Dear Diary!
What happened last night, shouldn't have. But it wasn't entirely my fault. Or was it? No. Most certainly not. In Fact i had no role to play in it at all. It happened to me. I am the Victim here, if anything. But why do I feel a deep sense of guilt within? Let me try and piece back the story from the bits I can recollect.
I was invited to Sean's dinner party. He was finally going to introduce me to his friends as a token of his commitment to our now year-long relationship. I remember being nervous. I knew that his friends had a heavy influence on who he dates. I wanted to impress them all. After all i loved Sean. Almost to the point of madness.
I dressed up sharp in my new black satin slip dress that i had been wanting to wear for Sean. He was really into Satin. The dress fit me beautifully with a snug body fit. I knew Sean wouldn't approve of me wearing this infront of his guy friends but i thought 'what the hell', the agenda for tonight was to impress those very friends. Also, given that I'd likely be spending the night at Sean's place, I put on my matching pearl white minimal thongs and polka dot cotton lacy bra.
I decided to walk to Sean's place as he lived right in the next block. I reached in two shakes of a lamb's tail. I knocked on the door and was welcomed by Sean with a tight hug. He took a whiff of my freshly shampooed hair and held me for nearly a minute. I knew he loved me back as much as i did, if not more. He then held my hand and introduced me to his friends. Three of his closest guy friends. First i met Arthur, his college mate who seemed cultured and reserved, he greeted me with a gentle handshake. Then i met Connor, his best mate from work. He was Sean's boss, technically speaking, but they were close buds, as i was told. He smiled at me upon being introduced and moved on to refill his drink from the bar. The third was Paul, his neighbor for 10 years. He was your typical macho & virile man. He greeted me with a tight hug. I found him to be the warmest of the three. I stood there chatting with Paul and Sean when Connor came in with a drink. I was surprised how he knew exactly what I typically drink - smokey whiskey with a dash of cinnamon. I smiled at him and took the glass off of him. Our eyes locked briefly but i broke contact and looked away. Something seemed off with Connor but I ignored it.
Things were blurry from then on. We chugged drinks. We laughed. We danced and sang at the top of our voices. I knew the night was going well and i had a great vibe going with all of Sean's friends. Although i'll admit, i'd gotten exceptionally drunk. I went to Sean's room to just catch a breath. That's when Sean and Connor approached me. I hugged Sean tightly and thanked him for introducing me to his friends. But then it happened.
I felt a pair of hands grab my waist from behind while i was kissing Sean. It was Connor. Sean at this point stopped kissing me and pulled away. I was bewildered but inebriated enough to not be able to piece a full sentence together. I faced Sean, looking at him inquisitively as Connor's hand ran all over my satin dress as he drew me in closer towards him.
I remember wanting to physically protest but my limp body was pretty much useless. What i can definitely recall was that I wasn't alone in the room. Sean stood in one corner standing pretty much expressionless while Arthur and Paul stood in the other with a grin on their faces. Just when i was trying to come up with a reasonable explanation to all of this, Connor's hands slid under my slip dress from the thigh up. His rough manly hands felt my supple thighs and slowly rolled up to my abdomen, tickling my belly button and finally under my bra. I felt shivers go down my spine as he took a firm grip of me. I knew I wasn't going anywhere. I had to submit. Afterall Sean has seemingly abandoned me.