*This story has its origins in an email sent to me by an acquaintance. It turns out we had been hot for one another for a long time*
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The dream came to me again, but this time it felt different. It felt different because I could see the face of my would-be lover. The dream always began with us naked in bed in the pre-dawn light, silently enjoying each other's heat and the aroma of sex. It would then end abruptly, leaving me frustrated. Just as well there was a vibrator in the bedside cabinet. But I felt somewhat bemused seeing who the dreams had been about.
I met this guy online, and he lived in my town. We had met several times, he came into my work once. I bought ice cream off him at a market. He even delivered a tub of chocolate ice cream to me when the last boyfriend ditched me in the middle of the night. The extent of our friendship had been the exchange of banter and being overly flirtatious with one another on social media.
Now he was available, and so was I, so we arranged to go out for dinner. The dream was that intense, it scared me. Knowing he was my date in the dreams, all along made me wet my panties before I had even finished getting ready. Maybe I would skip on the underwear, I didn't want a visible panty line.
Next thing I know, I was at the restaurant. It was an unsettling environment to see Martin in. I was used to him being so casual, having seen the many photos of him and his business on Facebook. I likened myself to be someone with a bit of bravado, but for some reason, I could not bring myself to go see him at the markets. I felt awkward and shy, and I was convinced that night would be a failure. Why don't I just pretend we never had a "thing", whatever that thing is.
I need not have worried. Martin was polite, charming and ruggedly handsome. Dinner went really well, and a moment hit me when I suddenly thought, "Oh my god, he is not a creep. He is just right!".
Whatever right is.
There was something about his radiantly sapphire eyes that intrigued me. They looked right through me, into my soul, but in a warm, calming way. What an intense connection we had going. I could tell that the waitress could see this charming calm as well. Her attentions were too regular, and the way he looked at me when he addressed me was too long to be of casual interest. Something was communicated between myself and the waitress -- he had the "something" that mesmerised us.
My phone buzzed. I knew who it was. I excused myself to the bathroom, and found a text from my friend Ashley, doing her usual check-up on me when I went on dates.
"Hey Kristy, hope all went well on your date with Martin. Need rescuing?"
"Date going well. All is good, I am quite delighted actually! No rescue needed."
A quick scan of myself in the bathroom mirror, I could see the self-doubt creeping it. "Martin's probably done a runner by now.", I thought. Could I see grey hairs coming through? I described myself as "curvy", but the trolls were a lot crueller. Maybe I am just fat. It was thoughts like that that led to a lack of confidence, so it had taken me a long time to get back into the dating scene. I took a deep breath and hoped that all my preparations for tonight were not in vain.
As I approached the table, the waitress showed her visible disappointment at my return. Martin looked up at me, and those eyes enveloped my soul once more. Wow, what a beautiful smile too.
"All okay?"
"Yes!"