Part 2
Yeah, I sat back with a smile on my face....
Then, came to my senses. What in the Hell had I just done?
Had I just taken advantage of an employee?
Top it off my face was wet, so was my t-shirt, the top of my desk, and I knew what the room smelled like now!
My eyes were on the floor.... When I felt Jane start to stir. By the time I had brought them up to face her.... I don't know what my face looked like, but it must not have been what she hoped for. I'm sure it was shame and fear and panic.... Whatever that looks like.
He hazy smile turned to a frown, and tears piqued at the corners of her eyes.
"No. No. No. No.... No, Jane, don't look like that at me." I almost begged.
"Then, stop looking at me like you're ashamed of me!" She whispered quietly.
"Oh God, baby girl. No! It's not you I'm ashamed of.... It's ME! I took advantage of you... of an... of an employee. I used you. I should-"
Three of her fingers were over my lips, "Shhhhhh. No Daddy. You didn't take advantage of me. If anything it's my fault. I've been throwing myself at you for months now."
Then, suddenly, she turned red as a beet and her lips sealed tight. I almost heard an audible crack as they met.
My eyes drifted upwards again, "Wh-what? You really.. Uh, you, uh....
"Wait. Hold on.
"You? You what?" I finally got out.
Her eyes shot down to my chest, and she wouldn't look at me.
"Uhm, yeah.... Uh.... I've.. Uh. Well, Fuck it!" she exclaimed.
"I've been crushing on you since I answered the ad for the job three years ago. I knew I had to behave myself because you were married at the time. I thought it would be okay. But it wasn't. The longer I worked here, the harder I fell. So, when Pamela left, I started hoping. I started working harder and trying to get you to see me. Then, when that didn't work, I started...." The sudden outburst came to just as an abrupt stop.
Silence.
I waited a couple of seconds for more. There was nothing more going to be volunteered, clearly.
I wasn't quite sure what to say here... I was beyond flattered. I was clearly attracted to her. But goodness she was so young. So much of her life ahead of her.
I had a daughter older than her!!!
My mouth started working, but nothing came out. I think I looked a lot like a guppy. That went on for a second before I snapped my head out of the fog.
"Okay, hold on Jane, sweetheart. Look.... I need a second to think. I..." I gulped.
" I uh. I feel like, uh, we both need half a second here."
"Mr. Friendly?", our eyes met then.
"Daddy?" She asked quietly.... A small whisper, really.
She looked at me questioningly, on the verge of crying. A big breath in, and I could tell a sob was about to escape.
"No, Jane." And I grabbed her and pulled her into a tight hug. I rubbed my hand up and down her silky soft lower back with my right hand and held her tightly to my chest with my left.
"No, baby girl, please don't cry. There's no need. I'll.... I'm.. I uh. I am not sure what to do next. But I didn't mean to hurt you like this.
"I never meant to hurt you." I whispered.
But, that was it, wasn't it. I'd hurt her sooner or later...
I pulled her off my desk into my lap. I held her tightly to me as she curled against my chest. Her knees were pulled up and she was almost curled in a little ball.
Her breathing settled, and she seemed to calm.
I did as well. Outwardly, anyway. Inside my mind was going a million miles an hour.
Should I stop this madness now and push her to get dressed and rush her out?
That would hurt her immensely.... And who knows how she would react? Would she say I raped her? Oh. Shit. Now what? I began to panic again.
Her little hand shot out and she ran her fingers across the edge of my chin to my goatee.
"Daddy? Where have you gone again? You were calm a moment ago, and now your heart is beginning to beat harder and harder. Please, tell me I haven't made a huge mistake. I thought...". She paused. "I thought you liked me too?"
"Oh fuck, I'm so stupid...". She started to struggle. But I grabbed her and began shushing her.
"Stop." I said firmly.
She stopped struggling but wouldn't look at me. I leaned lower to try and see into her face, and she turned away.
"Baby girl, I'm sorry. I am attracted to you.... Clearly. But I am just.... I dunno, trying to get used to.... I dunno... The idea that I didn't do something wrong by doing this.... To you. I feel-"
"Shush, yourself, Daddy." She said rather smartly, "I know this kinda just happened. But please don't make me feel bad about it. It was going sooooo well." She kinda whined the last line a little.... Dragging out the so.
It was my turn to blush and look elsewhere.
Jane started to move and pull out of my arms. I looked up at her and she had a look on her face that suddenly made me very nervous. I began to open my mouth, but she put one pointer finger firmly over my lips.
She was now sitting on my lap, facing me. Her knees were pressing into the tops of my thighs, with her feet tucked under. She leaned forward gently.... Her finger still on my lips. I began slowly shaking my head no, when she stopped, and her eyebrows dipped in a frown.