My name is Jen. Jennifer is okay, but don't call me Jenny. I admit I was a snob in high school. I was stuck up, only dating the handsomest jocks, not even talking to most of the 'ordinary people'. That seemed like a waste of time. I was looking to find the 'coolest' friends, the studliest guys. It turns out I wasn't that successful.
But I wasn't mean. It wasn't like I tried to be obnoxious, or ignore people. I would speak to those 'ordinary people' if they spoke first. I even would have nice conversations with them. But I didn't seek them out, try to be nice, or encourage them.
I had the physical qualities that I thought everyone wanted. Even craved. I was very slender, a bit above average height with long, shapely legs, everyone called me pretty, and I had great breasts. They had developed into C cups by my Senior year, and they were gorgeous - firm, ripe, and jiggily I remember being told. My ass was quite nice, too.
My problem was that I was looking for great sex. I knew there was great sex, because I had read about it. I had seen stuff on the internet, but that didn't excite me very much. Mostly I read about it in my mother's trashy novels. Ever since I had begun developing and started wondering about sex, I read her books. And she had a lot of them. Some from the library, some from friends, some she bought, but there was always a supply in her room, to which I helped myself often.
So where was this great sex? I dated the manliest, testosterone-filled boys in school. I knew how to tease. Oh, boy, did I. I was in demand. Part of that was because I never had a steady boy friend. I might date the same guy a few times, but never twice in a row. I didn't want them getting any ideas that I belonged to them - which could happen easily. I had some of the most popular boys in school wanting to be my guy, but I couldn't find 'The One.' 'The One', by my definition, was a stud who was good at sex. My two main criteria. Good looking, and good at sex.
My experiences were not good. Every guy I dated was after only one thing. And they were pretty clumsy at it. None were like the men in Mom's novels. They quickly went for my breasts, feeling them up, squeezing them until they hurt, feeling my ass and legs - and more when I let them. But there was no romance. No finesse. Just grabbing.
Now I realize that I was to blame for a lot of it. As I said, I knew how to tease. I liked to flirt, I dressed to show off my assets. Not slutty, but everyone knew that I liked to be looked at and show off what I had. So when guys took me out on a date, they naturally assumed that I would be all hot for them and put out easily. And with these guys, many girls did. Many who did not flirt with them nearly as good as I did. They probably felt that I was offering myself to them, so why take their time? But I did not really realize this at the time. At the time I was just disappointed in the way the guys acted.
And the sex? Sometimes I wondered, what sex? It seemed that the guys wanted to cum. That was it. The whole point of the date was to cum. If I gave them a handjob, they were done. Mission accomplished. Time to go home. The same thing if I blew them. It seemed that by the time I wiped off my mouth we would be halfway home.
And it was the same with intercourse. When I did let someone actually fuck me, I almost felt like I wasn't even there. I expected my first time to hurt, but it was the same even after that. As soon as they realized that they could fuck me, it was: Stick it in, Pump fast, Cum, Get out. And then, of course, go home! No foreplay, no effort to get me turned on and 'ready,' just stick it in as soon as he can. It was both frustrating and bewildering. And it didn't help that it was usually in a car!
The first satisfying time I had came because of my brother. No, this is not an incest story, though I got the feeling more than once he would have been willing if I was. But no, my brother is two years older than me. When I was a Senior in high school he was in his second year of college, at a large university not too far from home. There was a big, formal dance there one spring weekend, and Tommy (my brother) asked if I would be interested in going to it with a friend of his. Well, yes! A college dance with a college man? This should be great!
I started right away fantasizing. Maybe the trouble with my sex life was that I had been dating immature guys. A college man - that may be what I have been waiting for. Then my brother told me that his friend was a science major, and some kind of nerd. This dampened my enthusiasm somewhat, but I was still thinking mostly about the college man idea, so I said yes.
I got a beautiful new dress and some other new clothes suitable for college, I hoped, and when the time came I took Friday off from school and my dad drove me to the university. I heard Dad telling Tommy that he had better take care of me and not let anything happen. Tommy laughed and assured Dad that Brian - my date - was too nerdy to be any threat to me. They didn't think I heard that exchange, but I did. It seemed to make Dad feel a little better, but I was very disappointed.
The dance was wonderful. It was everything I had expected, and more. Even Brian was not too bad, though I would not have dated him in high school. He actually was not bad looking, and was a real gentleman to me, which I was definitely not used to. He brought me flowers, paid me compliments, opened doors for me, held my chair... Okay, it may not sound like much to you, but I had never been treated that way by my high school dates. He wasn't a great dancer, but better than most anyone at my high school Proms. I found myself enjoying my evening, and my nerdy date, very much.
Brian had treated me like a lady, and the most intimate he got was holding my hand as we walked. I did not know how to handle it! He walked me back to the dorm (my brother had arranged for me to stay with a female friend of his), and I have to admit that I was surprised when he gave me a kiss goodnight. It was a bit tentative, but it was right on the mouth. I would have enjoyed a longer one, one with some tongue, but this kiss was sweet. And my breasts made it through the entire evening without being groped.
Just before he turned to leave, Brian stepped back and said, "I don't suppose you would like to meet me tomorrow for breakfast? Or lunch?"
He was so sweet! I had never been asked out like that before.
"Why, Brian, I think that sounds lovely," I answered, and he seemed surprised.
"Uh, cool, uh, what... which... what time?" he managed, as if he hadn't planned on me saying yes.
"Why don't you pick me up for breakfast, and we'll see if it lasts until lunch," i replied.
"Okay," he said eagerly, and when he turned to leave his smile was as big as when he had introduced his sexy date (me!) to friends earlier that evening.
"9 o'clock," he yelled, half asking, just before the door closed.
I smiled, waved, and nodded yes. It had been a fun evening, a chance to play 'grown-up', and my date had surprised me. He was fun, interesting, even charming in a way. So much different than what I was used to. So much more fun. And we hadn't even had sex of any kind!
*****
When Brian picked me up for breakfast, I was ready. Usually I sleep late on Saturday, especially after a big night like the dance had been, but I had awoken early and my mind didn't let me get me back to sleep. I replayed the entire evening, and the best parts of it seemed to be about Brian. Now, don't get the idea that I was falling in love with him. No, I knew that would not happen. He really wasn't my type. But now I knew that I wanted something more in a guy than a body, an athlete. I wanted someone who would treat me like Brian had. (And a hot bod, too!) I found myself looking forward to seeing Brian again.
We went to a little place just off campus. It had good food, but the conversation was even better. Brian was much more relaxed this morning, and so was I. I was not trying to impress anyone. We talked about a lot of things - college life, our families, our goals - while we walked around campus. He showed me the building where he spent most of his time in classes or labs, but I think he liked best when he introduced me to friends, classmates, or professors. I still looked hot, and he liked to impress them with me. He never mentioned that I was his friend's sister.
Before we knew it, it was after 1 in the afternoon. I teased him about what I had said the night before about breakfast turning into lunch. We did get a bite in the cafeteria, where the food wasn't nearly as good but we were seen by more people. (I knew he enjoyed showing me off.)
After we ate, he said, "Should I take you back to the dorm?"
"Oh, okay'" I answered, feeling surprisingly saddened. "I guess you have things you have to do today. I didn't mean to take up so much of your time."
"No, no," he said, now for the first time that day sounding nervous. "I don't have anything pressing. I'm having a great time. I just assumed that you would be ready to go back."
"Brian!" I stopped walking, turned toward him and took both of his hands in mine. "I am having a great time being with you. I just came up here for the dance, so I have nothing else planned. You can have me as much as you want."
I realized when I said that he can "have me" that back home any guy would immediately picture me naked on a bed. I was impressed that the thought never seemed to cross Brian's mind.
"Don't say that unless you mean it," he smiled. "I really have nothing I have to do today, so I could spend my whole day with you!"
"Then I am all yours," I proclaimed. "Take me until you are through with me!"
Okay, that time I purposely tried to make it a double meaning, but was again impressed with Brian that his only reaction was happiness. He was very nice, and was making me feel like a princess.
We walked some more, took in some more sights, and found ourselves in a very busy part of campus. I thought it might improve Brian's chances with other girls if people saw him with - well, me! - a sexy girl who seemed out of his league. Oh, don't judge me. I know I'm pretty and sexy, but I don't mean it like that. Remember, Brian really was a nerd. Not a bad looking one, but still.