"I am tired," Aaron said looking into his coffee cup.
We were sitting at the shop down from the church. The entire night we had spent with the youth group for an all night event. Needless to say we were both exhausted.
"Me too," I said taking a big swallow of hot coffee. The truth was I was more tired than I should be. I couldn't help but let my eyes wander to Ian. He was just a hot guy and it was natural. It wasn't like I would do anything. The truth was, that I knew I could do something. I wanted to because I knew what it was like to really please a guy. I thought about sucking his dick all night. Sure I was his youth leader, but I wanted to be his cocksucker too.
"What are you thinking about?" Aaron asked. He was looking at me through tired eyes.
"Not much," I said with a fake laugh. Just wiped out you know?
"Yeah, at what point are we too old for this?"
I nodded. It had been 2 weeks since I heard from Jim. For the most part I had been relieved. Maybe that whole thing was over with and I could move on. But could I? Should I?
As best as I could remember, I sucked nine guys that night. Nine. Well that's not true. Actually ten. But Jim was different. Nine strangers. But they weren't strangers. There was a connection.
"Aw finally," Aaron said as our food arrived. The smell of bacon changed my train of thought.
We ate in silence--Talking only briefly about the quality of food and the nice weather. I guess that was the kind of couple we had become.
My phone buzzed.
Jim: Excuse yourself and go to the restroom.
I looked down at it then flipped my phone.
"What was that?" Aaron asked while shoveling eggs into his mouth.
"Oh just one of the girls from group," I said in a panick. Why is he texting me? How does he know where I am? "She shared some heavy stuff last night and is following up."
Aaron looked at me then the phone. "You can read it, I won't look."
I flipped the phone over and cleared the message notification. Then I glanced around as soon as Aaron looked away. It was busy and I had no idea where to look. My phone buzzed again.
Jim: Slut, excuse yourself now.
I cleared the screen then stood up.