Fantasy Realized No. 01
40's woman plays escort to younger man.
Author's note:
These stories are fantasy where nobody is hurt by infidelity and STD's don't exist. If you don't understand the concept of fantasy, and feel compelled to comment on morality and safe sex practices in
fiction
, you'll probably be happier reading something else?
MP
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The elevator dinged and the doors slid open. Steph emerged, turned left, and started down the corridor. All so familiar in a life filled with business trips, yet this time was different. She felt like she'd never been in a hotel before. Her destination was room 6130, the corner suite at the end. A man she'd never met was waiting for her there. He was going to pay her to have sex with him. She was going to.
This is insane.
Screamed inside her brain.
She was a top account manager at KN Pharmaceuticals. A divorced mother with twin daughters in college. She owned a lovely home outside Chattanooga and drove a new Audi SUV, both debt free. It was as if none of that was real or mattered.
She didn't need the money. And she'd never done anything remotely similar in her life, even in her wild college days. In short, this was crazy.
Insane level crazy
.
Nothing prevented her from turning back at any step. Walking past room 6120, Stephanie knew if she just thought it through, she would stop. She went by 6122. Her legs carried her past 6124 as if controlled by unseen forces. Passing 6126, she almost paused.
Think. Go back to the comfortable safety of your life.
But Steph's legs carried her past that door, then in stride past 6128 and her hand rose to knock on 6130 even before she reached it. She gave his door two quick taps. If she'd hesitated at any point, even for a second, her ever-present rationality would have stopped her.
The footsteps approaching the door were quiet compared to the hammering of Steph's heart. She was so ready to say,
"Sorry, wrong room,"
and disappear in a run.
But as the knob turned and the door began to open she realized she was more excited than she'd been since her teens. No, not her teens. More excited than she'd
ever
been.
My God, I'm soaking through my panties...
~~~4 Hours earlier~~~
Stephanie Frost and Linda Simons shared an alcove table in the hotel's better cocktail lounge. They were the shining stars amongst account managers at KN - saleswomen really, but the best, with lucrative accounts they'd built up. And
very
well paid as a result. They'd also been close friends for 20 years, and business was not the focus of their discussion.
"I'm starting to wonder if my sexual days are over," Steph confessed.
Linda almost snorted her wine. "You're barely past 40!" She declared. "Smart, sexy
and
successful."
"A regular divorcee catch," Steph retorted. "Who's a great lay and probably horny as fuck?" Her smile was tinged with uncharacteristic bitterness.
"I've seen the way my husband looks at you," Linda said, "and his married friends. You must get approached all the time?"
"Rarely." Steph said pensively. "Success and power scare a lot of them off."
"But that's crazy!" her friend said.
"And the ones who do approach," Steph was warming to her topic, "are so deferential and gentlemanly I struggle to keep from yawning in their obsequious faces."
"What do you want, a caveman type?"
"I wouldn't mind some of that inside him." Steph confessed. "Waiting to get free." She smiled wistfully. "A caveman lured from concealment by
my
desirability." She sipped her scotch and pondered. "I'm respected professionally. In the bedroom I want passionate, not politically correct. I want raw desire. I want fucking and tit squeezing without the groveling 'can I touch your breast' conversation."
Linda's look encouraged Steph to continue.
"I was asked that Lin, two months ago. Second date. My blouse was already wide open, and I had his pants unbuckled and was about to release his manhood..." she smirked "...when he asked if he could touch my breast." Steph's exasperation was obvious. "Seriously, is that where we're at now? Permission for each step? Can I put my tongue in your mouth?"
Linda's eyebrows rose in question. She genuinely wondered how Steph responded to the man's question.
"I said 'No.' It was such a buzz-kill I said no."
"Oh my God!" Linda said with glee. "What did he do?"
"He looked like a kicked puppy. I buttoned my blouse and gave him my hard look. The one I learned to give Tom during our divorce."
"Oh...my...God...Steph. Frosty is back!" Linda knew Stephanie Frost's high school nickname from the boys was 'Frosty'. "You're
so
bad."
"So bored." Steph retorted. "And I'm sure he didn't want me to pull his shrinking dick out then because he was in full deflation."
They laughed and clinked glasses. Two men at the bar turned to look at their laughter, but didn't move to approach them.
"For me," Linda took up the topic, "sometimes I just want sex without the whole relationship thing. What does that make me?"
"A guy." Stephanie replied and they burst into laughter again. "I'm a slut, but you're a guy."
"Well that's it, isn't it?" Linda said. "It's OK for a man to just want to get laid, to want some
T and A
without emotional complication. Yet it's so very shocking when we want some cock."
Steph was surprised her friend used the word "cock" and realized how seriously she meant her statement. She asked, "So... how do you have 'just sex' without the relationship, in a marriage?"
Surprisingly, Linda blushed and looked profoundly uncomfortable. She actually squirmed in her seat.
Suddenly understanding that her friend had secrets she hadn't shared, Steph pressed. "C'mon Lin, you've gotta spill."
Hunched over her wine glass and looking down, Linda mumbled, "There's this group."
Steph waited for her to continue because she knew that trying to hurry details from Linda would be futile.
"I kind of stumbled into it." She took a sip of wine and looked Steph in the eyes. "Shortly after that, I joined."
Steph nodded, encouraging Linda to continue. "Most of us are attached, but occasionally feel the need for
something different
. The group is about finding that something different as safely as possible. Others in the group aren't attached, and want to keep it that way. They want sex without the relationship business. Either way, sex without involvement."
Steph wondered about Linda's husband. "Is Jim involved too, Does he know?"
"No. He's not involved. There
are
couples who are both in, but it's mostly about having fun on the side, separate from the rest of our lives. And we don't talk about it with people who aren't in the group. Others knowing would be a messy complication." Pausing to look in Steph's eyes, Linda saw something close to shock so she continued. "It's about enjoying the physical without involvement." Her look grew intense because she
so
wanted Steph to understand the next thing she was going to say. "There is incredible freedom for people like me in having sex without
all the rest
. Just sex."
Steph quietly tried to absorb her friend's revelations, so Linda continued.
"Have you heard of fraysexuality?"
Steph shook her head, "No."
"A fraysexual is someone who is sexually attracted to people they don't know and the physical attraction lessens as they become closer. Kind of the opposite from how things normally work."
"And you're fraysexual?" Steph asked incredulously.
"No. I enjoy having sex with Jim and he's the love of my life, but sometimes I need something more and don't want an affair or additional involvement. So there are elements of fraysexuality in my personality. Nothing in real life is as cut and dried as the psychological categories."
"You just want more sex than Jim." Steph challenged.
"I guess. But there's more to it. I want it with a stranger." Sincerity was etched on Linda's face as she continued. "I get so turned on when I'm on my way to fuck a stranger, I worry about the evidence running down my leg."
Now it was Steph's turn to blush, for herself and for Linda. She'd never heard her talk so graphically.
"And in our group I can do it safely. Our bond is our desire for uninvolved sex and we all have something to lose if the secret gets out. We don't talk about our group, period."
"Except you're telling me." Steph said.
"The one exception is when we approach someone to invite them into the group. They have to be vouched for and pre-approved."
Steph's eyes got bigger.
"I vouched for you Steph, and you're pre-approved to sample what we're about."
Linda wondered if she'd made a mistake when she saw how surprised Steph was. "Think it over, for as long as you want. If you never mention it again I'll know your decision and be fine with it. I know you'll never violate my confidence."
"Of course not." Steph replied, almost angry that Linda even thought to add that last part.
"But," Linda continued, "If this isn't for you, we also can't talk about the group again?"
"Yes," Stephanie said, "I get that." She took a large sip of scotch. "Did you know you were going to tell me about your group today?"
"I thought there was a good chance, and your comments about your frustration pretty much sealed the deal."
"So how does it work?" Steph asked with growing interest.
"Well, most of the group travel a lot for work, like us. That makes hotel meets a natural. Then we often add elements of role-play, especially for first meets."
"First meets?" Steph asked. "I thought it was limited to one time meets?"