Ninety days.
She repeats the two words over and over in her head in the car.
Now it doesn't seem that long ago, but before, it was an eternity.
She sits in the back seat, staring out the window, shifting her weight every now and again, and tries to keep those thoughts she's thought for so long out of her mind. She knows the dampness between her thighs won't dissipate anytime soon, though, so she eventually just sits still.
His parents make idle chit chat in the front seat, and she laughs and speaks to them as well, but her mind isn't here. Her mind is with him, on the plane, and right now they're making love in the tiny bathroom again, somewhere in the troposphere.
One hundred and thirty-five days.
Three thousand, two hundred and forty hours; one hundred, ninety-four thousand and four hundred minutes; eleven million, six hundred and sixty-four thousand seconds (give or take), since they'd last made love. It had been ninety days since she'd last seen him, when she had spent their only time alone together performing oral sex on him (when he finally came for the first time that way and she had loved every second of it).
She taps her nails on her purse again. Realizing that it's once again the only noise in the car and might be annoying by now, she stops and writhes her hands together instead.
She refrains from asking, "Are we there yet?" like a child, and continues to stare out the window.
She wonders if he's lost more weight and shakes her head. His first three weeks away he'd lost at least twenty-five pounds, and she hadn't lost a single one. It wasn't for lack of trying---hell, the first week of his departure she cried almost constantly, and was in and out of the bathroom throwing up. She couldn't eat or sleep, and then as the days turned into weeks and the weeks turned into months, she either didn't sleep at all or slept all the time, and usually had to be reminded to eat. She exercised to the point that she was sore for days afterward, but the scales stayed the same, so she eventually stopped trying altogether.
She shifts again and sighs, leans back in the seat, and closes her eyes.
She smiles to herself as the mental imagery takes over, and then crosses her legs.
She glances at the people, trying to spot him, and curses under her breath again because she can't see far away clearly. She hears his mother say, "There he is," and eyes the crowd frantically. When she sees him his smile is genuine, and she runs, just like she'd kidded that she would.