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No sooner than I had gotten my suitcase unpacked, there was a light rap at my hotel room door. My heart skips a beat every single time I go through this scenario but, this time, I was a little more nervous than usual. I opened the door and exchanged an eager, inviting smile with my visitor. I could tell that he had just gotten off from work; he was still wearing his button-down shirt, dress pants and tie. He must have been anxious to see me since he hadn't made his way home to change first.
Without saying a word, I grabbed him by the tie and quickly pulled him into my room. I greeted him with a hot, wet, lust-filled kiss. I haven't been able to see him in over a month.
When I finally let him up for air, he took my face in his hands and studied me. "Baby, I have missed you so much."
"I've missed you, too," I said as his kisses made their way across my cheek and onto my neck. "Can you stay long tonight?"
"I can only stay for a little while. I didn't exactly have much notice to come up with an excuse as to why I wouldn't be home right after work."
Ah, yes. I failed to mention that my lover is not only slightly unavailable, he is a married man. One would think this little tidbit should deter me from being with him. But, he and I have known from the beginning that a serious relationship between us is something that could never happen. It's just ferocious sex without the commitment. Hence, he went ahead and married the woman he had begun dating shortly after we met because it's what she wanted. I never believed his heart was 100% on board with the idea but he thought it was the only way to prove to her that he loved her and only her to keep her happy. More like an obligation than anything else.
"Ok. I'm sorry for not letting you know sooner that I was planning a trip to see you," I said with a little sadness in my voice as I looked at the floor. "It was a spur of the moment decision and I took the opportunity."
"No worries, babe," he said as he delicately lifted my chin with his finger. "I'll spend as much time as I can with you before you have to leave," he promised as my hands subconsciously pulled his tie loose from around his neck. I slipped it off and tossed it to the floor.
"Zealous much?" he jokingly asked as my fingers quickly made their way through the buttons on his shirt. "Not going to say, "Hi. How was your day, Hun?"
"If I were truly anxious, I wouldn't have been bothered with trying to undo the buttons. I would have just ripped it off from you," I said with a smirk. "But, I wouldn't want your wife to ask you what happened. I'm not sure how you could explain that one away."
"No, that wouldn't be good. She'd probably stop putting out if she ever found out about you. I can't have that! I need her as a release for when I start missing you."
I let out a slight gasp as I couldn't believe he had just said that. "Do you ever feel guilty about us?"
"I do, sort of. I mean, I think I love her and all but I don't think there's any emotional connection with her anymore. After we got married you know I tried to take a break from you but I just couldn't let you go. Something keeps drawing me back to you even though we just can't find a way to be together. Why? Are you starting to feel guilty?"
"Not really. Whenever I think about it too much, I just hook up with *my* someone special and I feel a lot better afterward." There. I said it. He now knows he is no longer the one and only in my life.
He looked at me with his jaw slightly dropped. Noticing the surprised look on his face, I asked, "What? You thought you were always going to be the only one for me?"
Following a moment of stutters, "I'd like to think that I'm more than just a fuck buddy to you."
"You are. You're the reason that I can't find true happiness with anyone else. Do I sense a little anger?"
"A little... I...do you...gah; I don't even know what to say!"
"You're the married one yet you're the one who's jealous?! You're the one questioning my feelings for others?"
After taking a moment to calm down, he asked, "how do you really feel about me?"
"I care about you. I think at one time I had fallen in love with you but I had to push those feelings to the side when I realized that there was never going to be anything more between us than what we have now. I do have strong feelings for you still."
"So, the other guy...?" as he rolls his eyes, "does he mean anything to you?"
"I really don't want to talk about this right now. I want to spend my time focusing on you," I said as I started to pull his undershirt out of his pants.
He broke his silence by saying, "I want to hear about how dirty of a girl you can be when you are away from me," with a sly look on his face.