My name is Rebecca Davis, formerly known as Tabitha.
My first job after graduating high school was delivering part time for Pizza Hut. Mom wanted me to go to college, of course, but I wasn't certain I really wanted to. I know people who had gone thousands in debt to go to college and had to take second jobs to help pay it off because they couldn't get jobs in the fields they went to college for.
Both men and women have told me I'm beautiful and that I should maybe look into modeling. I don't have any interest in it whatsoever. I don't think I'm unattractive, mind you, but I've never considered myself model material. I'm 5'4" and 110 pounds with blonde hair and gray eyes, and C-cup breasts. I guess my ass and my legs are nice. I've seen hundreds of models and they're stunning. I just never thought of myself as anything but an average girl.
That still didn't stop people from hitting on me. A few women have even done it, too. I've been with a few girls and had fun, so it really didn't bother me. I'm not totally straight, but I just prefer guys. Girls are only a nice change of pace.
For the most part, I let it the innuendo slide. Most of them were generally harmless. However, there was one customer who almost made me kick him in the balls. He went beyond cute innuendo and into sexual harassment.
I was on what we call a "two bagger." That is, one run, but two separate delivery orders. The first delivery was to a dumpy ranch-style house near the city limits. I'd never been there before. There was a nearly new high-riser Ford in the unpaved driveway and the lawn was in shitty shape. And there was a smell coming from inside that almost made me heave. The guy who placed the order was a tall, really skinny, crew-cutted guy in his mid-thirties. He was so ballsy that he blatantly hit on me with his wife and two children looking on. She didn't say a word. This prick kept saying how pretty I was and he was a real man. He claimed he was a Marine, which I don't believe for a second.
I finally told this prick that I had less than zero interest in him and that what he was doing was against the law and he should be ashamed of himself when he had a wife and kids. He just shrugged. He said he wasn't giving me a tip, but would give me five dollars for my phone number. I grabbed the money and left without thanking him. I could hear him chuckling as I walked off. I was pissed at him, but what pissed me off worse was that he had no respect for his wife and kids. I felt awful for them because they were stuck with a sorry asshole. I was so upset over it that I pulled into a do-it-yourself car wash and broke down. I thought about calling the police and having Crew Cut arrested for sexual harassment. After about five minutes, I took a deep breath and tried to compose myself. Using Kleenex and a bottle of water, I cleaned up the tear streaks on my face as best I could and took the second delivery to an apartment complex next door to the car wash. I put on my best fake smile and tried to act normally and apologized for the delay to the guy who answered the door. The ticket said his first name was Dave.
"Are you alright?" Dave asked in a concerned tone. "You look like you've been crying. What's wrong?"
"Huh? Oh? Someone ran a stop sign and nearly hit me," I lied. "Just shook me up a little you know? I'm fine though, thank you."
And I smiled again. But it was genuine.
"Well... okay, Rebecca," he said nodding.
"How'd you know my name?" I asked.
"Your nametag," he replied pointing to it.
Duh! I winced and blushed. I was thinking Dave wasn't buying my lie. He paid for his $13.50 order with a twenty and told me the rest was mine and asked if I was really okay. I said yes and thanked him and left.
I hoped that Dave didn't think my behavior was a ploy to gain sympathy and felt a little guilty about lying to him. He actually called my store and expressed his concern to the manager, who took me aside when I got back. I broke down again. I told him about what happened at Crew Cut's house. He gave me a few minutes to compose myself and said it was cool and that they wouldn't accept delivery orders from him again.
The next day, my day off, I went to Dave's house to thank him for his kindness and concern. He looked a little surprised to see me and invited me in.
"Don't worry about it, Rebecca. I was just concerned," he said. "Your manager told me what really happened. I hope you didn't get in hot water because that wasn't my intention."
"Nah," I said. "I was just so angry. The guy's on the ban list now. I'm thinking about calling CPS."
"You should," said Dave. "For the wife and kids' sake."
I did actually. I don't know what happened, but within a couple of weeks, the house had a for sale sign on the lawn and the truck was gone. I never saw Crew Cut again.
I began choking up.
"Hey, Rebecca, you're too beautiful to cry," Dave said.
Then he began stuttering trying to explain what he meant and that it was not a come-on. It was actually hilarious and charming at the same time. I went from tears to laughing. Dave sounded like a genuinely decent guy and I told him I was flattered.
"I really appreciate the concern, Mr..."
"Dave," he corrected me.
"Uh, okay... Dave," I said. "It's cool. You're really sweet to be concerned and I just basically wanted to let you know I really appreciate the kindness and the concern and stuff and say thank you. That's all." âĻâĻ"Ah, you're welcome," he replied.
I kissed him on the cheek, which stunned him. I was about to leave, but then I stopped.
"Hey! Want to get a milkshake?" I asked.
Dave blinked in surprise.
"I'm under drinking age," I explained.
Why I asked him out I don't know. Dave was at probably twice my age. Then I realized I might have just asked a married man out on a date.
"Oooh... I hope you're not married," I said sheepishly.
"No, no... Single," he replied.
I breathed a sigh of relief.
"Thanks for the offer. It sounds great," he said.
"Well, let's go then. I'll drive," I said.
Did he think he I might repay his niceness by having sex with him? Did I think I would have sex with him? Did I want to? I don't know. Dave wasn't bad looking by any stretch. But I wasn't in the habit of having sex with strange men or going all the way with a guy after a date or two. I love sex, don't get me wrong, but I just think it's more enjoyable with someone you know. I remember fucking one guy I met at an amusement park. I thought he was hot looking and he kept complimenting me, but he wasn't crude about it. He had a nice-sized dick and was alright in bed, but the night was pretty forgettable because there was no spark. I don't regret doing it, but the intimacy was just not there. I know a couple of girls who can get off fucking practically anybody, but I need the intimacy.
In truth, I was a good girl growing up.
I was raised single-handedly by my mother. My dad died about two months after I was born. A drunk driver slammed into him on the highway and forced him up a hill into a cement support for the east/west highway. He was killed instantly. The drunk died en route to the hospital according to the police and coroner reports. His BAC was over three times the legal limit and he'd had two prior DUI convictions. He left behind a wife and an eleven-year-old daughter.
Mom and my maternal grandma did a great job of raising me. I stayed with Granny while mom was working. Growing up, I can't remember her not having two jobs. We weren't wealthy, but we were happy. Mom occasionally dated, but nothing came of them.
I listened to mom and Granny about boys and sex and promised them I'd stay a virgin until I was an adult, and when I did become sexually active, I promised I would always use birth control or at least make the guy wear a condom every time.
Their concern was understandable. Granny got pregnant with my mom at fifteen by a neighborhood boy and regretted not waiting until she was old enough to support a child. She dropped out of school to raise her and was married three times. The first two were assholes. The first guy cheated constantly on her and the second guy was abusive.
Mom gave birth to me at seventeen; my dad was in his late twenties. They didn't exactly have a happy marriage, but from what I was told, he was thrilled that he was going to be a father and they said they wanted to stay together for me.
Mom and Granny preached to me to not make the mistakes they did. The nuns and the priests at the parochial school I attended tried to guilt trip students into staying celibate until they were married. We weren't Catholic; mom just didn't trust public schools. She told me that Catholic schools may have had a reputation of providing a good education, but their views on sex were bullshit because priests and nuns vowed never to have it.
"Rebecca: Don't listen to people talk about things they have no clue about," she told me. "When it comes to history or math, yeah, listen to the sisters. But when it comes to sex, they're clueless. You listen to
me
about that stuff, alright?"
Oh, but then number eighteen rolled around. I let Todd, the boy I was dating, go all the way. He wasn't a virgin, but he'd had little experience.