I just don't know what to do. I know I have reacted badly to things. I sulked too much over our lack of sex for one thing. We would go days without it. Some times she would apologize for ignoring me or for forgetting that we needed to do it but then she would go right on being too busy. She wanted to snuggle, kiss and she would even play with me now and then, but I got tired of being horny with no release. I cut down on hugging her and kissing back. I started to spend more time away from home on the weekend and coming home later. Hmmm, I wonder if she thought I was having an affair? I hadn't thought of that before. That would explain some of her reactions. Maybe we should talk more. I could set up a date with her and talk after we come home. Of course the last time we went out on date, only a couple of months ago, she wasn't all that impressed. Which is another reason I wonder if she still loves me. True it was something we had done a few times before and she likes it when I try something new. That could account for some of her attitude but I was under the impression it was more than that.
We had such good times too, back when. Not only did the wedding go smoothly but the wedding night was fantastic. Mary thought so too. We made it to our room still wearing our wedding gear. After kissing she wanted out of the dress so I helped her out part way but then she said that she was going to finish in the other room. That disappointed me but only for a moment, for after a few minutes she came out wearing one of the sexiest nightgowns I had ever seen. It was white with a skin hugging top, that both hid and showed her breasts. On the bottom there was only what I found out later to be a thong panty. There were also white silk stockings that went up to her upper thigh and connected to a garter belt. She was so beautiful and exciting I could only stare. She was better looking than those models in the Fredrick's of Hollywood TV commercials. Finally she asked me if I liked it and I told her how beautiful she was and that she was better looking than those models. She smiled shyly and told me to come get her. I did, and we went on to have a good time.
She was a virgin as I was, even though I had had more experience than she. I think I gave her a good time. Afterwards she said I had been gentle and loving. I had wanted to just stick it in her, but I knew I needed to be careful because I not only wanted to give her a good time I didn't want to hurt her. So I took my time getting her out of that outfit. I rubbed her breasts some while kissing her, I had felt the breasts of two girls through their tops before but this material was thinner and I could feel the shape of my bride's breasts better than with the other two. That had been a big turn on. They were nice sized and shaped like some type of melons. I couldn't wait to see them fully. I slowly took off Mary's top, slipping it over her shoulders with more kissing and licking the side of her neck just under her ear.
She shivered, but groaned as I nibbled her chin. She tensed at one point but then relaxed. I thought it was because we had reached the point where she usually stopped me - but now there was no reason to. Then I started slipping her top off and she just smiled at me. Once it was off I stepped back and looked at her bosom fully for the first time. I had seen parts of them but never a whole breast and never both at the same time. They were beautiful - as I told her. Again I had to fight the urge just to throw her on the bed and to rip off the rest of her clothes. I stared and then bent forward suddenly and started licking one. She gasped and pulled back but then relaxed herself and just enjoyed it. Again, I thought her reaction was automatic, out of the habit of saying 'no' to sexual pleasures. But she had remembered that it was okay now.
Boy, I enjoyed myself hugely as I licked both breasts and sucked on the nipples. I sucked on the slopes of each breasts too leaving behind half a dozen hickeys on each. Mary got mad at me later when she put on her bikini and discovered two hickeys could be seen. Everyone who glanced at her would know what they were. But at the time I wasn't thinking of that, I was just enjoying myself while making sure she was enjoying herself. After a few minutes I laid her on the bed and took off her bottoms. I slowly slipped them down her legs so I could gradually see what I had been getting glimpses of all night.
Once the whole thing was revealed I just stared. I finally was able to see a pussy, I had touched a few but never seen one before. I climbed onto the bed and started licking her legs at knee level. First one then the other back and forth slowly making my way up to that beautiful erotic sight between her legs. At first she didn't seem to get much out of it but as I worked my way upward she began to enjoy it. She groaned loudly as I swiped my tongue over the inside of her upper thigh so I knew I was doing good. I spent some extra time there just licking away and sucking on certain spots. I left even more hickeys there which she also got mad at me about when she put on her bikini. But at that moment she wanted more. Finally I made it to that spot, that wonderful sexy slit of hers. I spent half a minute I think just looking at it at close range. I took in the lips, the area around it and even her clitoris.
I stopped the examination when she said something I didn't catch. I told her that I had been overwhelmed by what I was looking at which was true. When I started to lick her pussy she went wild. I swiped my tongue over it from bottom to top half a dozen times. Mary moaned big time and when I took one lip in my mouth and started sucking she grabbed my head and pushed against it, keeping my mouth on her. I didn't care, I just sucked, licked and slurped her juices. I switched to her clit just grabbing it in my mouth and sucking hard. She almost screamed out her pleasure so I kept it up concentrating on that small nub. After I don't know how long she had a orgasm, she bucked against my mouth pressing her clit harder against my lips and she did scream as her body jerked. I had hit pay dirt for it was a good climax too. I had given a couple girls orgasms before as I played with their pussies but they had been light compared to this one. I kept it up more and she finally told me it was enough since it was my turn.
God, my turn felt so good. No girl had ever sucked on me before, even though a couple had given me climaxes while rubbing me through my pants. When Mary put her mouth over my cock and sucked I jerked and let out a sound that was almost a scream. She licked it some first and even sucked on the middle of the top, probably trying to leave a hickey of her own. That was good, but when she sucked with the whole head in her mouth my pleasure increased ten fold I think. And she kept it up until I came. I warned her not knowing if she really wanted to swallow my seed but she did. She ignored my warning and seconds later as she sucked the head and ran a hand up and down the shaft my mind exploded in the biggest orgasm I have ever had.
I know I jammed my shaft further into her mouth but I couldn't help it. When the first glob of sperm shot out I screamed, and I let out another sound as the second and third squirt shot out. She must have swallowed most of it as I filled her mouth. Finally I relaxed and when my limp shaft popped out of her mouth she opened it to show me the last of my sperm still there. Mary told me later that a friend had told her to do that. I ended up just staring again. I did a lot of staring that night. I couldn't believe how erotic it was. She has only done it a hand full of times since and none at all for the past months. Mary never did like the taste of cum all that much so she has only given me blow jobs on special occasions and there had been none in the past nine months or more.
Suddenly Brian halted those thoughts. Nice remembrances, but at the same time frustrating. He was already horny as hell, which might why he was thinking of those events. They not only did nothing to help his horniness it made it worse. It was also frustrating in that he and his wife hadn't had any good times like that for a while. He missed them and not just for the sexual release either. She rebuffed his last two attempts to do something, to go out for dinner and have a nice talk. It seemed like they did better while away from the house. But speaking of sexual release it looked like he was going to have to use his hand for that again. He was tried of having to do that.
As Brian thought about Mary's rebuffs his anger quickly grew, the heck with it he thought "I am going to get some companionship and hopefully some sexual release in a way that was more satisfying than my hand". He saved and put away what he was working on then called up his server. Once he was on line he quickly went to the Literotica site. He had been there a lot lately reading various stories to help take up the time he should have been spending with his wife and to help him get sexual release. It always seemed to be more fun to masturbate while reading those stories than to do it just using his imagination. Now though, he was here for different reason. He thought about checking to see if his favorite writers had anything new. Patrica51's To Serve and Protect series was great and not just for a turn on either they were good storytelling. Her 'Moonlight' was very well written as well as a fabulous turn on, as was the lesbian sex in the two Cruise stories and the first To Serve and Protect. Troubadour had a couple great ones Brian liked to reread now and then as did MsSeminoleWind.
