"Don't worry." I said, "Our relationship is much different. I won't ever give you more than you can handle." I put my arm around her and we sat together silently.
As the weekend arrived, I told Deb to hold Saturday afternoon open. "That will be the time of our next lesson", I said. "No pills this time." That made an impression on her, and Saturday morning she chain-smoked almost a pack of cigarettes. With the blinds closed and more music, I lit a few candles in the bedroom, some of Deb's favorite scents. She noticed it immediately when she came into the room. I ordered her to kneel on the bed and secured her hands to the bedpost using my tie. Next, I applied a blindfold. This heightened her excitement. I went into the bathroom, getting ready slowly so as to heighten the anticipation. When I returned she displayed her back fearlessly. The first few lashes were soft, but one opened a cut. More whips to the back opened up a few more cuts. I stopped the whipping and kissed blood from the cuts. Then I spotted the candles and decided to continue the lesson along a different line. "I need to apply something to the cuts", I said and slowly let the hot wax drip on her back, starting at a spot far from the cuts and moving closer. As it reached the area where the cuts were, Deb flinched and endured the pain silently. Her response surprised and excited me. I told her how good she had been and how I was going to reward her with a hard cock. That encouragement lifted her spirits. I offered her a cigarette and she took multiple deep drags. I let it continue to dangle from her lips as I worked my cockhead into her and stroked her breasts. Deb intuitively knew that the lesson was over and settled into matching my thrusts. Deb had a welcome orgasm. After I untied her she lit another cigarette and later quietly took a few pills from a small bottle in her desk.
Next week I used her computer to check my e-mail messages from work one night. Out of curiosity I checked the search history. Deb had continued to search sites related to whips, both videos and stories. I brought up one of the stories, part of a multi-part series. I stopped in mid-sentence when I realized that this story had actually been written by Deb. The story described our last lesson exactly, but it also had her thoughts and feelings as the lesson proceeded. In addition to her outward stoic acceptance of the whipping and hot wax, the story also showed her desire for more variety of pain experiences. In the story it described how she had been secretly been burning herself on the wrist with a cigarette to see how much pain she could endure. Thinking about the story later, I realized that I had noticed the bandage on her wrist and Deb said that she had burned herself on a pan while cooking.