He had a girlfriend. I knew it was wrong. He knew it was wrong. But he was in another country, on holiday. What happens on holiday stays on holiday, right? That was what I kept telling myself.
At first I had thought it was all in my head. He had mentioned something about me to one of my friends a few days beforehand, something about me being cool and easy to talk to. He might have even used the word 'hot' but I'm not expecting much. I had met him a week before, he knew one of my friends so was staying at their place for a few weeks while he explored Sydney. We were at my friend's house, Ben, and were playing drinking games. The game was Never Have I Ever, one I remember playing when I was just beginning to sexually experiment, but now seemed a little childish. It was Ben's turn.
"Never have I ever kissed a girl," he said, then instantly took a swig of his drink. We each took turns glancing around the circle to see who was sipping their drink, whether obviously or slyly. I took a sip of mine. Most people knew about my brush with bisexuality, but he had just looked at me, one eyebrow raised, a hint of a smile on his lips. I couldn't help watching the way his mouth curved around the top of the bottle and the way his Adam's apple bobbed up and down after swallowing. I had had a few drinks by then, having played King's Cup beforehand, so I excused myself to go to the bathroom, wobbling a bit as a stood up and the alcohol rushed to my head.
I knew I had to break the seal at some point and since none of us were planning on going anywhere for the rest of the night I knew I would have reasonable access to a bathroom whenever the alcohol decided to rip through me.
As I came out of the bathroom I was passing the kitchen and saw him standing there, leaning against the bench, drink in hand, one leg crossed over the other as though waiting.
"What you doing?" I asked casually, trying to control the small butterfly that had decided to start flittering in my tummy.
"Nothing," he said, just as casually. I shrugged and went to the fridge, getting my next bottle of wine out. It was the cheapest kind, but I was determined that my wine always stay in a bottle, I wouldn't stray to the goon sack. It was a rose, with a nice amount of berries. I had had it before and liked it, so it was lucky I was able to find it again.
I opened it, savouring the sound as the seal scraped open.
"What's that?" I heard him ask, coming up behind me. I could feel his body heat on my back, a bit of a shock with the coolness of the fridge on my front. I turned around.
"Rose," I said, showing him the label. "It's pretty nice." I took a swig and offered him some. He took the bottle from me and sipped it. His eyes never left mine, which left me feeling funny. I could feel my nipples harden slightly, although that could have something to do with the fact I was still standing in the path of the fridge.
"Yeah, it's alright," he said, handing it back. He was still standing in front of me, blocking off my way to the door.
"We should probably get back," I said, motioning past him. He ignored me, instead seemed to focus on my hair.
"Are your curls natural?" he asked, bringing a hand up to cup one of my curls in his hand. His hand brushed my neck and ear lobe ever so gently, but enough to raise goosebumps on my arms.
"Yep," I replied proudly, ignoring what my body obviously wanted me to do.
"They're really nice," he said. "I hate it when girls do all those fake curls, does not look nice at all." I laughed, I knew plenty of girls like that.
"What type of hair does your girlfriend have?" I said, unable to help myself. His eyes narrowed slightly but a smile played about his lips. He didn't answer for a while, seeming to truly think about it.
"Well, it's not as nice as yours, I'll tell you that much." I nodded and pushed past him. I felt a hand encircle my wrist, holding me back. I looked at his hand then back up at him, questioning him with my eyes.
"We've been having some problems lately," he admitted. He genuinely looked upset, his shoulders had sagged and he didn't seem anywhere near as cocky as he had been this past week. He looked a little vulnerable.
"Why?" I asked.
"I don't know," he replied, letting go of my wrist and jumping up onto the kitchen counter. I guessed this was going to be a long chat. I didn't really want to talk about the girlfriend of the guy I had a crush on, but sensed he needed to talk so I jumped up next to him.
"It started just after I booked my ticket to come here. She hates the fact that she's back in Rhode Island, doing her normal stuff while I'm in Australia, living it up. It also doesn't help that I'll be gone for at least four months." He paused, as though wondering if I would say something. When I didn't he pressed on.
"She just kept talking about how I was going to cheat on her, meet someone knew, blah blah blah. She's very insecure, we only ever do missionary, and she always asks me how she looks. I knew all this before I started dating her, but she was also really bubbly and fun. The bubbliness and fun are wearing thin now though, I don't think I want to be with her anymore."
I didn't know what to say. Of course I wanted to shout at him that he should break up with her if he wasn't happy, but I felt that was too selfish on my part. I only wanted him to do that so I could have a go at him. I bit my tongue and offered him the bottle of wine instead.
He smiled and accepted it gratefully, taking a huge gulp. A bit dribbled down his chin, through his stubble, and I fought the urge to wipe it off.
"Anyway," he said. "Enough of me depressing you. What about you and boys? I bet you're fighting them off with a stick."
"Ha!" I exclaimed. "Hardly. Honestly, I've never really had anything proper with anyone. It's more been flings and things like that. But no one on the horizon at the moment."
"No one?" he asked and I felt him squidge a little closer to me. His hand was behind me and I felt it touch my back.
"I don't know," I said, not knowing what to do. My conscience was screaming at me to leave him alone, to run into the other room, to barricade my pussy with a chastity belt. But the other part of my brain, the one that Freud calls the Id, the pleasure principle was beginning to overrule my subconscious.
I felt the exact moment it was squashed when he leaned in and placed his lips softly against mine. They were warm and full and tasted a little like beer and wine. His eyes delved into mine when we broke apart. My mouth was still open, still a little shocked as what had just happened. I knew he was a bit full of himself, but I hadn't expected him to be quite so brazen, especially after just telling me about his girlfriend.
"Still no one?" he whispered. I could feel his warm breath near my mouth. I couldn't take it. Fuck the girlfriend. Fuck my morals. I blame Freud and his Id factor. I leaned forward this time and our lips met quickly and forcefully. His hand came up and cupped my face. Without breaking our tongues I felt him jump down from the counter and move himself between my legs. I had to turn my face downwards slightly to reach his lips. My arms wrapped around his shoulders, pulling him closer. His hands were on my thighs, rubbing up and down them slowly. I felt them head up my thighs and suddenly one was between my legs, softly stroking my jeans. My pussy began to pulse, my body responding to his touch. His other hand came around my back, slipping under the back of my shirt to softly stroke my lower back. His fingers were cool, leaving a trail of goosebumps wherever he touched.