* July 7 *
Wow! what a nice holiday weekend... really a good time. There's a lot to tell, so i'll try to keep it short.
I've been hanging out with Marie a lot. We've shopped, gone on double dates, that sort of thing. We've also kissed a few times, nothing sexual or anything. It's really weird, we're closer than i've ever been with anyone, but it's just a friendship. I don't think i'm lesbian or whatever, i really like guys. I just like hanging with Marie, too. So i'm just going with it.
She and i spent the holiday weekend with her family at their cabin on the lake. There were burgers, fries, hot dogs, swimming, sunning... and i gave my first blowjob.
I thought that would surprise you. It just all seemed right at the time, and i don't regret it too much. It would have been better if it had been someone i was dating... or at least interested in... maybe i should explain.
We had been swimming all day. James, Marie, Stephen, and I. James is Marie's brother. Stephen is a friend that James brought along. I spent much of the weekend hitting on Stephen, but he seemed more interested in Marie. He was really good looking. James is also good looking; he looks like Marie, only male. He's a football runner of some sort, so he's in great shape. He eats constantly, and is a joker, too. The exact sort of guy you'd expect to be pulling your ponytail or snapping your bra strap or whatever.
Anyway, we were all exhausted from swimming all day, and were lounging around the cabin that night after Marie's parents had gone to sleep. It was really hot in there, so we just never changed out of our swimsuits; i had on shorts over my bikini bottoms, and was wearing just the bikini top. Marie hadn't bothered with the shorts, and her bikini must have been at least one size too small - but that's just the way marie is. Stephen, naturally, couldn't take his eyes off of her. She was in a chair, Stephen on the floor, and James and I were on the couch together, him on one end and me on the other. We were watching TV, some science fiction movie.