Frustrated. I could tell Linda was a bit frustrated with me. Linda and I had been on several dates over the course of about a month and had done nothing more than holding hands and a quick kiss goodnight.
It wasn't her. It was me. She is a wonderful, intelligent, beautiful person, and I'm very attracted to her on so many levels. But I'm a 'slow hand' type of guy that isn't comfortable putting fast moves on a woman. Don't get me wrong, there are plenty of times I'd loved to have been naked in bed on a first date, but I never did. Even with women that are extremely physically attractive, I've never gone to bed with, or even kissed them until we'd been on at least a months worth of dates. And that's where I found myself with Linda.
This isn't something I do on purpose, it's just me. I actually like getting to know someone and feeling some sort of a connection with them before I get physically involved. It doesn't have to be love, just some sort of connection beyond hormones and lust.
Anyway, I had invited her over to my place for 'dinner and a movie' and was cooking a classic steak dinner with mashed potatoes, corn, and of course margaritas. It was a good dinner, the conversation flowed, but I could still tell she was a bit out of sorts about something. I knew what it was and I wasn't playing games with her, but I was also worried she might think that I didn't find her attractive. But I did.
After dinner, we sat down in the living room to watch a movie. Just a couple of minutes into the film, Linda got up, said she had to go to the bathroom. I paused the movie so she wouldn't miss anything, lay back, closed my eyes and enjoyed the nice buzz from the margaritas. I was very relaxed and didn't hear her come back into the room. I didn't know she was there until she had literally jumped on top of me.
I opened my eyes, looked into her beautiful face and smiled as she lay on top of me. She smiled too and asked, "Are you going to kiss me or what?"
I said, "Yes", moved to kiss her, but the instant before our lips touched I stopped and pulled back. She looked surprised and disappointed, but before she could say anything, I smiled mischievously and flipped her over on her back so I was now on top.
I can't remember exactly what I said, but in that moment I do remember feeling a 'connection' with her that was a far more powerful than anything I'd felt with anyone before. I didn't want to just start making out, strip her naked, and have sex... OK, yes, I did. But I didn't. I wanted something more. I wanted an intoxicating memory that we'd be able to share forever.
So instead of kissing her I softly ran my hand down her still clothed body, lightly touching and caressing her, only briefly lingering on her 'private' areas. I could tell by the way her body undulated beneath my touch that she did not object to waiting for our first kiss.
As I moved down her body, I slid off of her, sitting slightly below her waist. It was summer, so she was wearing short pants, making it possible for me to put my hands on her thighs, and rotating my palms to face away from her body. I reached up into her pant legs, push past her waist band, and grasp the top of her pants. From that position, with my arms inside of her pants, I undid the button, unzipped them, and slowly slid them down her legs, leaving the panties in place.
I continued my exploration of her body, letting my hands roam freely all over her legs, and through the panties, brushed her vaginal lips with my thumbs. I snagged the bottom her shirt, and as I started to pull it up, she raised her arms above her head, giving me a clear sign of her desire to be stripped naked and taken.
The clasp of her bra was in front, and as I undid it, instead of lifting the it off and exposing her, I slowly pushed the it aside, cupping and protecting her breasts with my hands, just has her bra had done. I paused briefly, drinking in the image of her perfect body as she lay on the couch, clothed only her panties and my hands.
I removed my hands from her breasts, baring them to my thirsty eyes as my hands continued to roam down her body, past her panties. In a fashion similar to how I removed her pants, I put my hands under her butt, cupping her ass cheeks, slipping my hands into her panties from below. Again, I pushed up past the waist line in back, grasp the band and slowly pulled them down her legs. She continued to convey her desire to be completely naked by lifting her lower body up, assisting me in removing her panties.