I sat at the bar, gulping my second bourbon a little too fast. I almost jumped out my skin as my phone beeped.
Sorry, On bus. Traffic is a nightmare. I'm almost there. 5 mins x
I had only been there half an hour, but it seemed like I had been waiting half a day. Another five minutes might have been the end of me!
I took another drink, my cheeks drawing together at the sharpness of the taste.
"Hi!" a voice from behind suddenly said.
I jerked in fright and a dribble of bourbon slipped out the corner of my mouth.
"Shit! Um...hi!" I stuttered and wiped my face.
He smiled at me and kissed me once on the cheek. Here he was, Simon, my high school crush, 15 years on. My stomach flipped and I swore he could hear my heartbeat. It was as though everyone in the bar had stopped to witness our interaction.
He was exactly as I remembered him, just a little more filled out, a little more muscular, a little taller and a lot more man! His dirty blond hair was shorter and styled into rough spikes. His grey eyes held me in his gaze.
"Can I get you a drink then?" He smiled.
My stomach flipped again. It could win Olympic Gold at this rate.
"Um...yes please...um...bourbon and soda."
He leaned over the bar to order our drinks from the large figure of a man waiting patiently. I fidgeted with my fingers, twisting my rings around and around. I had no idea why I was nervous. Maybe it was the thought of the unknown!
***
I had hung out with Simon when we were in high school. We became really good friends, but one night we got drunk and took things too far. We had ended up fucking in a --field -- how unromantic. That was not exactly how I had hoped my first time would turn out. Secretly, I had wanted something to happen between us, but obviously he hadn't. He didn't talk to me after that night, ever again. For the rest of our time at school he ignored me, and even turned others against me. He truly broke my heart.
We had bumped into each other a few weeks back whilst I was out shopping. I came out of the ladies changing room and there he was, waiting on his wife. He suggested we meet for a catch-up and took my number, but I never expected him to call.
***
We found a table in a cramped corner of the bar. There were other people at the table so we squeezed in together on a bench seat. My skin prickled as I felt the heat of his leg pressed against mine. My stomach was one step closer to taking first place on the Olympic podium.
"So...how does your husband feel about you meeting random men on a Saturday night," he asked, smiling.
"Oh...I...I'm not married," I whispered, and took a sip of my drink.
"Really? Wow...I thought you would have been snapped up long ago. You must have a boyfriend, surely?"
I shook my head and blushed slightly. "No, but don't worry...I don't have cats...yet," I joked. "I could say the same for you. How does your wife feel?"
His mouth pressed into a hard line.
"She doesn't own me. I'll do what I want," he snapped.
"Oh...I..."
"Sorry. That sounded way harsher than it was supposed to. It's just my wife is ...well..." He sighed, then took a long drink and placed his empty glass on the table.
"Another?" he asked, pointing towards his empty glass.
"Okay, please," I said as I looked at my practically full glass.
What was all that about, I wondered, as he headed towards the bar. It was then I noticed he wasn't wearing his wedding band. What was going on? I really wanted to question him but I knew I shouldn't pry. My mind wandered.
Suddenly he appeared next to me again.
"Things aren't great between me and Vanessa. Not great at all. To be honest, I'm just not happy. I haven't been for a while. I suppose I must have been at some point, but I got married far too quickly and way too young. I was only 22. She just likes to control everything I do, where I go, when I go, who I go with...I've had enough. She thinks I'm meeting my dad tonight! I've just had enough." He took a large gulp of his drink.
I didn't know what to say. I just half smiled and took a sip from my glass.
He continued, "Sorry...you don't need to hear this. Tell me...what's been going on with you?" He smiled, and my heart raced. It only felt like yesterday I was kissing him on those wonderful full lips.
I snapped back to the present.
"Um...nothing really. Uni...moved to the city, working the 9 to 5."
"Oh come on...there must be more to you than that." He gazed into my eyes, pinning me to the spot.
I told him about my volunteer work, my hobbies, my family, concerts I had been to and what new music I was into. Drinks seemed to come and go like magic and time passed in the blink of an eye as we chatted away for hours. We met just after 8 pm and it was now 1130. I couldn't believe how well we were getting on after all this time.
"I need to tell you something that I've never told you before," he whispered with a slight drunken tone to his voice. "I'm sorry."
"For what? Getting me drunk?" I smiled.
He laughed silently.
"For the way I was at school. I was such a dick. You didn't deserve that in any shape or form. Fuck...it horrifies me thinking about it. I had no right to be that way. I was just trying to be the big man in front of my friends. I should have stood up for you when they teased me for sleeping with you, and when they teased you. But instead I denied it and made you out to be an obsessed liar."
I blushed and took a drink.
"Will you please forgive me, Beth?" He sighed and placed his hand over mine, squeezing it.
I whipped my hand away and pushed a stray hair behind my ear.