This is a follow up to
Going Pro
and
Going Pro Again
. It should stand alone but I recommend reading the first two to set the scene. ~BT73.
It's hard to believe that I'm already half-way through my associate degree in financial planning. My earlier financial problems showed me the importance of good financial planning, particularly the value of putting money into a reserve fund in case of problems. It was a major car expense that first taught me this lesson and then when the store where I worked shut down for a couple of weeks, that cemented it.
If I had money put aside, I probably wouldn't have become a part-time escort. But I didn't have an emergency fund and all the alternatives, like asking my parents for money, were worse than having sex with strangers. As it was, I was lucky. I wasn't beaten up by a client and I wasn't arrested. I didn't get any STD and, as far as I know, none of my family, friends, or co-workers found out about my other job.
Some of the experiences, to my great surprise, were no worse than some one night stands I've had. I was amazed to find that there were people who were willing to pay to go down on me. I'll never say no to cunnilingus and being paid for it was sort of crazy. Even when it was a woman who licked me to a climax, I enjoyed myself and I didn't have to lick her back.
The ones in the middle were the GFEs--the girlfriend experiences. Some of these were sad. These guys paid to kiss me and play with my boobs and to fuck me like we were on a date, or like they imagined what a date would be like. A couple of them were upfront about not having time to find a girlfriend but some of them totally lacked social skills and I got the impression they were connecting with me more than they ever had connected with a girl before.
Some of the experiences though were about as disgusting as you can imagine. Going down on a guy I just met, who normally I wouldn't even let buy me a drink, wasn't even the worst. When a guy wanted the GFE, I at least felt like he wanted me as a person even if that person was really someone in his fantasy. But some of the straight fucks made me feel like the guy wasn't even renting my whole body. He was only renting my vagina so he had a place to stick his cock and basically masturbate. Those were the clients who left me feeling the most degraded.
Since the time that my bosses decided to shut down their store and take a vacation, I've been fairly stable financially. I started school that fall and they lived up to their promise to give me the flexibility to work around my classes. About half of the people working there are students so everyone was kind of used to this but I still appreciated it. They even let me cut back during finals week and make up the hours the next week so I didn't lose any money.
This means that I haven't had to repost my ad in our local alternative weekly and I've kept my burner phone turned off. A couple of times, when it looked like I'd have more monthly expenses than monthly pay, I was tempted but the skills I'm learning in school helped me make it through until I got my next pay check.
But now I needed to make a decision. My bosses apparently had such a good time on their vacation that they're going back again this year. I can now survive on half-pay for a couple of weeks but it's going to wipe out a good chunk of my emergency fund. Plus, one of my teachers is trying to convince me to transfer to a four-year school when I finish my two-year program. She showed me the salary I can make with a bachelor's degree and I have to admit that I'm tempted, as long as I can find a way to pay for it.
Well, yeah. I do have a way to pay for it. I can always use the money-maker between my legs if I decide that I want it bad enough. Do I?
I don't think I qualify for any scholarships but there are always student loans. If I do go on in school, I'd rather graduate without a ton of debt if I can pull that off. I'll also have a heavier class load and probably harder classes so I may not be able to work as many hours as I've been doing, even with a flexible boss.
I now know how to make a budget so I opened up my laptop, clicked on the spreadsheet, and started entering my data. I began with my current expenses and then estimated what they'd be if I continue in school. Then I looked at my income--what it is now and what it would be if I worked fewer hours. Then, bottom line, I looked at the gap between my expenses and my income.
Ouch. The gap was a lot bigger than I thought it would be. Maybe a college degree is a dream that's just not going to happen--as much of a fantasy as some of my GFE clients finding a real girlfriend. I closed my computer and picked up one of my textbooks to work on this week's assignment.
I'm distracted though so I went back to the spreadsheet and played what-ifs with a couple of new scenarios. I looked at getting a new job and I thought about getting a roommate. These would help but they wouldn't do as much as the scenario I tried to force out of my head but which kept coming back.
What if I reposted my ad so I could increase my income now? I could put what I earned away so that I could get by with lower income until I finished school. I could also earn more money during summer and winter breaks so I'd be able to get by during classes.