I saw her first. I was spotting for Derrick when she came in my line of sight. I supposed she was pretty, with her long dark hair pulled back in a ponytail and her hourglass figure squeezed into a pair of stretchy shorts and a tank top. She was gloriously curvy—big hips, big breasts, beautifully rounded out stomach, all of which is certainly my preference—but there was also something about her that was off-putting. She was closed off and timid as she climbed onto a nearby elliptical trainer and selected a particularly difficult hill-climbing program, all the while casting her eyes about the gym as though scanning for potential attacks. She was stiff, and she remained hunched over even after she'd selected her workout. There was something about her that was...I don't know. Forbidding? Defensive? I couldn't place it. Then she plugged in her headphones, and she was off.
I'd seen countless women climb onto elliptical machines, put on their music, and zone out for forty-five minutes, but that wasn't this girl. I don't know what she was listening to, but it wasn't distracting her from putting her all into her workout. I let my gaze wander over her and settle on her ass and thighs, where I could see her muscles straining to climb the pretend hills.
"What are you looking at?" Derrick's voice crashed into my thoughts with all the subtlety of a bulldozer, and I looked around at him.
"Hmm?"
"I said, what are you looking at?"
"Nothing...just zoned out for a minute," I said quickly. I knew Derrick wouldn't approve of my little reverie. Derrick is one of those people who follows and values just about every toxic societal standard in existence. He therefore has a very limited view of human beauty and human potential. I could only imagine what he would say if he knew I was admiring the ass of a plus-sized girl as she worked out. Alas, I was too slow to cover my tracks.
"Aw, Jesus," Derrick muttered as he caught sight of the girl on the elliptical. "No one wants to see that."
I sighed internally but said nothing. Derrick and I had been friends since we were a couple of bug-eating six-year-olds. We had a lot in common back then, but the older we got, the further apart we grew. Now, as we hit twenty-five and were starting our adult lives, I was beginning to look for ways to end the friendship. It was a difficult task, made no easier by the fact that we were housemates. But Derrick had recently become less tolerant than ever before of anyone who wasn't perfectly beautiful, perfectly able, and perfectly successful, however he tabulated those things.
"Who does she think she's kidding?" he asked, nudging me in the ribs. "Why would you even go out looking like that?"
"She's just trying to live her life," I murmured as I returned the weights to the racks. "She's not hurting anyone."
"She's hurting my eyes," he groused. "Look at her, she's not even using the right machine! If she really wants to lose weight she should be running or lifting weights. Course, she could only probably lift about three pounds. Christ, I'm sick of fat people joining gyms and not even putting in the work." With that, he threw down his towel and, before I could point out that maybe she wasn't trying to lose weight or that maybe she just liked the elliptical, he began marching over to her. I snapped up his towel and followed him at a distance. What was he going to do? He'd been so quick to anger about this stuff lately; I didn't put it past him to accost this poor woman, and it looked like that was exactly what he was about to do.
"Excuse me," he said as he reached her machine and faced her, arms crossed. She didn't respond.
"EXCUSE ME," he said in a voice loud enough that she couldn't plausibly ignore it—and yet she did. She closed her eyes, turned up the volume on her phone, and kept plugging away at her workout.
"Jesus," said Derrick again before he reached out and actually grabbed one of her earbuds out of her ear.
Like a shot, she reached out and whipped it right back out of his grasp. "The fuck is the matter with you?" she spat out. Derrick seemed taken aback, and he wasn't the only one. She'd looked so cold, so nervous, that I never would have expected her to have a mouth like that. I was instantly intrigued, and I inched closer so that I was just two machines away. Closing time was approaching, and the fitness floor was almost deserted. I didn't even see a worker I could call for help.
"What's the matter with me," Derrick said in a voice edged with restrained anger, "is that you're doing the wrong workout."
"Pardon me?" she said, her eyes flashing.
"If you want to lose weight, you should really be running or lifting weights."
Her nostrils flared. "Who says I'm trying to lose weight?"
Derrick snorted and rolled his eyes. "You should be. No one wants to look like that. Look, how's this—"
"No, how's this," she cut in. "I'll let you finish your sentence unscathed if you can give me one good reason why
my
body and
my
workout are
your
business."
I inched even closer so that I was only a few feet away. I was impressed—no one had ever spoken back to Derrick that I could remember, and this girl was not only standing her ground but matching him blow for blow. I wanted to intervene—really, I did—but it was truly a sight to behold, and the chance to watch Derrick get his comeuppance was too enticing to pass up.
"It's
my
business because you and
your
body are an unwanted distraction to everyone else who goes to this gym. Look around you! No one else here looks like you!" He did have a point there. This particular gym was fairly ritzy and was patronized primarily by thin, fit, traditionally beautiful people. Essentially, most of the time, it was a meat market. Except for the old people who went to the senior aqua aerobics classes in the middle of the day, I don't know that I'd ever seen a woman who didn't fit the petite Pilates mom mold in the building. I half expected her to give up or walk away or burst into tears. She did none of those things.
"You want me to lose weight?" she asked.
"Yes! There's no reason for you to go out looking like that."
"But you don't want me to come to the gym?" she said calmly.
"Not looking the way you do!"
"So you want me to lose weight but not to exercise. Do I have this right?"
"Just not here. Go to the rec center or something. There's more people like you there. You'd be more comfortable."
"I'm perfectly comfortable here," she retorted as her program ended. She began putting her earbuds back in their case.