The man of my dreams is faceless.
He is strong and confident. His arms and back, slightly toned with muscle.
He moves with the easy grace of a known predator.
I never see his face, only his eyes.
In them I see his arousal, his determination, and the knowledge that on some primitive level,
I want him
.
He approaches me from behind, while I stand, critically examining my face in the mirror.
In the few minutes before he comes to me, I think that the picture I see is plain, unattractive. What I see is someone who nearsighted, her half-Asian features that are more strange than exotic, her dark, fine hair, more dull than alluring. Without the polish of make-up, she's not worth a glance on the street.
Not worth so much as a mercy fuck.
He moves towards me slowly, telling me with his eyes that he sees past the clothes. Sees past the glasses. Sees the past the gloom.
With no more than a look, he tells me that he wants me,
craves
me, and that what
he
sees in the mirror is far from what I see.
What he sees a
woman
; a flesh and blood being, who
craves
the primitive contact he can give her.
He never speaks, never makes a sound, so sure of himself that he lets his eyes and body do the talking.
When he reaches me at last, he stands, just behind me, looking at me in the mirror. He waits before he makes his move, watching my breasts rise and fall with every breath.
I'm caught in his eyes. Caught in that strange feeling between arousal and agitation.
I'm still not sure it's happening to me. Yet on some deeper level, I
know
it is. I can feel myself breathing deeper, feel his eyes on my breasts as they rise and fall.
Slowly, his strong beautiful hands settle on my shoulders. My eyes are open, watching his every move, the mix of arousal and agitation getting stronger by the second.
I don't dare move. I am caught. Fascinated. Unable to think.
One hand slides to my hair, and then to my jaw. With sudden violence, he uses the hands to push my head to one side exposing my neck to him. I expect a violent assault on the tender skin. I crave the brutality of his lips, teeth and tongue, branding me,
dominating
me, telling me I belong to him...
but the violence doesn't come.
His warm, soft lips kiss me slowly, as though he were savoring the tender flesh. His bites are slow and gentle.
The shock of what he is doing weakens and arouses. On a gasp, I tilt my head further, opening to him willingly.
He watches me as he acts.
Knowing that he no longer needs to hold me in place, his hands slide down the front of my clothes, passing firmly over my breasts, down over stomach, and finally, between my legs. He touches me through my jeans, pressing firmly, and then gently teasing me with his fingertips.
Being teased through my clothes has always made me crazy; has always aroused the primitive urge to be naked, to feel a man's skin against my own.
From the little I see of him in the mirror, I know he is shirtless. Just as my hips begin to move with his hand, he pulls it away. My teeth clamp down on my lower lip to keep from screaming my frustration.