if he was wrist deep in gardening.
She let herself in, the house still in darkness. She could hear the soft hum of the heating warming her pajamas as she put down her bag and kicked off her shoes. He'd once again thought of the little things... Including, as he'd already told her, the spare room made up for her - the warmest room in the house should get her to sleep in no time on the cold January morning.
Thinking of him, and wanting to repay his thoughtfulness... she poured a glass of water in the kitchen with almost silent skill. Setting it on the dining table, she unzipped her tunic and slid it off. Rolling down her black tights, she hung them both on the back of the nearest chair.
She collected her pajamas and crept slowly up his narrow stairs. As she reached the top, she could hear his soft familiar breathing coming from his room. Something stirred inside her stomach, it flipped. Scolding herself, she stepped the other way and into the warm room awaiting her. John had overdone it - and the place was like a sauna. Opening the window a crack, she slipped her arms out of her bra, unclasping it and letting it drop where she stood. She tossed her pajamas redundantly onto the end of the bed and wriggled her knickers off her hips to step out of them. Thankfully, as she slipped under the duvet, it was cool, cotton and felt relaxing against her bare skin. Callie let out a content sigh... This felt fine and would do perfectly. She slipped her glasses off, placing them next to her phone... turned over and drifted slowly off to sleep.