"But you choose," Bijou's light growl was right next to her ear again, a barely perceptible breath moving the hair on her neck. "I want to hear what you want. I could drag you off right now, I could just undress you right here and slide up against you, or, I don't know, just off the top of my head, I could go sit over there and just watch you take your clothes off, kinda slowly, like you would if you knew someone were watching you. Honestly, it would be really hot to see what it does to you, to make you wait a bit. But it's up to you – tell me which one sounds," she punctuated her last word with a distinct nibble, just a single light press of her teeth, on Sara's ear, "...good." Sara shuddered.
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There was a long pause, while Sara gained her breath, and thought about what to say. It wasn't helping that Bijou's breath was warm and patient on her ear. Finally, she gulped, and whispered, very softly, "The last one."
Bijou moved even closer, pressing her body up against Sara, and kissed her very carefully, in what was clearly complete adoration.
"Which one, precious? Which choice exactly? I think I know what you mean, but honestly, it would make me so crazy to hear you say it, straight out. Which one do you truly want right now, more than anything, you exceptional creature? You just say what you want, and watch it happen."
"I....um..." said Sara, writhing back against Bijou. This was insane. It was already so over the top hot.
Bijou breathed in her ear again. "It would kinda send you, I think, to say it out loud, wouldn't it? I think it would. So what do you truly want, angel? Tell me." Bijou punctuated her words with a smooth, slow press of her hands against Sara's form, up her waist, to her arms.
"I want... to undress... to undress myself, to have you watch me..." Sara breathed it, hardly daring to whisper, overwhelmed by perfection. Bijou's hands had reached her wrists, and they wrapped, slowly and deliberately, those long thin fingers around her, holding her firmly. There was no arguing with that grip, only surrender, only losing control, giving in. Bijou, with suddenly stony power, held her wrists firmly just long enough to guide them behind her, as if she were bound. She moved Sara's arms and took both wrists into one of her hands, quietly demonstrating what she liked, what she wanted. This is me, being in charge of you.
Sara was breathless, already crazy with hunger, but strangely calm. She knew herself well enough to know that this was where she liked to go, but this was also a dangerous place with which to trust people. She couldn't afford to lose control with just anyone, and she was always so very close to losing control. What some people perceived as a cool reserve was the thin shell that covered her, kept her from surrendering to the wrong person, or in the wrong way. She was always so close to the edge, so constantly vulnerable to the right voice or the right set of touches. She had to keep her distance. But here, she knew somehow that she was in good hands. Not just good hands, but hands that adored her and respected her, hands that had the skill to take her where she truly wanted to go. Something told her that. Bijou was like her, a volcano, and she seemed to understand.
But she also knew that Bijou was intense, that she had edges, kinks, wild territory. She'd read Bijou's stories. Bijou could go anywhere, and Sara was a bit intimidated by the impressions she'd had of Bijou's wild streak. How much of her fiction was real?
She chose, at that moment, to trust. Completely. She felt safe, despite her unfamiliarity with this strange, sharp creature, because at the other end of her surrender was a knowledge, beyond doubt, that she was adored. Bijou's eyes were undisguised, and the affection that beamed from them was unmistakable, bright as a floodlight.
"Undress for me," breathed Bijou into her ear. "Nothing contrived. Just you, surrendering. While I watch."
Sara felt suddenly plain, and completely raw. She didn't have to decide anything; she couldn't do anything but hear the voice and move toward it, pursuing her own hunger to its endpoint. She began to undress. At first, she closed her eyes. Bijou had moved away, she wasn't sure where, but she did feel, suddenly, quite alone, and she let her mind move to those moments when, by herself, she had undressed, she had moved and danced and been seduced by her own images, her own thoughts.
She stripped her shirt over her head, glad to be rid of it. She found herself suddenly immensely impatient, bound by her clothes. Going slowly would have been contrived; if she'd truly been alone she'd have kicked off every stitch in moments, impatient to be rid of the constraint. And so she did – Bijou wanted her real, and dammit, she'd be real. It wouldn't be a sexy dance, or something from a movie. It would be a finally free, solitary woman who'd been bound into clothes all day when she'd have preferred to be naked, or at least close. Her clothes felt like handcuffs, like a straightjacket, and she needed them off, instantly.
She stopped thinking about the fact that she was undressing as a performance. She tore her clothes off as if they were soaked with poison, eager to get them away from her skin. She dropped them one by one on the floor where she stood, every bond she had. She kicked the skirt away and then unhooked (god, what ecstatic relief) the lacy bra that held her generous breasts like a vise. The latter she balled up and threw, with not a little rage, across the room.
When she got to the panties she stopped. They were hot, and she knew it. She'd always had a bit of a thing for sexy underwear, and knowing that Bijou had a major fetish for lingerie had raised her consciousness about it even further. This piece was one of her favorites. The thought arrived in her head, strangely sudden: Bijou would want me to leave these on.