Background
First, I should tell you that Jeff and I are not actually married. We are together and committed to each other. We just haven't felt the need to do all the legal pomp and ceremony stuff.
Maybe it is because we don't have a 'traditional' relationship that we have talked about trying some edgier things. Mostly our talk had been about Jeff watching me with another guy or sharing me with another guy. I was more than just cautious and hesitant, I was outright unwilling to even consider this anything more than a fantasy.
While listening to Jeff's voice tell me all the sexy things he would have done to me and the idea of being shared made me go creamy, I just couldn't shake the feeling that somehow I would lose Jeff if we actually went through with it. I mean...this was so contrary to the examples that had been held up to me as I was growing up. And I did NOT want to lose Jeff.
The stories we created together were hot and would lead to some very passionate, satisfying sex. I probably would have been satisfied just augmenting our sexual play with these stories, but Jeff constantly reassured me that we could do this and that jealousy would not rip us apart. I probably drove him half crazy with my need for reassurance, but I finally got to the point where I was considering it.
The turning point came when we were on vacation at an all-inclusive resort. The sun made me feel all languid and sensual. I felt like I walked differently. My limbs were looser and I loved going around in a bikini and a sarong. I loved the eyes on my body as I walked, but most of all I loved watching Jeff's face as he watched them watching me.
I remember walking toward him across the open bar. My strides were long. My thigh split the sarong open. I was aware of my nipples tightening beneath my top. My eyes never left his even though I knew I was being watched. I wanted to seduce Jeff by arousing him by attracting attention. It worked.