Today was a bad day. I slept through two alarms, forgot my purse on the counter, and ran into construction on the way to work. When I got to work, I spilled my coffee... twice. I screwed up a report I was working on and had to go back and fix it, taking twice as long as usual (but thank god I caught the mistake before someone else did). Then, I had to halt an argument between two coworkers. I swear everyone has lost their damn minds. Nothing is going as it should.
You saw me late in the afternoon and noticed I was shaking. You stopped me and asked if I'd eaten today. I had to think about it. I was so busy I forgot to eat! I knew I wasn't feeling very well but didn't even notice I had started to tremor.
You had leftovers from earlier and handed them to me, pulled up a chair for me, and told me to sit and eat. I tried to brush you off as I was on my way to speak to someone else. You wouldn't let me. "Sit," you ordered. After a quick silent battle, I realize you're serious and I finally gave in. When I took the first bite, I realized how hungry I was. I'm pretty sure I ate it all in under three minutes. Once I've had my fill, I look up with appreciation and say, "Thank you." You respond saying "You're welcome, now go to work." I snicker at your reply as I head out the door.
I'm exhausted and I'm extremely tense by the end of the workday. I don't want to talk to anyone. I don't want to deal with anybody else's problems. I don't want to go home and have to cook dinner and do dishes and laundry and pay bills. I'm just done.
You catch me as I'm leaving for the day and ask if I can meet you in two hours. I'm hesitant, I just want to go to bed and have a little peace, but I know that's not realistic. I have a lot I need to do. It's like you can see my internal debate. I'd like to see you, but it's too much effort right now. You tilt my chin up so I'm looking directly into your eyes, "Trust me" is all you say. I agree to see you then.
I go home and start on all the tasks I have to get done. I actually accomplish a lot before it's time for me to leave to see you. Knowing that I can come home and go to bed directly afterwards helps me relax a little bit.
Its finally time to go and I'm already a little anxious. I have no idea why you want to see me tonight. Normally our meetings are planned ahead of time. I'm curious why you suggested it this evening when you know I'm not great company right now.
I arrive a few minutes early, as usual, and you're already here too. As soon as I walk in, I register two things. The first thing is you're still in your work cloths. Normally you head straight to shower and change after work. The second thing is, you're sexy as hell in your uniform with your hair tousled like you've been running your fingers through it.