Requested by Lucifernightbringer
Hi. My name is Kent, and this story is...hard for me to tell, but I need to get it off my chest. I need to tell someone or I think it will eat me away from the inside. So, this is it. My story. My darkest secret. I hope someone can take something positive from it, because for me it is nothing but a terrible, terrible nightmare.
When I was younger, I dated a girl named Lana. Lana was pretty and popular. She was a big breasted cheerleader type. We lived next door to each other and were close all throughout elementary school and high school, and honestly I wouldn't say we started dating because we liked each other but because it was easy and convenient, really. Either way, we started dating, and we were mostly happy together. She was my first kiss, and we lost our virginity to each other. We even got accepted to the same university, and we started attending together the same year. For a while, I thought we might even get married.
Then, she cheated on me. Our college made us live in the dorms for the first two years of attendance, and in the dorms Lana met a big gorilla of a guy named Alexander. Dude used to go around and introduce himself as Alexander the Great, and she and I used to laugh at him behind his back. Then, one night she goes to a party. I can't go because I'm studying for finals, but she gets drunk, and she gets high, and then she gets fucked hard. Pics get sent out. It's all over social media, and a few days later she dumps me before I even get the chance to get mad at her.
I was heartbroken, but I was also kind of glad. She and I were different, and we were growing apart for a while. College changes people. I told myself to look at it as a bullet dodged and move on, and I did. This was all in the first year. I went home with my roommate James for the summer so I could avoid her, I got a tan and made some money, and I came back ready to make my second Sophomore year even better.
That's when I met her: Lois. Lois was like an angel come to earth. She was not buxom like Lana, and she was not shapely, but she was sweet, and she was kind, and she had the cutest little freckles just lightly sprinkled across her petite little nose. That, combined with her blue eyes, her big and welcoming smile, and the way her hair looks in pigtails, I was smitten. She was so different from Lana, but she was exactly what I needed. She was the something different that would make this year the best year of my life.
Now, normally, I'm not tongue-tied around women, but I was tongue-tied around Lois. I think it was because of what Lana and Alex did to me, but I just lacked confidence. James could tell, and so could his girlfriend, Chloe. Every time I saw Lois around school with her hair up and her autumn sweaters on, looking cozy and friendly and warm, I would just completely lose control of myself and not speak at all. When I did get the courage to speak, I spoke loud and I spoke stupid. A week passed, a month passed, and then the whole semester passed. I went home for winter break, and I thanked God for not seeing Lana there. She apparently stayed with Alex but whatever. I told myself that when we got back to school, I would nut up and I would make my move.
As the new semester started, though, I found myself just as stupid as I was before. Every time I tried to speak with her, I would just shout some random joke. She would smile and laugh because that was the kind of girl she was, but I could tell by the look in her eyes that she was just being polite. Meanwhile, James' girlfriend, Chloe, was getting cozy up to her with the promise of putting a good word in for me.
That is when the party happened. Spring Break came, and we were all invited to a party on the lake. People around the dorm and outside of it had pooled money to rent out a couple of cabins. There would beer and bongs and skinny dipping, and there would probably be sex, too. I knew that Lana was going, and I had no interest in being there until Chloe had told me that Lois was planning on going. Honestly, I was surprised to hear that until Chloe had mentioned that she talked Lois into it, and then I put my money up to attend because I would not let this chance pass me by.
I told myself that with or without liquid courage backing me up, I would get the chance to speak to her, and I would tell her how I feel.
Spring Break came, and I was more nervous than I had ever been before. James and I drove together, and Chloe carpooled with Lois. She had been talking me up for weeks in subtle and sometimes unsubtle ways, but I appreciated all of their help. This would be my weekend, I told myself, and I was doing positive affirmations and all that shit to try and talk myself up. In the mirror, at least, I felt like a cool guy, but on the day we arrived, I saw Alex and Lana together, and I felt sick.
Alex was at college on a bunch of sports shit. He was big and strong, but he wasn't stupid, either. I call him a gorilla because he was arrogant, but I couldn't pretend like he was a dumb neanderthal. He was a bit knuckle-dragging, but from what I could tell he was a nice guy when he wasn't fucking other people's girlfriends. Honestly, I didn't like the guy, but I couldn't really blame him. From what I could tell, it was Lana who was all over him, and he was just the unlucky sap who was taking the slut for a ride.
During the day things were tame. There were families on the lack, and aside from a few bikinis we didn't get too crazy. On the first night was the first real big party. Kegs were brought out, and I saw weed and hallucinogenics passed out. Lois didn't seem the type to partake, and so I abstained as well. I wanted to impress her, and I spent the party trying to pluck up the courage to make my approach.
Lois hugged the walls and made friendly conversation with everyone. She was clearly out of her element, but she handled it well. Everyone there was wearing bikinis and a few of them had even went with nothing at all. Lana wore anything that showed off her bust and her butt, and I had to admit that she looked hot as fuck even if she was attached to Alex's arm the whole night. Chloe wore heavy eye-liner and spiked things. She liked hard music and normally liked hard drugs, but she was careful to keep her head that night, though she did drink like an alcoholic fish.
I spent that first night watching her until it got late. Most people were retreating to their cabins to rest, and I was getting ready to do the same. I told myself that the next day would be different, but before I even made it to the cabin to the cabin, James stopped me with a hand on my shoulder. "Dude, we gotta talk!"
He was smiling when I turned to look at him, and I could tell by the way he swayed that he was more than a little tipsy. He wasn't slurring, though, so I figured he was good. "Yeah, man, what's up?"
"I got good news for you," he said, and he blinked in slow motion in a way that made me think he might be tipsier than I first estimated. "Lois is spending the night in our cabin, I think."
"What?!" A lump formed in my throat, and I couldn't tell whether it was excitement or not. I looked past him and saw Chloe leading Lois up the steps to our cabin. "No way! How...What...How?!"
"Chloe is putting together a little game tonight. It's nothing big, but you gotta stay cool, man."
"I will, I will," I told him, but I felt very uncool with how excited I was getting. With only the four of us in the cabin, I felt like even I couldn't ruin this. I suddenly began messing with my clothes. "How do I look? Do I look cool?"
"You look like an idiot," James teased, and I shoved him. He fell backward into a tree but wasn't hurt, and he was definitely more than a little tipsy. "Hey, man, chill."
"Sorry, man, it was an accident." I pulled him back up. "God, I owe Chloe for this one."
"You're saying that now but..." James started away from me, and I followed him close behind.
"But what, man? What could possibly go wrong."
