Finding the right person in life can be tough.
Finding them, loving them and losing them is extremely tough.
Looking for love again (or honestly, someone decent to just have sex with) when you're ready, but now you have children is doubly tough.
Luck would have it though, when I was finally ready for a serious search a man walked through my front door with his own kids. My friend introduced us.
He was a bit taller than me, square set shoulders, nice blue eyes, and a great beard that only seemed to enhance his charm. I'm really into the rugged look and this guy was dripping with it. It goes without saying that my friend knows my type and orchestrated this very well. Every orgasm I've had since our setup is thanks to her.
We started chatting through messages almost instantly, it was a fun way to connect with none of the awkwardness of talking on the phone. There was a lot of silly messaging back and forth, lots of how was your day stuff. Nothing that read I'd like to have sex with you, which initially let me down. But the enjoyment of getting to know someone new was exciting anyway. When he realized I'm a bit of a sci-fi nerd things began to pick up a bit, hugs hello and goodbye got a little tighter every time we'd all get together.
One day we were all on a train heading to a museum, it was a little packed but luckily the kids had seats and we stood up talking the whole time. Standing that close to one another for a while seemed to do something for us. No outright groping just a sudden strong hand on my lower back to move me a little closer to him so somebody could pass by sparked us. He didn't move his hand for a bit and I suddenly found that my own hand had gone to rest on his chest just slowly moving fingers. I know I was extremely red-checked when I looked up at him and he was staring directly into my eyes. Usually his eyes are a kind of soft blue and quite gentle looking, not now. His eyes seemed to be the darkest blue I had ever seen, they were not gentle anymore because he wanted me in the most painful way. I just knew it. My nails were starting to dig into his skin and he didn't seem to mind it because his hand on my back brought me closer to him but that's when our stop was announced. We all exited the train very quickly. For the rest of the day we barely made eye contact or had even a second to talk due the children wanting to see everything and eat all the food.
Later on I decided to go for a big hug goodbye, arms around the neck, pressed myself against his whole body, and luck would have it he returned the hug back the same way. He brushed his mouth across my ear and I could have cum from that alone I was so wet. We pushed away from one another, made eye contact for a quick second and understood instantly that we had to fuck and soon.
Sadly, soon didn't come soon enough at all. Everything just kept getting in the way so plans kept getting canceled, then the holidays came around. The fire between us cooled one could say and I began to doubt what happened, or wonder if he actually did want me. I was a mess.