The ache within me was becoming uncontrollable... I was looking for the right location, the right moment. My desire was taking over... then you said the words that threw me. "Lets head back, we've walked quite far here". Had you picked up on my tension? Seen the bulge in my trousers even? Had the change in the rate of my breathing become notable? Did you feel vulnerable with me? Scared if losing control yourself maybe? It sent my thoughts in to a spiral.
We walked back to our cars, which unwittingly we'd parked next to eachother. I had to strain to listen to what you were telling me about your new life. Give your mind the attention it deserved. We were always more than sex. So aligned in our thoughts but oh so aligned in bed too.
We arrived back in to the car park and politely, but somewhat awkwardly said our farewells. Both knowing we could tear eachothers clothes off at any moment.
I drove home in a daze. But as soon as the front door was closed, I had to release. I replayed the thoughts I had on our walk as I frantically tore at my belt. I stood in the lounge... and let myself feel the fantasy I had played out in my mind. It wasn't long before relief washed over me. A hot yet somewhat frustrating relief. Oh what if... a what if I've played over in my mind many times since.
