--= 11 =--
I just looked at Danny, completely dumbfounded. I didn't know what to say, at least, I didn't know where to begin. How did he know? Am I that bad of a liar? Did Kevin tell him? No, he had no chance to. Unless, he texted him on his phone?
I played the stupid card: "I uhm, don't know what you're talking about?"
"Soph, I was there." I felt like I was going to hurl at this point.
"Th-there?"
"Yeah. I had to take a piss 'n I heard noises outside the door. Here I was thinkin': 'Wow, what mother fucker got lucky t'nite?' I walk in and see your shoes under the stall."
My face was burning. I was so humiliated. He may as well have walked into my bedroom when Kevin was there. Ugh, I don't know what's worse: being caught in a bathroom stall, or my "baby sister" image trashed in front of Danny's very eyes.
"Look Soph. You're an adult, you can do whatever you want. It's just that you're my sister. I know that I haven't been in your life much to really have the proper "big brother" title, but I'm still protective of you. I care about who sees you, and in what light."
I felt tears swell in my eyes. One dropped and I went to wipe it off. The stern look on Dan's face washed away into concern.
"Aw, I didn't mean to make you cry." He leaned in to give me a bear hug.
"No, it's not that," I muffled in his chest. He let go and I gave a soft chuckle. "As fucked up as this sounds, this is our bonding moment. You catchin' baby sis doin' the dirty in a bathroom."
We just looked at each other and burst out laughing. I could see where Danny's concerns lie, and I knew I had to clear things up. The scary thing was, I knew how I felt, but I didn't know how Kevin felt. Granted he tells me I'm his, but he could just be hopped up on hormones or something.
"Danny, I'm really sorry you had to see that. Believe me, I had no intentions of having you catch me in such a compromising position. I just don't want you to think that I'm being young and stupid. I know how I feel about Kevin. I didn't mean to fall for him so hard, but in the end I did."
"I see."
"And I know he just broke up with his girlfriend and all, I just-" I looked up at Danny and gave a shy smile. "I really like Kevin. Really really like him. He's on my mind all the time, and I care about him a lot." I paused. "But who knows; I could be a rebound. God, maybe I am young and dumb and full of..."
"Let's not finish that sentence," he laughed nervously, "I know Kevin. We've been friends since middle school. He isn't the type to just fuck around. Figuratively and... literally."
It felt good to hear that. But I knew that hearing it from Danny wasn't enough. I didn't want to pressure Kevin into expressing his feelings, or force him to say things he doesn't mean. It's just that I have a really bad habit of feeling emotions hard. I guess the best thing I can do at this point is to give each other space, slow us down a bit. See if there's more than just really hot, heavy, and mmm... gratifying sex.
--= 12 =--
The morning started off like any other. Danny and I decided to keep this between us. Jen was already gone and Dan was just about there. I just sat on the couch knowing that my day would be filled with nothing but loneliness. I pretended to watch TV, but really I was stuck on yesterday's events.
Was I feeling guilty? Should I? After confessing my feelings for Kevin to Dan, I started to think more on it. All night I just laid in bed staring at the ceiling feeling conflicted. On one hand, I knew there was no way I could stop seeing Kevin. Even if I couldn't physically see him, I will always think about him. And on the other hand, all we've done is fuck. So how is it possible that I care about him so damn much?
God, I hate being a girl sometimes. Always gotta over think things.
"Hey Soph, burgers ok for tonight?"
"Burgers are perfect."
"Kay well, see you later." And then he was gone.
I let out a heavy sigh. Sometimes I hated being alone. Being alone meant you were left with your thoughts. Normally I'd let my mind venture through all the things in my head, but for once I let my mind go blank. The TV played off in the background as I slowly dozed off.
-=-
It was a dreamless sleep, all it took was a light rap at the door to wake me up. I rubbed my eyes, then moseyed my way to the door. I opened it slowly, peeking my head around. I looked up and smiled weakly.
"Hey," he said, barely a whisper.
"Hey." There was something different about Kevin's presence. It was like our moods had synced and we were feeling the same way. "Come in?"
"Thank you." He stepped in, moving so I could shut the door, then we just stood there, awkwardly.
"So, uhm, I got a call from Dan."
I pursed my lips, "Did you now? I think I can guess how that conversation went."
"Oh yeah? Lemme hear it," he chuckled.
I cleared my throat and did my best to imitate Danny, "So, you're bangin' my sis'. Well lemme tell you, you hurt her and I'll be the last one to fuck you up. Understand?" I tried so hard not to laugh.
Kevin didn't: "Hahaha! Close, close! There may have been more swearing, but you pretty much nailed it."
"I knew he was a little soft with me. Guess you got the hard blow." This only added to my guilt.
"He also mentioned that I should be careful with your feelings, and to not toy around with you. Danny's a good man, always lookin' out for the people he cares about." He pressed his hands gently on my cheeks, pulling me to look at him. "But so am I. I look out for the people I care about, and your feelings are on the top of my priority list. Sophie, I care about you a lot."
By now he had his nose pressed on mine, and his voice was but a whisper. "I'm sure you've thought of yourself as just being a rebound or whatever, well I'm tellin' you right now, you're not. You're so much more. The second I met you, I felt it, this electricity between us."
"I felt it too," I said with my eyes closed. Hearing his voice was so soothing.
I sensed his lips curving up, "Good." He tilted my head up and gave me a gentle kiss. It was very reassuring, like all my questions were answered in the last three minutes, and I think he knew it, too.
"So, how do you feel about gettin' some ice cream?"
I looked down at myself. I still had on my Snoopy pajamas. I laughed, "Well, could I at least get ready?"
"You look ready to me. Gorgeous," he smiled.
"Ha-ha," I mocked, "Nice try. But not even you can con me into feeling beautiful in the morning."
"I'm not conning anyone. Just stating facts."
I smiled over at him. What the hell was I so worried about? I should really stop over-thinking and just go with the flow. My instincts have proven itself useful so far.
--= 13 =--
We went into town for some ice cream. We just sat there talking and talking. I think I went through three ice cream cones before I finally settled for water. I learned a lot about Kevin. Like, he's been in the Air force since he was 18. He joined the day he graduated and said that it was the best decision he's made for himself. He told me that things at home weren't too great, and this was his only way out. Then he finished by saying how he hasn't seen his family since he joined. I wasn't sure what to make of that. I knew that some family's could be seriously dysfunctional, but so much so that he hasn't seen them in nearly 10 years?
Anyway, I told him about my sad life story. Not so much boo-hoo teary sad, more along the lines of pathetic. I went on about my no-longer friends, and my no-life situation, and instead of feeling like the loser I normally feel, I felt relieved. Kevin just smiled at me the whole time, comforting me at my low points, and chuckling at the high points. For the first time, I felt like myself - my whole self, and not some sugar-coated Sophie I usually play for people.
Eventually we made it back to Dan's place, and settled on the couch to watch some TV. Kevin laid behind me, wrapping his arms around me so I wouldn't fall off. He kept brushing his nose across my lower neck and it drove me insane. He would run a hand up my side, just under my shirt, that sent chills everywhere. I tried really hard to hide my enjoyment, because anytime I moaned to his touch, he would laugh to himself and stop.
"You're the biggest fucking tease ever."
"What are you talking about? It's your cute ass that keeps pressing itself into my cock, sweetheart."
I looked down, and smiled. "Well what do you know, it is!" I said as I pushed my ass (this time intentionally) into his thickening cock. He moaned into my ear, and bit down gently as he sucked in a breath.