I'm looking at the room upside down, my head hanging off the edge of the hotel bed. Not quite enough for all the blood to rush there, but enough to enjoy the vision of lamps seemingly springing from the floor like fountains of light. I'm just out of the shower, and if I don't get myself together soon, my hair will be tangled and impossible to style. But I can't seem to rouse myself quite yet. You are naked, and I need (yes, I said NEED) to watch as you pack. I stare as you stride fearlessly, hanging from the ceiling, oblivious to my gaze.
Maybe this would be better if I turned on my side.
I love to look at you when you don't know or care that I am watching. The sight of the muscles working in the back of your calves, the tender skin at the base of your neck, or your dark eyes as you gaze into the middle distance, pondering something; all these are pretty much guaranteed to entice me. Of course, it's a catch-22, because when you turn the force of your charm on me -- well, that certainly sucks me in as well.
Basically, right now, I crave you at least a little bit during every second I am in your presence - and much of the time when I'm not. God, that sounds ridiculous, and corny as a $1.99 Hallmark card. I hate those sweeping, romantic, prom song generalizations. OK -- I can say with some certainty that I had no desire to have sex with you when we accidentally got a 3AM wake-up call this morning. But that's about it.
Egads - I want to find the green gods that molded you and see if they installed this particular voice simply so it could unspool in my ear like a velvet ribbon. I want to ask if that mouth was tested among millions of others and found to be the one that would fit mine like the lid to a jar. I want to stop looking at you like some kind of tail-wagging puppy. I want some greasy breakfast. I don't want to go. I want you now -- again - and for God's sake, how can you keep walking past my sprawled, clean, naked body? Have you no heart?
"Hey," I say, my voice low and a little rough. "Why don't you just bring that thing on over here?"
You give me a growling chuckle, acknowledging me, but nothing more. Acknowledging me as though I had just made some witticism, rather than giving voice to a lust that, now that I've loosened my hold on it, is causing my hips to shift against the thin, disordered blankets and my nipples to tighten painfully. I roll onto my stomach, ankles crossed, so I can surreptitiously grind into the mattress. You are rolling up a t-shirt tightly and fitting it neatly into place. God help me, I want to be that fucking t-shirt, your fingers deftly manipulating me just -- so.