Guest Star: Porsha Simms-44DDD-40-38 (28 years old)
I watched a few cars move down the street along with some foot traffic on the block content to just sit there on the grass for as long as it took to sink in. My mind kept replaying the brief innocent moment when I witness Yoli getting into a cab juxtaposed with what I'd discovered seconds ago. I could still hear my cousin asking about her likely already having talked with the duplicitous ingenue. I regretted my words, regretted telling Jaquan that I'd screwed her on his couch and everything else.
"Hey, uhm you mad?"
Yoli was there standing at the edge of the lawn to my left on the little concrete walkway that led up to the front door of my cousin's house. I slowly craned my head in her direction finding her wearing the long sleeved dress shirt garment. It was open down the front hastily put on with her fists holding it closed. She was nude underneath. Her hair was all over her head like some erratic mane.
"I'm a big boy." I looked away from her face.
"Please don't be mad at me." Her bare foot landed on the lawn, but I raised a palm stopping her from approaching.
"Don't."
"You hate me, don't you? I-I just want you to be okay, not angry with me, not mad." I glanced down between my legs unwilling to look at her face, pulling up a few blades of grass.
"Don't come near me."
Her whimpering turned to echoed sobbing as she ran back into my cousin's house. The screen door slammed loudly echoing off in the distance. Jaquan appeared seconds later at the edge of the lawn.
"SO, YOU GONNA TRICK ON ME, CALL RENEE, CUZ?!!" He sounded ready for a fight.
"No, I'm not that weak; I ain't doing shit, man." He stood there gauging my response, probably perplexed. Somewhere off in the distance one of his neighbors was playing some Womack and Womack. I believe the song was called Baby I'm Scared of You; I recognized its dreamy quality.
"Oh what, you gonna cry now cause I ran up in your bitch, huh nigga?" Subtlety was not among my cousin's more obvious charms. He sounded like the ignorant Cro-Magnon; he obviously was standing there shirtless with his sculpted physique on display.
"I don't think so; I'm going to sit here for a minute and let all that shit sink in Jaquan. So you can take your victory lap or go back in there and bust Yoli's back some more because I'm working on not giving a fuck. You can even smash my glass chin if you want, but I've got no fucks left to give. I'm not telling Renee about this."
"I'M SUPPOSED TO BELIEVE THAT SHIT?!!"
"Believe what you want, cuz."
Things got real quiet until only the ambient chirping of birds in that nearby tree were audible along with the sounds of children playing somewhere in the distance. Jaquan left me to my thoughts for a few seconds. Moments later, I noticed his and Yoli's legs from the knees down quickly walking by towards his Mustang convertible. I looked up watching the car pull off the curb. Yoli was hunched down in the front seat as it sped off.
"Sexually fluid." I fished my own house keys out of my pocket staring at them in the afternoon sunlight.
I tossed a few clumps of grass onto the sidewalk as a couple walked the dog, a German Shepard. The unleashed pet ran onto the lawn playfully licking my face before being called back by a whistle from his master. Both of the teens apologized but I was happy for that bit of interaction replying with a simple thumbs up. My limbs found movement gradually taking me back into the house were I gathered up my things retrieving my phone. I hesitated returning to my cousin's now vacant room to stare at the spot on his ruffled bed where they'd likely been screwing the entire day. I found Yoli's discarded panties left behind on the floor.
Thirty minutes later I was standing in my living room staring out the front window glad my mother was still on vacation for another couple of days. I sat on the couch zoning out for a while letting everything finish sinking in before resolving to back to work. My phone started ringing but I ignored it getting out my laptop. The incessant ringing kept up until I finally answered.
"WHAT ARE YOU DOING BACK HOME, BOY?!!"
"Mom?"
"WHAT YOU DOING IN THAT HOUSE?!!"
"Uhm, I came back to pick up some stuff and decided to chill; uh, how do you know that I'm home?" I felt goosebumps prick up on my skin.
"I GOT A CALL FROM THE SECURITY COMPANY; I'M LOOKING AT YOU RIGHT NOW ON MY PHONE!!"
I realized my home had remote surveillance glancing over my shoulder at some shelves in my living room. There was a small nanny cam between a photo of my grandfather and some family albums. I was glad I hadn't turned on my computer or my recent activities would've been exposed. I really didn't need that kind of grief.
"I live here what's the big deal?"
"I specifically arranged for you to stay at your aunt's house with your cousin Jaquan; he's responsible for you! I ain't paying him to let you come back home and shack up! You get back over there until I get back from my vacation!!"
"You really pay Jaquan to take care of me?"
"He's an adult."
"Ma, I just made nineteen last month; how could you do something like this to me?" Considering my cousin's own foibles and highly questionable track record with his own children, I was beyond offended.
"I just wanted to make sure you were safe." She offered making me feel no less humiliated.
"Dammit, I'm nineteen."
"I KNOW HOW OLD YOU ARE; YOU DO WHAT I SAY!!" My mother hung up abruptly hopefully embarrassed after revealing how'd she played herself.
I chaffed inside at the thought of my shiftless cousin taking money for basically babysitting me. This guy in his early thirties, who already received a stipend from his own mother, had no qualms about taking money from mine. I mumbled a few curses under my breath taking my laptop back to my room where I was so paranoid that I actually checked my room for another nanny cam. I still didn't trust my mother hooking up my Bose headphones so that she wouldn't get any audio just in case. I even turned my desk towards the wall seeking to keep my secrecy bringing up my editing bay and the site itself. I checked my neglected message board finding a plethora of messages from a past "star" of my page, dialing up her posted number.
"Hey Porsha, you been looking for me?"
I knew the answer already after finding at least fifty messages from the second women I'd filmed and posted on the hosting site. Porsha Simms was rather large and blocky, boasting measurement of 44DDD-40-38 along with a somewhat narcoleptic countenance.
"Shit yeah, thought you was dodging me, though."