In a single motion as I lowered myself back down on him, I lifted his shaft upright and pushed myself down on to it; having it fill at last the emptiness only he could fill; pushing myself down; pushing him in as deeply as I could. Bending over and bringing my legs down alongside his as I lay on top of him, I pushed harder to bring my clit into contact with his pubis; moving straight in to a succession of intensely physical thrusts each ending with that same arousing contact.
Greg's brain eventually caught up with his crutch in registering what was going on and after untying my bikini top he now had his mouth wrapped around a breast; his tongue flicking the engorged nipple. If I registered that we were now making love exposed in the middle of the day on the open beach for all to see it probably just enhanced my arousal.
In only about 10 maybe 15 thrusts I came for the first time, moaning loudly and shivering with intense pleasure as my body contracted repeatedly on Greg's cock. But it wasn't my climax I was seeking. With barely a moment's hesitation I kept thrusting; tightening my grip around his shaft, trying to imitate from on top the sort of movements Greg usually did when seeking his own climax - all the time still stimulating my clit on his pubis. Greg's oohs and aahs started to tell me he wasn't far of going either encouraging me to greater effort.
As he came he thrust his hips in to me. I clamped myself to his shaft. I was sure I could feel the pulsing at the base of his shaft as his body pumped out its load in to me. In my mind I pictured his seed spraying over my cervix; flooding the top of my vagina. The ongoing stimulation from my thrusting, Greg's throwing his hips up at me, the feeling of his pulsing shaft and my imagination combined to push me in to my second climax.
As our passions subsided, as the moment of sexual frenzy passed, Greg finally had a chance to ask -
"What brought that on?"
What I had just done had been driven by lust. Not the sort of lust driven by a desire for sexual satisfaction. It was more primitive than that. It was a mating lust; a reproductive lust. I wanted Greg's seed inside me.
Even now I had myself pushed hard down on Greg, pushing his shaft deeply within me, my pelvic floor muscles firmly clamped around him. I wanted him to stay firm. I wanted him to plug his seed inside my vagina and dam it up against my cervix. I was on the pill, I knew I wasn't fertile but I still loved the thought of his seed invading my body, swimming up my cervix and into my womb. Frankly I wasn't sure what the pill did to that mechanism. It didn't really matter. In my mind it was happening. The more of his seed I could hold in my body and the longer I could hold it there, the more would invade me
By first merely mentioning the possibility that Greg might one day be the father of my children he had offered me the chance to unburden myself of the thoughts I had so carefully kept locked up since the day we meet. They were thoughts so dangerous, so threatening to my relationship that they had stopped me being fully honest with Greg about my feelings for him. Every time we had discussed our feelings for each other, Greg had been the one to raise it; Greg had led the way in pouring out the strength of his love. I had been reduced to a "me too" level of response not because they were any less but because I was scared of driving him off with the collateral emotions he had stirred up in me.
Now by overreacting I had challenged my ability to open up to him. I had done something so passionate that anything I said now would be tainted. Like on that glorious night we had gone to dinner by boat, tears started to well up. I was in danger of being reduced to heaving emotional sobs again. In the seconds I had to consider my answer I fought an internal battle between the forces that wanted finally to be able to talk honestly and those that still lived in fear.
This might be my only chance. Trying to level my voice and strip it of excess emotion; trying to pick words that were measured and unthreatening, I responded.
"You mentioned the possibility we one day might have children together. Greg I know we're young and I know we've really only just got to know each other, so don't think I wanting to rush anything. It's just that since I've known you I've gone from being someone who thought she didn't want children to being someone who wants a family one day. It excites me to think that one day you might be the father of those children."
Now I'd started I thought I'd better get it out; making sure I shaped the message as safely as possible as I went along.
"We've both got study to finish and careers to get started first and I know we're still in the first flush of our relationship and things can change with time, but I love you so much that I can't help but dream one day we'll get married and have kids. I've been frightened to mention those thoughts because I thought I'd scare you, so when you raised the possibility it sort of overwhelmed me."
By now the tears were streaming down my face; a face that was raised on both elbows and fully in Greg's vision. Lifting a hand, he gently smudged them away.
"Hey, have you forgotten I was the one who was scared of frightening you away? I think about what it would be like married to you all the time. I think about being able to live with you instead of just having to visit you. I've always wanted a family and I think about how fantastic any kids you produce would be. There's nothing to be scared of. You don't get rid of me that easily.
Look, like you I know we still have growing up to do. We also have to make sure we're suited to each other long term. All I know is that here and now I'd love to think that one day we'll get married. And sometimes I even think I'd like that to be sooner than I might have thought likely before I meet you. Karen, we're on the same page on this. I'd hate to think that you felt you have to bottle it all up. Just be natural with me; talk to me. I love you. I'm overjoyed you feel so strongly towards me too. Let's talk about these things and make all the plans in the world. If they happen that's great. If something happens in the future and changes how we feel about each other than all I can say is we'd have great memories of thinking about how things might have been."
I couldn't hold it in any longer. Emotions that had built up over the last months burst within me. A flood of tears and heaving sobs escaped uncontrollably from me as I let them all out; sobs that never the less went all the way down to where our bodies were still joined - his still rigid shaft clamped firmly within me. By now Greg had seen this before; he knew these were sobs of joy. As I put my head back down on his shoulder he wrapped a hand around my head and rocked me gently from side to side, the other hand on my naked bottom holding me tightly to him.
As the emotion drained from me the passion that had started this whole show re-emerged. I still held both his seed and his yet unyielding shaft in my body. I wanted to savour my fantasy - to see it through - to pretend that even now our bodies were struggling to create new life. I didn't really want to get pregnant and I knew I couldn't; but more than ever before it struck me with blinding clarity that what we were engaged in was above all an act of procreation. I became aware of just how aroused I was. My body felt like a ripe plumb ready to burst. I wanted Greg again. He was already filling me but I wanted him to come in me again.
At least having the presence of mind to first look up and down the beach to make sure that our risk of a public display wasn't becoming real, I rolled us over so that he was on top of me, his legs outside mine. I was emboldened like never before. I pulled his ear to my mouth and whispered -
"Make love to me. Fuck me. Give yourself the best orgasm you possibly can. Just go for it!"
Greg looked at me; a look that conveyed puzzlement, anticipation and concern all in one expression. The hand Greg originally had on the cheek of my bum moved in to the small of my back, pulling my body in to him as he started a slow powerful thrusting movement his chest brushing against my nipples. In my head, the seed he'd deposited earlier was now being agitated, pushed against my cervix, helped along its path.
His weight now was on his knees and the arm he had by my shoulder. The other arm was lifting my back, supporting me, pulling me in to him and bracing me as his thrusts continued. I felt his knees come up along-side my thighs giving him more support as he adopted a flattened kneeling position. With his free arm he had lifted himself up, the arm in the small of my back pulling me higher.