I had been told his name was Elk, an odd nickname, but when I was first told about him I was too raw from my recent breakup, too wounded, and still oozing. I wanted to make sure I could treat this friend of a friend with some modicum of emotional safety. It had been 10 years with my ex, and 11 years since I had tried dating, or fucking, or whatever dating looks like now that I'm in my mid 30's. My friend, Stephanie, used to work with him at a local watering hole, "He's a really nice guy" she said "And I think you two would get along." Then she showed me a picture of him shirtless, and meow, did I want to get along with him. Shirtless with biceps as big as my thighs, ripped pecs with small nipples that made me want to lick and nip at them, and a six-pack with that all too inviting V of muscles that just begs my mouth to buy the ticket and take the ride. At around 25 and with a shock of blonde hair that fell in front of his eyes he looked like the all-American boy who was quarterback in high school and deflowered virgins under the stands after practice.
A few months went by, this mythical Elk figure stood shrouded as a possibility, someone to imagine and think about. I healed. I worked on forgiveness, and tying up and snipping all the loose ends that were still threaded and entangled with my ex, and then one day I decided that I was ready. Steph gave me his phone number, and I stared at the contact as if it glowed; hidden potential and erotic possibility.
I texted him, and he responded immediately, my nipples tightened at the thoughts that were running through my head: how do I tell someone I just want sex? What if he's not my type, or we just don't vibe? Would he even be attracted to me? At 5'5 with raven hair that was beginning to be streaked with silver highlights, I worked out, took care of myself, and held a spark that attracted others to me. Yoga kept my body lean and muscular, and healthy eating habits kept me at a size 2, my slim stomach still held curves, and my boobs were small, but pert.
We made plans to meet at a local bar, and told him I would meet him at 7:15ish, knowing I would be at least 5 minutes late, while hoping I could pull off a more rapid turn around. I grabbed my favorite pair of tall heeled cowgirl boots, dark designer jeans, and a black shirt. My hair was long and curled in romantic ringlets, but my eye makeup was dark and hinted at the color of my lingerie, of which I was dressed to the nines under my clothes. Thigh high black stockings: opaque with black roses on them. Attached to a black lace garter belt which slid over my silky boy short lace panties. Boy shorts always made my cute bubble butt peek out under the sides while emphasizing my round hips. My bra was black, lacy and matched the rest of my ensemble. I was hoping my secret sexy undergarments would give me courage to ask for my desires, to meet a lover, to fuck, to please, and to explore tonight.
I arrived at the bar, and realized that I didn't actually remember what this guy looked like. I had seen his picture months ago, and I was having trouble recalling the details of his face. As I walked up the steps there was a snack of a man waiting at a table, and he was looking at me walking up as if he was waiting on someone too. I went up to him and introduced myself, and he smiled and shook my hand warmly, indicating that I should put my beer on his tab. Setting my things down I went inside to get a drink, and calm my racing heart. At 5'11 he was built like a linebacker, his biceps were still as big as my thighs, and his easy going smile and slight southern tang sent shivers down my spine that made my pussy involuntarily moisten. I grabbed my beer and went outside to sit down.
I was so nervous, and when I'm nervous I smile, like a fucking maniac. My internal dialogue went something like: I wonder if he'll let me lick and bite his nipples? Since he's so strong I wonder if he could hold me up while we fucked? Stop smiling, seriously girl, relax your face, why are my cheeks vibrating? Can he tell my cheeks are vibrating? Oooo he let me touch his shoulder. I wonder if his natural scent is as full of testosterone as his body indicates? He could cut a steak with that jawline...ewww, and yet daammmnnn.
At the end of the night he respectfully hugged me goodbye, and we took our leave, but dammit I was wearing matching lingerie, and I think he was into me, and this is probably too forward, but it's not like we were going to be life partners, so I texted him
"Hey Elk, I enjoyed tonight, and wanted to let you know that I'm looking for something casual and mainly physical, would you want to change directions and come to my place tonight??