I'm a workaholic or at least I used to be, I ran my own business and it was not unusual for me to be working 12 hours a day seven days a week at the office, then I would get home locking myself away doing paperwork. It was all about making money and keeping everybody happy, everybody except my family, there was no such thing as work-life balance, I just took my family for granted.
It wasn't until it was too late that I realised what I had lost, I've thrown away a 15 year marriage, missed 13 years of my daughter life. I couldn't blame Sandra, she was lonely, she had needs and she didn't have me, she was living the life of a single parent in a two parent home. When she met someone else she changed, I just didn't notice, I wasn't there to notice and Cassie changed too, she no longer asked me come to her school or sport games, I wasn't needed I was replaced.
It took walking into a empty home for me to notice and by then it was too late, that was 5 years ago. I lost my wife, I lost my daughter for three weeks out of every four and my business fell in a heap, I was on a downward spiral. After 12 months Sandra was threatening to apply for full custody of Cassie if I didn't get my life sorted out.
Thank God for Cassie, she became my rock and life, for a 14 year old she was more mature and wise than me. I turned things around for her, I needed her and she needed me.
I got my business going again but only 9am to 5pm Monday's to Friday's, even when I didn't have custody I was there for her, I never missed a school activity or a social event. My relationship with Sandra improved, she invited me to her house for Cassie's parties even on the occasional family outing with them and her new husband Mike.
Things took a real turn after Cassie's 18th, she was an adult and the custody order no longer applied, Cassie could choose where she lived and she chose to live with me. Sandra wasn't thrilled by the idea but agreed it did make a certain amount of sense as Cassie would be going to college near me and her best friend Jane lived nearby and will be attending the same college.
Cassie and Jane were always close and even after the divorce surprisingly things didn't change. I say that because Mike is Jane's Uncle, looking back he was probably more of a father to Cassie than I was even before the divorce.
I should have seen it coming, suspected something at least but I was too focused on work, Cassie used to constantly talk about Jane and Uncle Mike, in the three or four years before the divorce Uncle Mike started visiting occasionally with Jane, his visits increasing until eventually every time Jane visited so did Uncle Mike.
Hindsight a wonderful thing but I've given up dwelling on the past, I have learnt my lessons from past mistakes and I'm now moving forward with my life.
"Daddy you need a girlfriend."
"And why do I need a girlfriend Cassie, what's wrong with my life?"
"Your lonely, you have needs."
"I got you, I got my work, it's all good."
"I can give you company, work can keep you busy but none of it can give you what you really need."
"And what pray tell do I really need?"
"Sex."
"What!"
"You need sex, it's proven that sex is good for you both mentally and physically."
"What I don't need is sex advice from my 19 year old daughter."
"But Daddy."
"But nothing Cassie, conversation over, subject closed."
I should have known better, once Cassie has an idea there's no stopping her, she's like a dog with a bone she'll never let it go.
Two weeks later Cassie tells me that Cindy and Jane are coming for dinner.
Cindy is Jane's mother, she is also single, her husband left her about 17 years ago with their nanny. He just packed up and left them, as far as I'm aware he hasn't been back in touch since.
An obvious match making attempt by Cassie and I suspect Jane as well.
When Cindy and Jane arrive the girls guide us to the living room telling us they are preparing dinner tonight. I've haven't been with a woman for years in a social setting, our time in the living room involves a lot of uncomfortable silence, regularly broken by Cassie or Jane coming in to check on us.
Finally dinner is ready and Jane leads us to the dining room and a table set for two, I shake my head as Cassie ushers me to my seat. After fussing around for several minutes serving our meal and drinks the girls disappear leaving us alone.
"I'm sorry Cindy I feel Cassie has drawn you into her web of trying to find me a girlfriend, it won't offend me if you want to leave."
"Don't worry Ted, Jane's been trying to match make me for the last couple of years and the food does look nice."
Those two sentences broke the ice, we both become more relaxed, conversation begins flowing freely as we eat and drink. Most of the topics involve the girls and things they did together, unfortunately I did miss the majority of them but it's nice to hear how happy Cassie was.
"Thanks for dinner Ted," Cindy says as we wash up.
"No need to thank me Cindy, the girls did everything."
"Well then thank you for being single and giving the girls an excuse for tonight."
"And thank you for being such pleasant company."
"Right then Ted I think it's time I left."
"Sorry did I say something?"
"No, it's not you."
Cindy gives me a kiss on the cheek then makes her way to the front door, "Thank the girls for me when you see them."
"Alright, again thanks Cindy I enjoyed myself tonight."
"So did I Ted."
I watch Cindy walk down the path to her car, she gives me a wave before getting inside and driving off. Closing the door I return to the kitchen to finish cleaning up before going to bed.
Next morning at breakfast the girls pump me with questions about last night, they seem to be relatively happy with my answers. As they leave the kitchen I hear them discuss plans for our next date, not that I thought of last night as a date.
"Daddy we're having a birthday party for Jane on Saturday please come."