As soon as everyone had left my cubicle, I groaned softly and crossed my arms on my desk, resting my head on them for a minute. After a few minutes, my stress-induced headache had changed from a loud pounding noise to a dull roar, so I sat up and massaged my temples while breathing deeply.
"Hey Nate? Are you alright?"
"Huh?" I mumbled, turning around to see my co-worker Alyssa leaning against the wall of my six-by-six prison. "Oh yeah, I guess so. It's been a hellacious day, and I just want this headache to go away."
"It was hard not to notice the crowd that you had around you ever since lunchtime. What was going on?"
"Nothing much," I sighed, leaning back in my chair and slapping a random button on my keyboard to wake the computer up, then pointed my thumb at the screen, "some sadist thought it would be funny to assign me this helpdesk ticket, and when the director gets involved, you know it's almost impossible to reassign it to someone else. Some customer had a problem with the ordering system, so I was the unlucky soul that got to work on it. Only after I found the problem could I send it to someone else to fix, but that means I didn't get any of my regular work done today, so now I'm about four hours behind."
"Oh yeah, I heard that you got some 'attaboy' praise from the director for it too. Mind if I peek for a second?"
Waving my hand in indifference at the screen, I stood up and leaned against my desk while Alyssa sat in my chair. While she read through the entries, she leaned forward, and I pulled out my cellphone to check the string of texts that I had missed. I'm not sure what prompted the move, but for some reason, I glanced over at Alyssa, and my breath caught in my throat. Her loose blouse had billowed out because of her posture, and I was treated to the first down-blouse view I'd ever had of her.
Pretending that I was still looking at my phone, I shifted slightly to get a better view, and I felt silly for blushing, but I could feel my face starting to warm up. She was always friendly to me, and while we had never flirted, I always thought that I felt something growing between us. We acted completely appropriate at work at all times, and since Alyssa always seemed to be completely in control of herself and aware of surroundings, the only thing I could think of was that she was doing this on purpose.
My eyes traced the outline of her bra, and from only a few feet away, I could easily see the subtle design sewn into the otherwise plain and work-appropriate design. I loved the way her arms rested on her knees pushed her smaller-sized breasts together, and from my vantage point, I could see the soft orbs of skin gently touching in the middle of her chest. Near the top of her breast, I could also see a gentle dip in her skin, instantly making me wonder if that meant her breasts sagged slightly when she was naked.
My breath was staring to get faster and shallower as I continued to stare, and only now did I notice that my mouth was hanging open slightly and my jeans had apparently shrunk a little. I closed my eyes and tried to compose myself, moving back a few inches so I was now sitting on my desk and I could conceal the embarrassing bulge in my jeans. Luckily for me, my timing was perfect, and I was again looking at my phone when Alyssa turned back to me. With my phone and both hands covering my growing lump, there wasn't much of a chance she would have known.
"So right here, Nate, I think this is the important part."
"Yeah, how so?" I managed to croak out.
"It says that they used our website for part of the order, then they called in the rest of it."
"That's right. Their customer profile was a little messed up, and the problem came up because our systems sometimes have different address formats for the older customers. Their PO lists the whole purchase, but the online order sheet doesn't have the part they called in because our computers couldn't link them together."
"Oh, I think I see what you mean now," Alyssa nodded, reaching for the mouse to navigate through the virtual paperwork and diagrams, and as soon as I thought that the screen had her attention, my gaze dropped again.
With one of her arms up on the desk, it stretched out the neck of her shirt a little bit, giving me a slightly different view. I still loved the sight, and as she moved the mouse around, it made her breast move a tiny bit. Only one breast was in sight now, but with the movement of her body, her bra had shifted, and I could see the edge of her nipple now.
'Knock it off, you jerk,' I mentally yelled at myself, 'she is your business associate and a friend. She doesn't deserve to be perved over like this. Get your mind back on track - think job, not boobs!'
"So this part..." Alyssa started, making me flinch.
I jerked my head up to look at the screen, my cheeks turning pink again as she almost caught me staring down her ,. Her mouth dropped open a little, and from my peripheral vision, I swear I caught a smirk as she turned to face me again, but she didn't change her position one inch.
"So this part is where the whole thing broke, right?"
"Ummm, yeah, I think so." Cursing myself mentally again, I tried to wipe my mind of the image of her breasts. "Yeah, that is it. That stuff is done by IT, so I sent this whole thing to their team, and they promised to get it straightened out today."
Nodding her head as she clicked through a few more screens, she paused to look at a complex diagram, but this time I kept myself in check. Not once did I turn to look down her shirt again. Well, OK, I did, but it was just for a second. My heart rate bumped up for a moment, but I was worried about getting caught again, so I did my best to keep my thoughts pure.
"Well cool, thanks for letting me take a peek," Alyssa said with a smile, pushing the chair back and standing up.
"No problem," I replied, making a determined effort to look nowhere else but at her face, still kind of worried about the smirk that I know for a fact she had on now, but also trying to not repeat her comment to her verbatim.