FANTASIES AND EROTIC DREAMS
During the first four years of their marriage, Gene and Joan Lindgren lived in an apartment building across from the high school, because of a shortage of housing in the small college town. Both were poor when they met at their first jobs teaching in the local college. They had student debts, but nothing as obscenely unjust as in the 21st century. The lack of privacy and being prohibited from having a dog were too restrictive. The chance to rent a cottage eight miles north of town on the river seemed liberating.
Its 600 square feet made another kind of confinement. Of the two small bedrooms, they being teachers, filled one with their books and a desk. Attractions were the kitchen open to a dining area, cupboards and a room divider of knotty pine made by a local carpenter, and lots of windows facing the river.
Gene's most impressive first impression of Joan was how much woman she packed into a petite frame: short, blonde hair, blue eyes, 5', big breasts, a plump ass and nice legs. Gene had brown hair, blue eyes and was 5' 8" 150 lbs. and had what one woman friend called a "bedroom voice."
One of Joan's habits dismayed him. He didn't fully realize until after their marriage her consumption and seeming tolerance for hard liquor. She had suffered since childhood from anxiety about getting enough sleep. Teaching and departmental politics stressed her. After returning from school, she would want to relax by taking her bra off and settling down with a Canadian Club and ginger ale, or vodka and kalua. Gene liked a glass of wine with supper, and so did Joan.
After supper, she would have another three or four double whiskey and ginger ales or two or three vodka (Smirnoff 100 proof) and kalua. By 8:30 or 9 o'clock, Joan was ready to sleep them off. About three hours later, she would get up, prepare for bed, and take a sleeping pill.
Gene was a night owl. He worried about his wife's drinking. He resented the loss of her company so early and became concerned about the weight she was gaining. Still, she became more voluptuous. Her breasts grew from filling C-cups to D-cups. Her tits, ass and hips balanced each other, and their circumferences still were larger than her belly.
Joan still looked exciting in the sexy photos he took of her. Across the road was a wooded field, where they would walk. Gene photographed Joan while she walked and stripped. He carried a thick blanket. Under the long limb of a bur oak, Joan would pose nude. Gene told her to lie on the blanket for full-length poses and to sit with her legs spread to show her cunt. Then, he would lay her on the blanket and fuck her. He half hoped that a man would see them, approach and stroke his cock for her.
"What would you do if a man came along and began watching us?"
"I don't know. What would you like me to do?"
"Suppose he took his cock out and had a hardon for you, would you be excited to let him watch?"
"As a fantasy, it excites me a lot! Would you really like for another man to see me naked and watch me having sex?"
"I think it would be so exciting that I wouldn't want to stop, until I'd cum!"
"What if he came close enough to feel me up? What if he wanted to take his turn fucking me?"
"It's very exciting fantasy. I wonder if we'd be carried away with excitement."
"You think you'd like to watch another man fuck me! I might be excited enough to let him watch, but I don't think I'd let him fuck me."
During the first year of their marriage, they became friends with Jack Osbert, who taught in another department but whose office was in the same building on the same floor. Gene and Jack were both writers and wrote poetry as well as prose. Jack's wife was not on the faculty. They all met at a lecture. Pat was about 5' 4" with short, light brown hair, a pleasant face, and a figure she mostly concealed by loose slacks, despite the fashion for short skirts. All Gene could tell was that her weight was healthy and her breasts were no more than B-cup.
Jack invited Gene to have coffee at MacDonald's as a social visit. He began talking about sex. He said that his wife needed marijuana to relax, get excited and have orgasms.
"Pam's orgasms are quite obvious. What are Joan's orgasms like?"
"Joan is a screamer. That was rather a problem when we shared an apartment with another woman teacher."
"The roommate must have gotten excited hearing Joan. Did you make an effort to satisfy her, too?"
"Joan kept me satisfied, almost every day or night. I wouldn't have given Mary the satisfaction of rejecting me."
"We have an open marriage."
"Like the book by that title?"
"Yes. Pam and I both read it. Basically, the theory is that, if a couple feel secure in their marriage, they are much less possessive than couples who do not feel so secure."
"Does this relate to the hippies' "free love," the Esalen Institute, and the movie, "Bob and Carol and Ted and Alice"?
"Yes, but in the film, the couples were good friends but decided not to swap spouses. The idea is for couples to be open about their sexual desires. We agreed to tell each other when we had sex with someone else."
"So have you tested the theory? Have you fucked other women? Has Pam opened her legs to other men?"
"When I was in the Peace Corps in Africa, before I met Pam, I did have sex with an African woman or girl. She may have been 18 or 16. Her body was fully ripened, but her face looked younger. Customary dress was a kind of skirt that wrapped at the hips, leaving them naked above the waist. The native women didn't understand why we white men paid so much attention to their breasts. She helped out at our camp. I'd give her a treat when my care packages arrived, chocolate, scissors, an orange.
One day, she came into my hut as usual, to ask what she might do. This time, she stood straight facing me with one leg forward parting the skirt to expose her chocolate thigh. She cupped her breasts and asked, 'You like?' I smiled and said I liked very much. She let the skirt fall away and turned slowly around. Her body was as beautiful below the waist as above! I stepped up to her. She saw that I was ready to take her, so she climbed onto my bed on her hands and knees for me to mount her! I didn't have a condom handy, but I could not hesitate to accept her invitation. I'd seen the movie, "Tom Jones." What would Tom Jones do, I asked myself? He would gallantly accept any woman's invitation to her bed.
This was before the HIV epidemic. I had difficulty penetrating her, so she motioned for me to move in front of her. She kissed the head of my cock, took several inches into her mouth. I'd never had my cock sucked before, and I've never had it sucked better. I then managed to get up her. She expressed her pleasure by moaning and wiggling her ass on my cock. After I came in her and pulled my cock out, she looked and giggled at how it had shrunk. I pushed her onto her back, got between her legs and caressed her beautiful naked body all over. She saw that I was hard for her again, smiled and nodded approvingly, raised her knees and spread her legs wide for me. She was the fuck of my dreams! Yet, I had to resist addiction to her, because the Corps frowned upon what looked like sexually exploiting the natives we were there to help. I prayed that I hadn't impregnated her! Apparently not.
I told Pam about that. Pam had sex with two guys in college, trying out her appeal, she said. After our marriage, she hasn't seemed to need extramarital stimulation, or she doubts that I would not be jealous if she did. I said I thought I'd be excited and proud that she could excite other men and be excited by them, enough to let them fuck her. I suggested that she might take pride in me, if I made a sexual conquest."
"What did she say?"
"She demurred but said maybe."
"You still didn't say you have had sex with another woman to experiment with open marriage."
Jack looked down and cleared his throat.
"No, I haven't actually tested the theory myself. Like you, I'm reluctant to risk my ego with a refusal."
"Are there any women you know whom you'd like to lay?"
"Umm, yes, there are some. One in particular has the most exciting body and dresses in the sexiest clothes."
"Who? Do I know her?"
"Umm, no offense, but you're married to her!"
"I'll accept that as a compliment to her, but I don't know if I should tell her."