A couple of days had passed since Hannah had seen or heard from Shaun. She was beginning to worry that it was a one time thing. Her shifts had drawn out as usual, and all it seemed she could think about was that day in the ambulance. Her bruises on her wrists were healing, but remained a constant reminder of the pure ecstasy she had felt, then the pure lifting of what felt like an amazing moment of love.
She didn't understand why he would do that and just not say anything to her. Was he embarrassed that it happened? Was he ashamed? She wasn't.
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Shaun was working his normal shifts. Boring, non-challenging, mundane shifts. The only thing getting him through these shifts now were the idea that maybe he would back Hannah up again. He had never did what they had did that day in the ambulance before. He felt the love after he came inside of her, but was scared to death that what had transpired prior to that was too much. He wanted to say something, anything but had no idea how to break the ice. "Hi, how are you, did you enjoy being turned into a dirty bitch the other day?" It just didn't seem appropriate. So his shifts drawn on
He had fantasized about tying her down again and again since. For some reason though it was the slow loving sex that his mind always wandered to. He had never felt what he felt before. Love? He thought he was incapable of it. Yet his mind wandered.
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Tones had dropped and Hannah was both terrified and excited. A chest pain call. She would have to have ALS for this, by protocol if nothing else. She had been carefully listening to the radio all day and she knew Shaun was going to be her backup. Sure enough, his tones dropped as soon as she marked en route to respond toward her unit for backup. Excitement took hold. She had completely stopped wearing panties after he had his way with her, and now she could feel the wetness begin.
Riding to the scene all she could think about was how his eyes looked when he came. So intense, so deep, so full of something. Did he feel it too? As her partner marked on scene she pushed the thoughts away and went inside.
She was met by a woman standing with 2 bags of clothes at the door. The woman said she had been having chest pain for days and she knows she is going to be admitted for it, but her husband won't drive her to the hospital. She sighed and took the ladies bags from her and began walking with her to the ambulance. Hannah thought to herself, Shaun is going to be so pissed to come out to this. Damn this woman for making me look like an ass.
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Shaun had heard the pager and had made his way to the truck. This was going to have to happen now. He was going to have to look at Hannah. How was he going to do this? Was it going to be awkward? Was she going to be rude? Rudeness had never been a concern for him, why was it now? Fully convinced in his head that nothing good is going to come of this meeting he rode along.
This was taking forever, traffic everywhere, people driving stupid, his partner cussing them. What the hell, he thought, just get out of the damn way so I can get this over with. He truly felt like this traffic was delaying his execution. Finally a break and they are off. Minutes seemed like hours as they finally pulled into the driveway of the house where Hannah's ambulance set. Shaun got out and with a huge sigh began walking toward it while putting on his gloves. He took a deep breath before opening the back doors. The kind if breath one takes when they fear that they are about to drown.
He climbed inside, smiled and looked at the patient, completely avoiding all eye contact with Hannah. He asked his normal questions and then it was time. He looked at Hannah. She had a quizzical look on her face. What was that he thought. She gave him a report and Shaun told her driver to go ahead and start getting them to the hospital.
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Hannah was so confused now. Why was he avoiding eye contact? Was she truly just used for sex? Why would he risk a pregnancy and an 18 year future of child support and a bitchy one day fling for just sex? Was he truly not everything she had thought he was.
She could feel the anger building up in her. She watched as he started his IV, places a monitor and the other things he had to do. She was so mad at him, and herself. Then he looked up at her. That damn smile she thought to herself. What the fuck does he have to smile about. She seen his lips moving but was so infuriated that she didn't hear him. "What?" She said. She heard the words but did not believe them. Did he just apologize for taking so long to get to me for backup? What a dick. What about saying hi, or something like that? Did you ever think maybe you were taking to long with that she thought to herself.
She steamed as they finished the transport to the ER. Shaun disappeared inside and fighting tears she went behind her ambulance.
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Shaun rushed as fast as he could to get the patient registered and everything squared away. Why the hell is everyone moving so slow he thought. Finally after everything was done he made his way outside. Completely blowing his partner off he began searching for Hannah. He had to talk to her. He could see how mad she was on the way over. He didn't want things that way. He couldn't look himself in the mirror one more time feeling the way he did.
