"I hate my life sometimes," I thought to myself. Here I am, an independent well-educated woman with my life on track and yet, I cannot find someone to share the simplest things with. And in my more frustrated moments, the horniest things with.
Who sits on a beach, in a romantic getaway, alone for vacation? Well that would be me. I had to get away from the stress of everyday life. After a couple of years of going full throttle and burning the candle at all possible ends (and some that weren't possible), I had to take sometime for myself.
Left the roommate at home to ponder his new relationship (translated into β getting jiggy with his lady) and I came to a romantic little beach to veg out.
The moon is out, the water is almost calm, the breeze is comfy, and night is balmy. The time to regroup and think about life is good β during the day that is. It's the nights that always get me. Curling into that lonely big bed all by myself night after night is getting old. I am in the prime of my life...I do not think 30 is old like I did when I was 15.
I should be living it up and celebrating my accomplishments but nope, I am moping on the beach. Wonder if the Hotel has a thing against sleeping on the beach because I do not think I could handle that king size bed tonight.
I can hear the laughter and the music from the pool area (why they have a pool here, I will never know β the ocean is right there and you can see to the bottom for miles). I was one of the partygoers a couple hours ago but it seems the party has just started hopping. I hope they don't start moving this way.
It would further depress me to have to watch couples getting all cuddly on my beach. Yeah, I have claimed this spot of heaven as mine. No trespassers allowed.
Well, hello...who is that walking alone? His shirt is flowing in the breeze, his pants are rolled up to mid-calf (wow, what big muscles you have), and he is, wait, oh how fun, he is laughing and playing dodge with the waves.
Oops, he heard me giggle. I don't think he knew someone else was out here and is a bit embarrassed to be caught in an unguarded moment of freedom. Or, I am just thinking that cause I would be. That is not the look of a man embarrassed, that is the look of intrigue and he is heading this way. My, my, my, wonder what sharing my beach will get me tonight?
"Excuse me, is this spot taken?" says the sexiest voice I have heard. So natch, I replied, "nope, take a load off handsome..." well okay, that's what I wanted to say. All I managed was a shake of the head.
He grinned and sat down anyway and just looked out over the ocean for a while. I am not sure how long we sat there without saying a word, lost in our own thoughts while sharing a bit of moon, ocean, and sand.
I never forgot he was there, his scent, his heat, his everything, would never allow that. I kept glancing sideways at him, taking in his profile, his lips, his neck, his chest, his legs, his arms, and even his feet. Who knew feet covered in sand could be so sexy?
Ut oh, he caught me ogling. Damn this blush, do I have to do it all the time, can't I, for once, be calm cool collected and sexy? No, I have to blush and giggle like a schoolgirl with her first crush. Grrrrr.
Oh wait, um, short circuit time, he has turned my chin back to him and is looking into my eyes. Um, um, what to do...well, hell, just look back silly and pray the insecure thoughts are not being broadcasted but that the "hey baby, lets get naked on the beach" thoughts are coming across in bright neon lights.
Wowza, clear blue eyes...who knew they could catch fire like that in the night? Damn, I turned away again in embarrassment. What does this man think of me?
Okay, take a deep breath and say something smart and sexy..." so, come here often?" Oh dipshit, not that line, please tell me you just did not utter that line to this hunk of man? Oh wait, he liked it that I made the first move to talk. There may be hope for me yet.