I never thought two short sentences could have such an effect on me. That one can make up for so much lost with such simple things, such as paying attention to each other. Again, I read what he sent: "I can't wait to get back home. I want you so much."
I count how many words there are. Thirteen. About equal to the number of months we've lost each other. How such a thing can happen? No idea. Of course, you can always come up with excuses like work, stress and a young child, but a people sometimes just grow apart. Luckily, such a thing does not have to be permanent. Things can be mended. People can grow close again. And I could not wait for him to be physically close to me again. My beautiful man...
This morning I had decided that things couldn't go on like this, living in the same house, but not really together. One of us had to do something. I had the option wait for him to do something or I could take the initiative myself. So right before he walked out to work, I stopped him and pressed myself against him, then kissed him full on the mouth. Not a dry, passion-lacking kiss like I normally gave him these days, but a kiss like we used to exchange back in the days. This kiss was far from a decent one. A kiss with tongue and saliva and, oh so good. It was still there, I felt that immediately. Passion and longing still lurked beneath the surface. And he felt it too, I could tell from the way he pressed himself against me, as if he wanted to leave a lasting impression. When I whispered in his ear: "When you come home, we'll be alone", I almost felt as if was going to have his way with me then and there. If his carpool colleague hadn't come up at the time and honked his horn, that might actually have happened.
He must have sent his text before he even had left our block. And if our kiss had sparked the embers, these words were the reason the sparks ignited in fire. The longing for him returned so fiercely, so quickly, that I doubted for a moment whether it was real. But we had missed each other so much in recent months.
The day was long ... of course I had the usual distractions; administration for my work, our daughter of course, who demanded my attention and some things to do around the house. In the afternoon I took the little one to my mother, where I stayed for a short time to drink a cup of coffee. But all the while my phone seemed to burn a hole in my pants and every so often I checked it. Every time I reread his message, I felt butterflies sparkle in my belly again. It felt like my cheeks were on fire, my breasts longing for his mouth, my body aching for him. I just hoped my mom didn't realize how much my thoughts were already at the time later in the day, because I'm pretty sure I've given some strange answers to questions she asked.
In the car back home, I considered going into town to buy new lingerie for that evening, but I decided not to. It could put too much pressure on the evening and actually I felt sexy and desired enough already. So I drove straight home to take some time for myself. A long, almost sweltering shower that made me glow even more than before, then run the razor over my legs and shave a little above it. A wonderful moment for myself. I hummed a song softly, drying my hair... what time would it be by now? When will he be with me?
I put on jeans, a smooth model like I used to wear more often and a tight t-shirt. In the mirror I saw the girl he had once fallen in love with as well as the woman, the mother, whom I had become. His so clearly expressed desire for me had given me confidence. Suddenly I understood very well why he had chosen me. And why I had chosen him.
But the clock was so slow today. I regretted not going into town after all, because this waiting was tedious. And at the same time also delicious. The anticipation of everything we would do, did its job just as well, if not better, as all the foreplay that the experts prescribed. As the flames swept through me, I forced myself to do my administration some, hoping I wouldn't make too many mistakes while I did it. I didn't text him, neither did he me, probably to increase the tension to even higher levels. I wondered if he was as distracted at work as I was here at home.
And then I heard the key turn in the lock. I almost flew to my feet, out of my chair, from my study to the living room. He just entered the living room from the hallway. He threw the bag he still had around his shoulder to the ground and all but ran towards me, a look of pure lust and love in his eyes. There was no modesty or restraint in our kiss, it was pure passion that had to be dealt with. We kissed as if we were a teenage couple in love again and everything was new and exciting. I could vaguely smell the soap from the gym where he worked, but also sweat. His scent possibly excited me even more than his lips and tongue almost devouring me or the hands grabbing my buttocks and pressing my lower body against his. I felt his boner press against my mons pubis.