I'd love to see his face when he opens my email, I mused to myself. With a mischievous smile and a quickening pulse, I clicked 'Send' before I could change my mind and launched my message into cyberspace.
It had all been Jo's idea. Emboldened by a shared bottle (or two) of Pinot Grigio and Jo's own explicit tales of her escapades with Jermaine, I had confessed to her the parlous state of my own sex life. In truth there was barely a sex life to confess. These days Andrew seemed more interested in work and golf than in me. And I need sex. God, how I need sex. If I don't make love regularly, I become irritable and restless and my thoughts start to wander. Maybe not every day -- I'm not a nymphomaniac (I don't think) -- but enough to keep my thoughts from straying to all those colleagues at work who had made it abundantly clear what they would happily satisfy any needs that Andrew can't.
'Dump him, Emma,' said Jo firmly, as she refilled her glass for the umpteenth time. 'You're not a nun. You haven't taken a vow of chastity. If you can't get any action at home, you're going to have to get it elsewhere.'
'I couldn't do that to Andy,' I protested, pretending that the idea hadn't entered my head. In fact, I had thought about little else lately. Fantasy upon fantasy filled my mind, and most of them featured Alan, my new boss. He was divorced, only a little older than me and utterly adorable. He was just how I like my men. His hair was dark, almost black, and just a shade too long. He had brown eyes and little laughter lines at the corners. He had a wonderful grin too that always made me want to kiss him. His body too was, I feverishly imagined, taut and tanned. He was simply gorgeous. That wasn't just my opinion. Several of the single girls had confided as much; and I had to merely grin and pretend that I wasn't bothered.
What made matters worse was that I was convinced that he found me attractive too. At the office Christmas Party he had dance with me four times. I could see the others, grouped in little huddles, counting and commenting. Andrew, thank God, was propping up the bar with Jack and Blake, discussing putting techniques or some such. Meanwhile, Alan was holding me just a little too closely, his breath hot on my neck, his hand a little too close to my butt for decency's sake. But did I complain? Oh no, all I wanted to do was grip his muscled torso and enjoy his crotch rubbing against my midriff.
'Emma, are you listening? You look miles away!'
'What? Oh, sorry,' I spluttered and reached for my glass, conscious that my face was flushing at the thought of Alan's embrace.
'Look,' said Jo, 'if you won't dump him, then you'll have to revive his interest. It'll soon be Valentine's Day. Take the afternoon off. Call in sick or something. Make yourself beautiful for him. You know what they like. Stockings, suspenders, the full works. Then call him at work and in your sexiest voice you lure him home.'
'Then what?'
'Jesus, Emma! Do I have to paint a picture for you? You give him the slickest BJ he's ever had and fuck his brains out. If that doesn't get his juices flowing, I think we can safely say that he's clinically dead.'
So that's what I did. More or less.
I told Alan that I would be working from home on Valentine's Day. He's very cool about that sort of thing and didn't raise an eyebrow.
Needless to say, Andy left for work without even an acknowledgement that it was Valentine's Day. Still, I thought to myself, when he gets my message, he'll be rushing home with flowers, a card and the biggest erection this side of the Chrysler Building.
I turned to the message I had composed to Andrew.
'My dear, sweet darling,
How can you know how I feel about you if I don't tell you? Let me tell you now -- I adore you and long for you every moment of every day.
Today I have thought of nothing but you. Lying in bed alone, I hugged the pillow, imagining your body beside me, praying that I was holding you in my embrace. And now, seated on the settee, I yearn to feel your body in my arms, and your cock, hard and heavy, in my mouth and then filling my warm, wet pussy.
Come to me now. The champagne is chilled, the fire is lit and I am waiting for you.