She stood staring out the window, not really seeing anything at all but lost in her own thoughts, instead. The box she was unpacking was forgotten at her feet for the moment. Shoulders relaxing, she lets out a sigh and idly wonders if it was a sad one or one of content. At this point in her life, she's not sure of anything, even her own emotions.
Three weeks ago she and her family loaded everything they owned and moved across the country to start a new life. He's promised her it will be good for them, and she doesn't think she cares one way or the other. She is simply glad for the change. He started to work immediately and left her to deal with the house while he's gone during the week. The kids are in school. She does regret moving them in the middle of the year, but at least they are both young enough that they seem to be adjusting well. She sighs again, this time knowing it's a sad one; her babies are growing up. But she's glad too, with the freedom she has now that they are both in school. Maybe she'll actually take time to do things for herself. What's that old clichΓ©? Read books she's always wanted to read? Somehow she doubts she'll ever really get around to it, but anything is possible.
It's hard to believe that she's left behind everything she's ever known and moved to a house that she had never seen until they moved into it. They are renting for now, but the owner said if it all worked out he would be willing to sell if they want it. It's a nice neighborhood from what's she's seen, which isn't much. She's been too busy trying to unpack and find a spot for everything. Drawing herself out of her reverie she looks down into the box at her feet and gets back to work.
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He flips through the radio stations trying to find his talk show. Why can't he ever remember where it is? Goodness knows he's made this trip enough times he should have everything about it memorized, much less the radio channel. Giving up in frustration, he leaves it on a country station that's coming in clear, for the moment, and turns it down so it's just a low buzz in his head. He hates this drive and for the thousandth time curses himself for having to make it. If she wasn't so stubborn... or maybe if he wasn't? He's not sure of anything now. Last trip home was a disaster, and he's not expecting it to be much better this time. The conversations with her over the week haven't been promising. Just casual conversations, the weather, work....nothing too personal. But at least there hasn't been any shouting, yet. Losing himself in the hum of the road, he flexes his shoulders and tries to relax in his seat. He picks up his cell phone out of the seat next to him and calls his house. No answer, just her voice on the machine. He leaves a quick message with his arrival time and hangs up, wondering where she is. He could call her cell, but she'd probably just be aggravated that he's tracking her down.
Hours later he makes the final leg of the journey home, stopping at the liquor store before heading on to his house. He pulls into the drive, and relief at just being home washes over him. One more trip safely completed. As he unloads the truck he's saddened but not surprised that no one comes out to greet him. Two trips inside to cart all his laundry and other belongings in and still no one is present. He figures she must already be in bed, as it is pretty late. He turns off all the lights, and makes his way in the dark to the kitchen to put his beer in the fridge. Standing in the cool glow of the fridge light he closes his eyes and wishes for the best. He closes the door and heads for their room.
She's in the bed, but not sleeping because as he walks in she rolls over and her eyes open to stare at him in the dark. He doesn't say anything as his body tenses, waiting. For what, he doesn't know. I sign from her, he supposes. She doesn't say anything, just rolls back over and closes her eyes.
Releasing the breath he didn't realize he was holding, his shoulders drop and his head hangs. Moving to his side of the bed he undresses. Not really ready for sleep because his mind is racing, he stands gazing out the window. Vaguely he notes that the house across the street is lit up. Someone must be renting it again. He makes a mental note to ask her in the morning if she has met them. Maybe they have a boy the right age to be a pal for her boy. He lays downs beside her and feels her shift away. Sleep is a long time coming.
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The sound of laughter wakes her as sunlight spills across the bed and she smiles. Oh how those kids love to laugh! It's what she lives for. Tossing her arm out to the side, her smile fades when she remembers he isn't there beside her. But there is no time for lying around feeling depressed. Kids have to be fed and dressed and rushed out the door to catch the bus. They can lay around tomorrow and start the weekend off right. But today is Friday and there is a schedule to keep. She shuffles to the bathroom to take care of her morning business. Minutes later she emerges to find the little one standing outside the bathroom door. The little girl obviously has decided to dress herself for school today and has picked a very striking combination of stripes and polka-dots. Fighting down laughter she decides to leave it alone and goes to fix breakfast. They are only little once.
Thirty minutes later they are fed and out the door, full of the boundless energy only the truly young possess. She sits at the kitchen table, watching cereal float in their breakfast bowls and wonders how she'll fill the hours til they come home. She never thought she could feel so lonely. Maybe today she could start seriously looking for a job. Thoughts of work push her out of her chair and out the front door to get the newspaper. She walks quickly, hoping no one is watching her with her wild bed hair, bare feet, and her favorite jammy t-shirt that barely covers her ass. Tossing the paper on the couch she heads to her room to shower and start her day. She peels off her shirt and slips her panties down and steps out of them. She tries to avoid the mirrors on her way into the shower and is soon lost in steam.
After her shower she dresses quickly and grabs the paper, unrolling it as she slips on some shoes and heads outside. The yard is definitely taking on a brown cast and she intends to water it this morning while perusing the paper for job opportunities. Putting the paper down on the porch she heads to the side of the house where the hose is laying in a tangle, exactly where she left it three weeks ago when she unloaded it.
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She left this morning for work without really saying anything to him. At least, nothing he wanted to hear. He walks aimlessly through the house, not really seeing anything. Deciding he'll play golf today he dresses and goes to load his clubs in the truck. As he lifts the clubs into the truck an ear-piercing squeal fills the still morning air. Tossing them to the seat, and half hoping they stay put he turns and looks for the cause of the commotion. He finds it. As he jogs across the street he's already laughing. Reaching down to turn off the water he also offers out a hand to lift her off the ground. She looks like she's been attacked by her water hose. His laugh cuts off sharply as he really looks at her. Her eyes are bright with unshed tears.
"Are you OK?" he asks her very quietly.
"I think it's safe to say my hose has a leaky connection. Wouldn't you agree?" She looks down at herself and groans at the water soaking her clothes. Her shoes are splattered with mud, as are most of her legs. Her shoulders start to shake and he's afraid she's crying until he hears a small giggle escape her lips. She throws a hand over her mouth as if she feels the need to hold it in. He grins at this woman standing in front of him.
"I could help you, if you want. I've got some plumbers' tape. I'm sure that's all you need to make it stop spraying like that around the seal."
"That would be nice, thanks. I'm sure we have some somewhere but I wouldn't know where to start looking."
"I'll just run and get mine. It won't take but a second."
He jogs back across the street and into the house. Taking deep breaths, he digs around in the toolbox looking for the tape. "Whew", he blows out in a breath. First impressions aren't everything but she sure makes a lasting one.
Her heart is pounding and she's not so sure it's all from the fight she just lost with the hose. What a great way to make an impression. She looks like a fool, a soppy muddy fool.