I was doing a solo ride across the country on my new BMW motorcycle. I left my house just ten months after my wife had passed away from cervical cancer. I was going crazy just sitting around feeling sorry for myself. Twenty two years together and we really only started to live the last eighteen months of her life. Jan reminded me what it was that attracted me to her the first time we met. I was riding a motorcycle.
That old Kawasaki 750 was the first vehicle I had ever owned. Living in southern California meant that I could ride almost 365 days a year. Of course, as I still like to say "I'm already warped and I know I won't melt, so bring on the rain." I rode that motorcycle so much I felt uncomfortable in a car. When I pulled up in front of a group of girls at the beach one day, a pretty little blonde with a great set of legs walked over to talk to me. Her friends were standing off to the side talking into their hands and giggling. The blonde looked up into my eyes as I removed my sunglasses.
"What does a girl have to do to get a ride from you?" She asked brashly.
"First she should introduce herself and get my name in return. Then all she has to do is straight up ask for a ride."
"Hi my name is Jan. And you are?" She extended her hand to me.
I took the proffered hand and kissed the back announcing "Hi Jan. I'm Dave."
"Dave can I talk you into giving me a ride on your motorcycle?"
"Hop on and hold on."
It was the first time Jan had ever ridden on a motorcycle. By the time I dropped her off at home that night she was an old pro at it.
At first Jan's dad hated me. Once he realized I was a good kid and would take care of his daughter he came around. Before he died we were really good friends.
Jan and I were married the summer I turned twenty. Jan would turn twenty later that winter. She was and always will be the love of my life.
Unfortunately we never had children. Jan had a serious problem with her baby making bits and it just wasn't in the cards. We were the best aunt and uncle in the world to all our nieces and nephews. The way those kids still love us, it's a shame we couldn't become parents. When I started the job that would feed and house us for the duration of our marriage, I gave up the motorcycle for a car. Biggest mistake of my life. But I had responsibilities.
As Jan reminded me how much I loved riding I resolved to buy another motorcycle. I test drove a few brands and fell in love with the BMW. The handling was so smooth it was fun. I got to take Jan on four rides before she became too sick to ride with me. She made me promise that I would not sell the motorcycle after she died. She wanted me to go on and live my life.
So here I am traveling the country while my oldest nephew house sits for me. The house is all paid off and the taxes are up to date so I can enjoy myself without worrying about the little things. I know he's going to have a few parties while I'm gone. I told him that any damage to the place would come out of his ass. So I know he will be responsible.
Last week I rode into a little town in Texas west of San Antonio. I sat at the counter in a roadside diner and had a nice ribeye steak with mashed potatoes. I flirted a little with the waitress. She was a 25 year old girl named Helen who reminded me so much of Jan when she smiled. It almost broke my heart. I left her a ten dollar tip for a twenty dollar meal.
I was Helen's last customer of the day and she walked out right behind me. She thanked me for my generous tip. As I mounted my motorcycle she innocently asked. "What's a girl gotta do to get a ride on that?"
"Well Since I already know your name is Helen from your name tag. I'll tell you my name is Dave."
"Nice to meet you Dave." She held out her hand and I found myself kissing the back, just like I had with Jan all those years ago.
"Would you like to go for a ride Helen?"
"I would love to Dave."
We rode for a few hours. One of the benefits of the BMW is that the motor is so quiet you can hear a passenger talk to you. Helen was telling me roads to turn down. We made a huge circuit of the town and I returned her to the diner so she could pick up her car.
"I had a great time Dave. How long are you going to be in town?"
"I have all the time in the world. I just lost my wife a few months ago to cancer and she made me promise to have fun and ride around the country like we did before we got married."
"I'm sorry to hear about your loss. She sounds like someone with a zest for life, I would have loved to have met her."
"I'm pretty sure she would have liked you too Helen"
As I turned to get back on my motorcycle Helen grabbed my arm and kissed my lips softly. "Thank you for the wonderful night Dave. If you come back tomorrow, I would love to go for another ride."
"Since you asked so nice, I'll see you tomorrow. What time do you get off?"
"I work until 5:30"
"I'll stop in at 4:30 for a bite to eat and then we can go for your ride."
"Sweet. See you then Dave." She kissed me one more time before getting into her car.
I spent the night at a mom and pop motel just down the road from the diner. The room was decent for the price. If I decided to stick around I would probably stay there again.
That night I had a dream about Helen. Nothing sexual about it. She was riding on the back of the motorcycle and laughing while we rode around the countryside. I hoped to hear her laugh tomorrow.
Helen saw me coming in and had the hostess seat me in her area. I asked Helen what her favorite food on the menu was. I ordered the chicken parmesan on her recommendation. It was delicious. Not the usual bland runny sauce that most places put on dishes like this. The sauce was thick and had the right spices. I could eat it every day. I gave Helen another ten dollar tip.
Helen asked me to wait a few minutes while she changed. Last night she rode in her waitress uniform and she said the wind up her skirt was a bit too much. She came out dressed in jeans and a t shirt just like I was. She kissed me on the cheek as we mounted the motorcycle.
We took a different route around the town. I loved all the twists and turns in the roads she chose. Rather than have me take her back for her car she suggested we go for a couple of drinks and get to know one another better. I was never that high on drinking alcohol but I told her I would have a soda while she drank whatever she wanted.
Helen directed me to a little bar and we settled into a booth. She ordered a coke after I did, explaining that she was really here for the conversation.
Helen started to tell me her story. She grew up in Houston. She was all set to marry her high school sweetheart once they graduated. Before the wedding day he joined the Army. He explained that it was for their future. She waited for him like a dutiful fiancee. Then he called Helen one day to say he was married. He had met a girl who lived close to the base he was stationed at. He got stupid drunk one night and he got her pregnant. Helen left Houston the next week and moved here.
I apologized on behalf of all men for what her boyfriend had done to her. I asked if there were any boyfriends since her little disaster.
"The guys that ask me out around here are after just one thing. I have never been that kind of girl Dave."
"Jan would have really loved you. You two are a lot alike. I think she would have been a little jealous of you too."