Authorâs Notes: I got this story title (and idea) from a song. In it the vocalist talks about loving someone, but never getting the chance to tell that person and his ensuing regret. I just thought it would make a nice short story; only Iâd change the outcome. Most of my stories start from a spur of the moment idea, and then over the course of about a week I flesh them out and gather all the little details before putting it down on paper. A special note to the literotica.com readers: before you read this and give it a bad review simply because itâs not a seven page work of nothing but sex please turn back now, or give it a fair review based on my writing style on the whole (which I happen to think deserves a five
).
Valerie stood on the front porch waiting for Alex. She rang the doorbell again with some hesitation, wondering if maybe heâd forgotten they had a movie date tonight. But her nervousness came from a place much further off from being stood up, she was nervous because she had made the decision that today she was going to tell Alex she was in love with him.
Two years ago, when Valerie had met Alex and Tina, she hit it right off with them right away. Not so much with Alex, but certainly Tina. She and Tina had met through work and had decided to double date. Valerie brought along her at the time boyfriend, Steve, and theyâd all had a great time. Alex and Steve hung out alone mostly, giving Tina and her time to get to know each other better.
Their friendship lasted for six months, much longer than Valerie and her boyfriend Steve lasted, but she still had a lot of fun hanging out with Tina. Alex was a bit on the obnoxious side, he was constantly making these little sexual innuendo jokes about her and Tina sleeping together, but she never found them funny. She found them tedious and tiring, but he never seemed to let up. Tina said sheâd gotten used to it a long time ago, but every now and then Valerie could tell that Steveâs actions really got on her nerves, too.
Then, six months after their meeting, Tina was in a horrible accident and admitted to the I.C.U. at the largest hospital in their city. Despite their best attempts the doctors were unable to save her. It was a very low time in Valerieâs life, and she knew Alex must feel a hundred times worse. As hard as it must have been on him, Valerie could not bring herself to maintain a friendship with Alex afterwards.
After the funeral Valerie did not see Alex for a long timeâalmost half a year. Then, by sheer happenstance, she bumped into him at a video store. Sheâd had to go to a different store to find an old movie she was looking for that none of the other video stores carried, and there he was, just walking down an aisle.
She didnât quite know what to say to him, but managed to make decent small talk. The whole time she spoke with him she noticed he didnât smile once. He wasnât rude to her; he just still seemed so lost without Tina. She found herself agreeing to a movie date, mostly out of pity, and next thing she knew she was standing outside the same door she was now.
That was almost a year ago, and during that time sheâd seen him change considerably. After they started spending time together she noticed that he had lost his annoying habits. He spoke with kindness and never once made her feel that old feeling like she was with a fifteen-year-old boy going through puberty.
She also noticed he began to smile again. They began going out, always as friends. They went to amusement parks, movies, concerts, and everything else friends do. Then about a week ago Valerie came to a sudden realization: she was in love with Alex. It just hit her as she was in the shower, thinking about the next movie theyâd watch. Her thoughts drifted to Alex, as she closed her eyes and her hands roamed her soft and curvaceous body.
She ran her fingertips up her stomach, just as she envisioned Alex doing, then to her soft, ample breasts. She cupped them in her hands, feeling her nipples become erect, and ran her fingers around them softly. A small moan escaped her mouth, barely a sound at all, and then her hands slid further down her body.
She pressed her palms firmly against her stomach and felt the bare skin above her sex. Her legs parted slightly and made room for her hand as it found the sensitive area of her clit. She rubbed it gently, feeling the sensations running through her body. In her mind it was Alex touching her, standing behind her with his strong arms wrapped around her, touching her sensually.
She began touching herself with more urgency, feeling her emotions caught up in the moment. Her legs parted more and her finger slid easily into the moist entrance of her sex. She let out a more audible moan, and her finger began to slide slowly in and out of her glistening pussy. Her other hand moved up her body to cup one of her firm breasts, then gently started to pinch and play with her nipple and surrounding area.
Her body began to react on its own, and her finger was thrusting inside her with greater speed. She pressed the palm of her hand against her clit, and pressed her finger against the wall of her sex. The sensation from her clit sent her into uncontrollable shaking, and she knew she was close to orgasm.
Her hand massaged and kneaded her breast at a greater pace, and she leaned back against the shower wall as her orgasm swept over her. She pushed her finger deep inside her, wishing it was Alexâs erect cock, and let out a small scream as she had the best orgasm sheâd ever had by her own hand.
As her orgasm subsided she stood there, leaning against the wall for balance, and slid her finger out of her now very wet pussy, and caught her breath. All at once she realized what sheâd just done; she had just had a fantasy about Alex and the greatest orgasm ever because of it.
For the rest of the week she tried to remain her usual self around him as she assessed her feelings for him. She had so many emotions running through her mind, and she wasnât sure if she should tell him or not. They had a great friendship, and by this time she felt like she could trust him with anything in her life. She just wanted a sign⊠she needed a sign.
Then, as if fate were giving her a kick in the ass Alex did something heâd never done before; while walking back from the movie theatre he grabbed her hand and held it as they walked back to the car. He looked over and straight into her eyes, as if to ask, âIs this ok with you?â She made no move to withdraw her hand and only smiled.
So here she was on his front porch, dressed in her most form-fitting outfitâa pair of black, tight fitting jeans that hugged the curve of her hips to a Tee, a white top that just barely covered her stomach, and a pair of comfortable black sandals. Underneath she was wearing a black thong and matching bra. Valerie just felt so sexy and feminine wearing undergarments that left little to the imagination, they just made her feel very empowered, sensual, and sexyâand she definitely wanted to feel and look her best tonight.
Her below shoulder length dark blonde hair had been parted down the middle in a zigzag pattern with little clips holding locks of her hair. She chose to wear very natural colored make-up to bolster her light colored complexion. On the whole she felt like she looked the very best she could without coming right out and saying
hey, Iâm trying to look sexy for you Alex.
Her thoughts were drawn back to the present situation when she heard the doorknob turn, and she did a quick mental check to make sure she was making the right decision. Her mindâand body, said she was. Alex opened the door and greeted her with a smile and sparkle in his eyes that she could only hope was there from him seeing her.
âHey Valerie, sorry abou⊠about that. I was in the back watering the lawn. I figured Iâd at least pretend to care about my lawn as much as the other people around here do,â he said as he moved to the side to let her in. He tried to act like the stutter was normal, but she noticed how he had caught his breath when heâd given her a once over. She took that to be a
very
good sign.
âOh, donât be, I was only waiting for maybe half an hour,â she said teasingly. He made a small laughing sound, flashed her a smile, and then walked into the kitchen. âSo I was thinking, instead of just the usual old popcorn or microwave pizza why donât we have a real dinner?â
âHmm, that sounds good to me. What did you have in mind?â she asked.
âWell, I was hoping youâd say yes because I went ahead and baked a lasagna and cut up a fresh salad. I thought I remembered you saying you liked lasagna.â She knew he was trying to play something off, especially since sheâd only told him about a hundred times how much she
loved
lasagna. âSmells great, and I didnât eat before I came over. About how long will it be?â she asked.
âWell, I put it in before doing all the house chores so it should be just about done. I set a timer but Iâll be damned if I know where I set it down at.â As if on cue they both heard a small bell going off from somewhere in the house. âWell, I guess dinnerâs ready,â he said with a laugh.
Sheâd barely heard him though; all she could do was just stare at his wonderful body. In the year theyâd been close friends sheâd never known him to miss a day at the gym, and his body showed it. He didnât have that over-exercised bodybuilder look, on the contrary he had a very solid, and toned frame. He was taller than her, too, but not too much taller, which she loved. She loved a man she could rest her head on his shoulders without having to get on her tiptoes or slink down to.
His arms were especially nice, and he had these perfect big, gorgeous brown eyes that sheâd really come to love in the last week. He kept his hair cut short, and always clean-shaven. Combined with all the housework he did, and his cooking ability he was almost the perfect man⊠almost. In order to be the perfect man heâd have to be with her.
They sat down to dinner and he moved the chair for her, something she loved. When she tasted the lasagna it was the best she had ever tasted, and if the saying about the best way to a personâs heart was through their stomach then Alex had just earned himself a partner for life!
Dinner progressed nicely, both of them making small talk. They talked about how their week had gone at work, funny things that had happened, and other things. They sat at the table for almost an hour just talking and laughing, and every once in a while Alex would flash her a look that would melt her heart. He was making this very hard for herâhard because if he didnât accept her feelings she would be putting a strain on a great friendship.
At long last they moved to the family room, and a movie was put in. She didnât even pay attention to what it was, all she could think about was what she was going to say to him. Just when sheâd gotten what she was going to say completely rehearsed and memorized the movie was over, the lights were on, and Alex was asking her what she thought of it.