I'd re-read my message dozens of times. Still I was shaking, and couldn't bring myself to hit SEND.
"Thanks for coming to my party! Sorry we didn't get to chat more...now that I'm graduated, does that mean we can finally hang out? :-)"
I needed to be flirty & suggestive, but not desperate or inappropriate. Basically, I needed to not sound like a high schooler. I was officially a graduate, and on my way to college...I could act mature around him. The problem was, I didn't know if he saw me that way.
Mr. M was my dream guy. I'd been in love with him ever since Sophomore English. He was young...only 10 years older than me. So, the thought of us together couldn't be totally unrealistic. After sophomore year, I visited him all the time in his classroom. I'd come eat lunch in there, and hang out after school. My senior year, I had an off period, so I became his teacher's assistant. I got to hang out during his conference period - help make copies, grade papers, etc. Basically, I could flirt with my crush every day.
He'd flirt back, sometimes. At least I thought he was flirting. He was friendly and funny, and sexy as hell. Of course my little school-girl fantasy involved him taking me in the closet in the back of his classroom. By the time I graduated high school, I'd been with 2 boys. But he was the ultimate conquest. Now, I was 18 and no longer a student at his school. I was as close as I'd ever be before moving to Wisconsin for college. The first step was to make myself hit SEND.
The wait is the worst part. I checked my email 20 times over the course of the day. Would he even respond? The answer came at 10:30 pm, that night. "Of course! Let's grab coffee sometime before you leave."
A week later, we had a date. I spent way too much time getting ready for it, but I knew I had to leave an impression on him, if I ever stood a chance. Summer in Michigan can still be cool, but it didn't matter. I wore a short denim skirt, a whit tank top, and a tight pink cardigan. Cute, flirty, but not slutty.
We met for coffee, and it was nice. Conversation was always easy, and it was no different this time. We talked about college, what to expect, etc. I wanted to be a teacher too, so we talked about the job market, interviewing, everything. Even without the sexual tension between us, I always enjoyed spending time with him.
And we left the coffee shop. We walked to the parking lot, and I asked where he lived. He told me about his new apartment, and I asked when he'd invite me over (Why not, right?) If I was ever in doubt how he felt about me, my answer came that instant.
"Do you want to come see it?"
This was happening!
I followed him to his place, and we went up to his apartment. He gave me the grand tour, and of course we ended up in his bedroom. We were looking around, being stupid and awkward. I made a joke, he made a joke, and then we started playfully hitting eachother. The way kids do when they don't know how to flirt. We hit each other, and we pushed each other, and the next thing you know, he grabbed my arm, and pulled me toward him. We stared at eachother as our bodies touched. My heart was pounding. I could tell his was, too.
And then we kissed. And it was everything I'd wanted since I was 15 years old.
Well...not EVERYTHING. I pushed my body against his, and he wrapped his arms around me. Then we opened our eyes, and looked at each other. I could tell he was trying to get a read on me. Was this what I wanted? Did I think he was a creep for doing this? I smiled. Now that I knew he wanted me, I knew I'd have to be the aggressor here.
I put my hand behind his head, and pulled him toward me. We kissed, and I slid my tongue into his mouth. He pulled me closer, and we were making out in his bedroom. Believe me when I say this was a fantasy I had, and I had fingered myself to climax, several times only imagining us kissing. This was enough for me, but I was already wet, and I could feel how hard he was...I had to have him.
I stepped back, and reached down to undo his belt. I could tell he was nervous, and my goal was to make him feel as comfortable as possible. I unbuttoned his pants, and reached in to feel how hard he was. When I wrapped my fingers around him, he got even harder, and let out a gasp. I smiled at him, and pushed him against the bed. He fell onto it, and I climbed aboard.
I kneeled over him, and we kissed again, his hands running up my leg, and up my skirt. When he felt my ass, he gave it a little squeeze and I moaned into his mouth. He pushed his hips up to me, and I bit down on his lower lip. He moaned again, and I loved being in control. He opened his eyes, and looked at me. "Is this okay?" he asked. I smiled and nodded, then sat up and took off my sweater and tank top.
He sat up with me, wrapped his arms around me, and started kissing my neck and shoulders. Reaching his arms around me, he undid my bra while I ran my fingers through his hair.