"You're a lucky girl." That's what Steven says when he blindfolds me to take me down into the car. And don't I know it. I know how busy he is, how hard it has been for him to arrange for a Tuesday, which in the eyes of his employer is a wholly regular working day and evening and night, to be a night off.
In our five years as a couple, four out of which spent staying in the same flat, it is unbelievable to me that we are actually getting to spend Valentine's night together.
Before I met Steven, I was not big on Valentine's Day. I never asked for gifts, I thought cards were just another British excuse not to have to say I love you. What's the big deal, it's just another night, couples should spend a night together every week to do those things, holding hands, lighting candles, sharing delicious food, making love passionately and without clockwatching or regards for the neighbours.
But our first Valentine's together occurred almost a year into our relationship, when I was 29 and had come to realise that dating a successful lawyer means you won't actually be doing much dating. Steven gave me a necklace. It was so beautiful I wanted to cry just looking at it, because he wasn't there to hand it over in person. My friend who works at the jewellry counter at Harrods told me that it was a vintage Tiffany's from the 30s. "You're so lucky, you don't know it, Miss Golightly," she giggled to me the next day over lunch in Pizza Express.
And I told her how the box had been opened in front of me with a flourish in my skanky south London flat, just the way Steven likes it, a surprise presented with a big gesture. But afterwards, as I signed the little machine held by the courier, one of those grey plastic screens where your signature never looks anything like your actual signature, I only barely managed to hold back the tears.
I opened the handmade card included in the box while the courier waited in the doorway. A key fell out. "You outshine each one of these diamonds every day, my lovely. Put it on and the courier will take you to the real gift. Yours, Steve."
"Wait here," I told the courier as I grabbed my coat from its over-door hanger on my way to the tiny bathroom in my flat. "I don't want to be rude, miss," the courier said in a vaguely East Indian accent. "But I don't have all day. This is my last job of the evening, and it is Valentine's day."
"Won't be a sec," I yelled back from the bathroom as I slipped my sweater over my head. My breasts swelled eagerly against their black silk lace cage, a new cage at that. I put on my coat, closing it firmly and tying the belt around the waist to keep it closed. I kept my jeans on. I wanted to surprise Stevie, where ever he was meeting me. Only the slightest hint of cleavage showed when I checked in the mirror, cradling the necklace gently.
I tucked my jeans into a pair of boots and put my wallet and phone into my handbag. Downstairs, the courier handed me an extra helmet that had been resting his waiting Yamaha motorbike.
He gestured to me to sit behind him. I flung my leg over the seat and put an arms around his leathered waist, the other hand somewhat awkwardly tugging at my newly-dyed-mahogany-red hair, which had got trapped under the helmet and coat in the rush. I could never have afforded to pay for a dye job on my freelance journalist wages, but hey, people become journalists because they like freebies, and it certainly worked for me. My hair was smooth like runny honey and smelt much the same, all for free. I loved it.
As the motorbike took off from outside the council flat building, where I was amazed it had not gotten thrashed by a 15-year old crackhead while waiting, the movement made me employ both arms to hold onto the courier. His waist was narrow even beneath his outfit, and I could feel his firm thighs pressing against the inside of my own.
The speed with which he drove was exhilarating. I could feel my underwear being pressed firmly against my body, the slightest hint of an unusual smoothness against my nipples and waxed crotch, which was also "new" for the occasion.
We sped past the Portuguese cafes of Stockwell, smelling of chicken escalops and crusty rolls, I closed my eyes and as I did, I could almost imagine that it was Steve himself I was holding onto. He owned several motorbikes, but of course rarely had time to drive any of them. Where ever we were going, he would be there waiting for me, I knew it.
The anticipation made me shiver with excitement and I could feel myself moisten. We had not seen each other in private for almost a week, and although we were no longer shagging like rabbits six times a day, I was dying to have him to myself. Especially certain bits of him.
As we crossed the Thames, I could see the Albert and Victoria bridge further over, lit up almost as if it was decorated for the occasion. We fled past several couples walking along the Embankment, I could not see at that speed whether they were young or old, it didn't matter, they were together and holding onto each other. The women maybe wearing a little secret underneath like myself, the men planning to make up for a whole year of absences and silences.
For a walker and public transporter like myself, it was quite a change to see London from the back of a bike. When we screeched to a halt, I was feeling dizzy from the twisting and turning. We were outside a large building which had recently been built next to a bridge in London, I had seen it go up on my commutes across the city.
"Where are we?" I said. "It's up here, miss," the courier said as he lifted the visor. We approached the building, it had a big glass entryway and the doors slid open silently as we approached. The courier went up to the reception counter and said something to the porter.
I realised we were in an apartment building, as I spotted names listed on the wall next to a video call system. Halogen spotlights shone on fresh flower arrangements, and the place still smelt new, and recently polished as well. Suddenly my Ugg boots and bedraggled grey coat felt out of place.
We stepped into the elevator, and as I saw the courier press the button for the top floor, my heart started beating even faster than it had been during the ride there. "I feel so shabby," it fell out of me. "If I had known I was coming to such a posh place..." I could feel the cheap coat rub against my naked skin and felt silly. "Oh don't be daft," the courier said. "You are a lucky girl to be here, and you're also prettier than all them over-made-up lunching ladies and stockbrokers living here." I smiled gratefully at him.
We stepped out of the elevator, and he led me down the corridor to one of two doors. "Your key should fit here, miss," he said. For some reason, even though it was his last job, he made no sign of leaving. "I would like to see it, miss," he said quietly. "I've never seen one of these places from the inside."
I felt annoyed. I didn't want anyone to spoil the moment for me and Steve. On the other hand, the courier had driven me across London in something which was probably exactly not a job description assignment, so I kind of felt like I owed him. So I put my key in the lock, it slid in like a hot knife in a block of butter. I turned it, and opened the door.
What met me was an amazing panoramic view of London's skyline, I could hear the courier gasp behind me, but I hardly noticed. I only noticed that Steve wasn't there. Was he hiding? But it would be unlike him to hide, he would want to be there, to look good as I opened the door.
In open-plan kitchen, a solitary spotlight was on, and I could see another card almost identical to the one which had been in with the necklace. In the flash of a light I was over to read it. "Hope you want to make this our new home. I also hope to be home by 0300 in the morning to kiss you goodnight. Steve."
I must have seemed like a spoiled brat to the courier when I threw the card on the floor and started crying. Credit to him, he didn't run away but came over and quietly asked me if I was OK. "Nothing wrong, I'm just being stupid," I said between sobs. "I thought... I thought he would..."
."..Be there," the courier said. "Those city boys. They can be such arseholes sometimes."
"He's actually a lawyer," I corrected loyally through tears. But I could tell that the courier had not much more regard for that profession. "Let me take your coat," he said. "I'll make us some tea. This place must have tea."
I hardly noticed as he untied the belt of my coat and slipped it down my shoulders. I didn't know why I was crying. It was not as if Steve had promised to be there. He had just promised to give me a surprise. And he certainly had.
"Oh, Miss," the courier exclaimed. He swiftly dropped my coat and took a step back, turing his head away. "I'm so sorry." I looked down and remembered that I was half naked. I could feel myself blushing. Instinctively I crossed my arms across my chest. "No, I'm sorry," I said. "I'll get a sweater."
Then, of course, I realised that I had nothing with me to wear. Nice job. "Oh sod it," I said. "Let's make some tea." I let my arms down and turned towards the kitchen counter. I could feel the courier's eyes on my back. And the "sod it" part of me was beginning to enjoy it.
It is a safe bet that any flat in the UK contains tea. Someone had obviously already been moving stuff into the flat. Kitchen appliances were lined up along the counter, including, thankfully, a kettle and one of those gift box style tea caddies that actually contain tea bags.