I had arranged an evening out with Sugar. It had been a while since I saw him, and I still felt bad about dropping him at Holly's party the other month. But also I have been feeling a bit lost, see the thing is I attended a party with Carol which was in fact an orgy, but that is another story. I felt pretty bad afterwards and I am not even sure why I went.
But anyway Sugar was more than happy to hear from me, and his funny ways put me at ease. I know he probably has not been a angel but then who am I to criticise his mischief.
I had been shopping and brought a new dress for the night. A gold sequin strapless mini dress, it was quite short, well above the knees, but you know me the skimpier the better.
I booked the table at the restaurant we had our first date, I want to let him know that night was a special night for me, I really loved it.
Also I needed to tell him how I felt for him, my feelings have been growing hence I think my wayward ways, yes sex has been good, but there is something about him and I can't get the feelings out of my head.
Having been doing what I have been doing lately has been a sort of denial, I will be honest Settling down is the last thing I want to do, fucking Andre and my time with Carol was my escape, but they have been costly to my emotions.
The evening had arrived, I have been waiting all day for this. I ran a bath with lots of bubbles, pinned up my hair and stepped in, I laid back and relaxed. I was feeling so at ease and happy knowing that I was spending the evening with someone who liked me for me.
Laying back in the bath thinking things I was beginning to feel horny as hell, but resisted. I lifted my right leg straight up and ran the soapy water up and down, then repeated with the left.
I was going to give my Sugar a great night and could not wait to get him home. I began to fantasise about our sex we had, me sitting on him on the bar stool, his hands taking my tits from behind. I decided to get myself out of the bath.
I wrapped the towel around my slippery body and went into my bedroom. I sat down at my dressing table and let my long red hair back down. My hair is wavy so I decided to have it straight this evening. Once done I applied my make up, and re polished my nails, to a matching colour of my hair. I slipped into a suspender belt, and put on my tanned stockings keeping them short so they would stretch to a point at the clasp, I know Sugar loves that look.
I got the dress ready, un zipped the side zipper and slipped myself in pulling it over my tits and then pulled up the zip. I put on my stilettos and I was ready. All I had to do now was wait for his arrival. The doorbell rang, and I jumped out of the chair and rushed to answer the door. There he was, my Sugar looking good as always.
"Sugar my Sugar hi there." I said excitedly.
"Jessica darling so good to see you."
We hugged tightly, I just did not want to let go of him, his powerful but gentle arms filled me with security and safety. His scent was to die for.
"Well shall we go darling, and I must say you are looking stunning simply stunning."
"Why thank you baby you look well yourself."
"Thanks, come on lets go darling." He replied.
We walked over to his car and he opened the door for me, waiting for me to be safely in then closed it. He got in and started the engine.
"So we are off to our favourite restaurant?"
"Yes Sugar I hope you don't mind and that its not going to be too boring." I replied.
"Hay don't be silly I loved our date it was a terrific night darling." He replied.
"So Jessica how have you been? It has been ages since I last saw you." Sugar asked.
"Well baby to be honest ive been lost, so lost, but lets talk when we get to the restaurant I need to talk to you."
"OK darling no problems, sounds serious though."
"Well it is and it is not if you know what I mean." I replied.
"So gorgeous how has your singing been going?"
"Yes all OK Sugar but I am feeling like a change of venue, I mean I have been at my current place three years now, and the scenery is getting quite boring now." I replied.
I could really feel the sexual magnet coming from Sugar, I struggled a bit but managed to cross my leg over in his direction my dress riding up my thigh.
"So here we are Jessica lets go and eat."
We parked up and Sugar opened the door of the car for me. Then the restaurant door. Such a gentleman he is.
"Good evening Miss Jessica, your table is waiting."
"Thank you so much Charles and how are you?"
"Very well lots going on but me and the wife are fine."
Charles led us to the table and we sat down, he went off to get drinks. As we sat I watched Sugar seat himself after me, and I just stared for a few seconds into his deep hazel eyes, he stared back.
We chatted for a good while about this and that, then the food arrived. As we ate I began to tell Sugar what I had been up to with Carol, he politely reminded me that Carol messed Holly up when they were a couple which is not how Carol described it.
But I believe my friends and what they say, and anyway I told Sugar that I was done with her. He seemed happy to know that, and that he would not want to see anyone hurt me. I asked him why he was so protective over me, his answer came as a total shock, but a nice one.
"Well Jessica I have known you now for alot of months, I know we all live quite open lives but the fact is I have got feelings for you, the night at Hollly's party when you left, my night sank, I mean even when I saw you chatting to those two men it cut me."
"I know Sugar really I should not have done that to you, and plus you went off and shagged Holy, and I knew she had that planned she told me before hand." I replied.
"Well Jessie darling we both seem to be a bit mixed up I shagged her because you were with those two, and plus I knew you had them both, I don't know we seem to be, if you don't mind me saying lost without each other."
"Wow baby I never looked at it that way, I really like you Sugar I think I am falling for you, and I can't handle it. To be honest I am scared to go into a relationship because, and I will be honest now, I was with a man two years ago it was going great until one night he put his hands on me."
I paused and took a sip of my drink.
"I ended up in hospital, he beat the shit out of me, he got jealous because I was good friends with a man, but that's all it was friends he did not like it. Anyway I recovered and I never knew what happened to him."
"Darling I never knew I am so sorry someone did that to you, I mean a beautiful Woman like you and you were treated like that." Sugars response was emotional.
"Bless you my darling, I sometimes get scared when I am on stage as I think one night he will walk in, he messed me up Sugar that's why I do the things I do I just don't care truth be told. I do like sex I like it alot and that does not help, but when I have sex it takes away my fear, I am in charge and will make a man sink. Does that make sense?"
"Well yes Jessie I can sort of understand where you are coming from. But how do you trust them that they might hurt you like he did?"
"Sugar baby after it happened I did not go near any man, then I met Holly, she helped me through Yes we were lovers and well still are, but any man I go with I know them through her, you should know that too well darling."
"I see Jessie, but I am struggling with the fact someone put you in hospital, hurt you that bad."
"Oh baby you are so caring, you are so understanding Sugar baby what are we going to do? I want something with you but I am so frightened you will hurt me, not physically, I know you are not like that, but I could not bear you walking away from me one day and losing you and what we have now. I am scared Baby."
"Jessie darling I will tell you now I would drop everything for you I would protect you and I would make you feel no need to ever be scared again. You deserve to be loved your beautiful and have a beautiful heart."
"Yes but can we be faithful to each other? Be honest with me now if you went home tonight and say Candy knocked on your door, yes I know you have fucked her, would you fuck her tonight?" I asked.
"Well Jessie I could ask the same of you, with say Holly or that fella Andre, what would you do? I will be honest and say now at this moment if Candy or Holly wanted me I would find it hard not to, and I know you would be the same. Thing is we have been like this for a long time, I have been used and abused, and now I have found you and you are all I want Jessie I just do not know."
"Yes you are right if Andre called me up I would find it hard to refuse him at this moment. Do you want a relationship with me Sugar."