I heard my phone go off and my fingers automatically began to hit pretend keys in the air to "Fur Elise," one of my favorite songs to play on the keyboard. I walked over to the phone and hit the button to see who text me. I smiled when I saw it was from Thomas, a long time, long distance friend. We had spoken to each other for at least five years. I had taken about a two year sabbatical on talking over the Internet but had recently returned. Upon my return, Thomas had given me his cell number and I had started texting him instead of e-mailing. This was a good thing. It was easier to text then to jump on the net to check in boxes. I read the text, "what's up, baby? How are you?"
I smiled as I typed my response, "not much. It's summer time. Don't have anything to do, no classes, no work. It kinda sux! Other than that, I'm good. How r u doing?"
I brought the phone with me as I sat back down on the couch and hit play on the remote. I am a graduate student so during the semester I do not get much time to watch television. I had entire seasons of my favorite shows to watch and currently I was into watching "Ghost Hunters."
The phone went back off and I looked down at it, "I'm good. Can I ask you to do me a favor?"
My eyebrow went up but I didn't think much of it. He had asked for these things before: do me a favor, call me, let me hear your voice; do me a favor also meant, sometimes, that we were about to start one of our extremely hot fuck-talk sessions. I replied back, "yeah if I can. What is it?"
I fast forwarded through the commercials and by the time the show came back on my phone was going off again, "will you give me your address?"
My head went back with a look of shock. Why did he want my address? In the years that we had been talking he had never asked for anything like that. I probably wouldn't have ever given it to him, but I thought it was strange. I replied, "Y do u want my addy?"
The response was quick, "cuz I want to send u sumthin."
"What do u want to send me?"
"Y do u ask so many questions?"
I took a deep breath, let it out, and replied, "This makes me a little nervous."
"There's no need to be nervous. Do u think I'd do anything bad?"
"Do I really know the real u?"
"Jessi. C'mon it'll be fine. I promise. It's just a little sumthin to say thnx for all the years."
"Lemme have ur addy."
"What? Y?"
"Y do u want mine?"
"I'll give it to u."
"How will I know if it is really ur addy?"
"How do I know if u give me urs that it'll really be where u live?"
"You can chk mine. There's this thing called the Internet."
"U could chk mine too."
"Well, Thomas, u gonna give it to me or what?"
He replied with an address. I replied back, "This is ur real addy? If I looked it up, I would be satisfied?"
"Yes, Jessi, it seriously is my real addy. I promise to God. Now give me urs."
"U know there are certain sins that u can't just go and confess to and getting an address from someone that u might be wanting to rape and kill is one of those sins. Don't promise to God if ur lying to me."
"I'm not lying to u. Nor do I want to rape and kill u."
I finally gave in and gave him my address.
"Thnx, baby. Watch the mail."
"Y? R u sending a bomb or sumthin?"
"Dammit, girl! Stop that."
I waited anxiously all week. I watched for the mailman and made him hand me each envelope. He looked at me weird but didn't say anything to me. Finally, there was an envelope with Thomas' return address on it. I looked at it but wouldn't touch it.
"Open that."
"What?"
"Open that letter for me."
"Why? I can't do that. I'd get fired."
"I'm not going to tell."
"Seriously, I can't do it."
"Seriously, you will do it."
It never took people long to succumb to what I wanted them to do and he opened the letter for me. He showed it to me, "see." He pulled out a piece of paper and handed it to me. It was a little note that said, "see you soon." Inside the envelope was a plane ticket.
"What did you think it was?"
"I didn't know."
He looked at me weirdly again, shook his head and went off to finish his route. I held the ticket in my hand. The departure date was for this coming Friday. I noticed it wasn't a round trip ticket. I went in the house and text Thomas.
"Hey, what's this plane ticket for?"
"It's for you to come see me."
"I don't fly."
"You can cash it in. Then you could use the money to buy the gas it takes to get down here."
"Y'd u do this?"
"I think that we have waited long enough to see each other. I knew you wouldn't make the first move. I can't leave here to come up there so I did the only thing I could think of."
"R u serious?"
"If I wasn't I wouldn't have spent the money on the ticket."
"It's not a round trip ticket."
"Thought myb u'd like it down here enough to stay."
"U know I can't stay. I have school and a life and everything else up here."
"Wishful thinking. When u get tired of being here I'll buy u a plane ticket home."
"No u won't. Ur going to kidnap me and keep me there."
"That's very wishful thinking."
"OMG!"
"I'm kidding, I'm kidding. You know me. You know I couldn't do that."
"How do I know? How do I really know? You could have been lying to me all these years."
"U have major trust issues don't you?"
"We rnt psycho-analyzing me."
"Jessi, seriously, I just want to see you in real life. You could stay the weekend, then I'll buy you a ticket home or you could buy yrslf one doesn't matter really."
"Alright, whatever. Thnx for the ticket."
"I'm going to be at the airport to pick you up. If ur not there....."
I knew that was coming. I really had no choice now. He knew where I lived. It wouldn't be too hard for him to take a short trip up to Kansas City.
Friday morning rolled around. I got up early and drove to the cathedral. I walked into the chapel and got on my knees. I prayed until I heard a noise. I turned around and saw my Father walking through.
"Father Matt?"
"Good morning, Jessica, how are you?"
"I'm good. Father Matt, can I speak to you?"
"Yes. I'm hear aren't I?"
He gave a playful smile and I smiled back. Father Matt was not like any priest I had ever met before.
"Well...actually...I need to confess."
He looked at me and waved his hand for me to follow him. We went into the confessional room. I didn't wait for him to say his opening prayer but crossed myself and dove right in, "forgive me Father, for I have sinned. It has been two years since my last confession."
I spilled my soul out to Father Matt. I told him things that I had never confessed before, would have never confessed until my deathbed. Then I told him what was about to happen.
"I had to confess in case I'm murdered."
"Do you really think he's going to hurt you? If you really think this then I advise you not to go."
"I don't know. I'm probably being over-dramatic. We have talked about meeting for years. I guess I just have never prepared myself for it."
He laughed and patted me on the head, "Jessica, I think you'll be okay. But you have to come back and confess what you're about to do. I'm sure everything your going to do will be sinful."
He winked at me and I blushed but nodded my head. He gave me my penance for my sins. I really didn't think that he gave me enough, but what do I know. I never thought he gave me enough for the things that I have done. I went back into the chapel and did what he told me to. Before I left I asked Father Matt to bless my rosary before I hung it around my neck.
"Don't worry Jess. I think you'll be fine. I should know, you know."
He pointed up at the ceiling and I laughed and nodded, "okay Father."
I stepped out of the terminal, a little dizzy and sick from the plane ride. As I looked up at the people waiting for friends and family, I saw Thomas. He stood there, in a black tee-shirt and a pair of jeans. His arms were crossed under his chest. I saw a look of wonder on his face. He hadn't seen me yet. I dropped back behind a man and looked at him longer. I didn't know why. I knew what he looked like, but I wanted to study him in person. I took my eyes from his short brown hair to his eyebrows. I immediately wanted to touch them. I have a small obsession with eyebrows and from the first time I saw a picture of his face I liked his. I liked the way they were shaped, the thickness of them. I wanted to run my thumb over each one. I moved on looking over his lips and jaw line. He was a very attractive man. I moved my eyes down the rest of him. He was tall; he kept himself in good shape. My eyes lingered on the area of his cock. I knew what was there, had seen many pictures of his cock. I didn't realize that the man I was hiding behind had moved and I heard Thomas' voice say my name. I looked up at him and smiled.
There is always this kind of odd silence between people who are meeting for the first time. I had talked to him on several occasions. I knew some about his life; he knew some about mine, but it still felt extremely odd to be standing right in front of him. I let his eyes drink me in, as I had done him. I watched as he looked at my strawberry-blond hair. I tried not to lock eyes with him as he studied my face. I saw his eyes go to my big blue eyes, and down my nose to my full lips and then further. I had on a tank top with a light sweater unbuttoned over it. His eyes rested on my full breasts. They finally moved down the rest of my body. He let his eyes rest on the area of my jeans that covered my pussy. He finally came back up and I looked at him with my head cocked to the side. He smiled; I smiled and he spoke up, "your short."
I nodded and bit my lower lip, "yeah I am."
"I mean, I knew that, but seeing you here in real life. Man you're really small!"
I sighed and nodded again. I only stood four feet eleven inches tall. I hadn't bothered with heels on the plane, but threw on a pair of flip-flops. He laughed, "I didn't mean to offend you."
"No you didn't. Just not the first time I've heard that."
"I kinda thought you'd be in a pair of your heels."
I shrugged, "I was on a plane. Why would I need heels?"
"I don't know. You're real cute."
"Thanks."
"Do you have any luggage?"
I lifted up my bag, "this is it."
"You didn't pack much."
"I think I packed enough."
He nodded his head, "You ready to go? Are you hungry? I'm hungry. I haven't eaten lunch yet or anything."
"Yeah, I haven't eaten anything today."
"At all?"
"No I was too nervous."
"Are you still nervous?"
"Yeah but not enough not to eat now."