I looked at his contact again. Last seen at 10:32 am, nine hours ago. I slumped back in my bed utterly infuriated. I hated when Chance did this to me. With his past I never knew if he had another woman on his arm or if he was fucking her because I wouldn't give myself to him.
My phone vibrated on my bed and my heart sped up. It dropped twenty feet when I realized the message was from my ex.
BennyBoo: You still want to watch the episode together?
I hadn't changed his contact name even if we had broken up a little over a month ago and I had no plans on changing it anytime soon. We were still close friends. He was talking about the new episode of a series we were watching. Maybe having him over would be a good thing to get my mind of Chance.
Me: Yeah, sure
BennyBoo: I'll be over in five
Benjamin was my neighbor. We had been dating for two years and five months when he decided to suddenly stop our relationship. Chance knew about Ben. he even knew that we had a so called friends with benefits kind of relationship during the last two weeks but we stopped it in aims of us moving on from each other. We were still friends as we had been close even before we started our relationship two and a half years ago.
True to his word Ben arrived at my door in exactly five minutes with his laptop in hand. I invited him in and he immediately took a spot on my couch. I rolled my eyes. Old habits die hard.
"How've you been?" I asked sitting next to him while he typed away on his laptop."
"Tired," he groaned. "Dad had me working for the entire day today."
I felt sorry for him. His dad was strict and had Ben working hard at the family construction business, starting as a labourer. I watched as he searched site after site but the new episode had not come out yet. Damn, I was so excited to see what happens next.
"I guess we could hang out still," I told him.
He nodded.
I looked at him. He had ripened a lot in a month. His pecks seemed more defined through his T-shirt and his shoulders broader from lifting bricks and cement for many weekends in row. I inhaled his scent. That's the perfume I gave him for Christmas in our first year of being together. He's wearing it, still.
I looked at his eyes. They were looking down at me, undressing me. My body wasn't a stranger to his eyes nor his touch. His touch...I missed it.
Before I knew what was happening our lips were pressed up together. I didn't know who started it but I didn't care. I missed him. Chance's face flashed through my mind and I immediately pulled away.
"Is something wrong?"
Chance wasn't my boyfriend but we were dating, sort of. It wouldn't be fair to him if I was still hung up on my ex. I looked up at Ben. He didn't know about Chance and I wouldn't tell him. I didn't want him to leave.
"I'm- we're not together," I brought up. "We're not supposed to be kissing."
"Oh, I'm sor-"
I definitely knew this time I caused it. I pulled Ben towards me, drawing our lips together. He was reluctant to hold me at first but when I felt his hand on my lower back I let out a moan.