Coach's Cutie - Chapter 2: The Victory Hug
Greg and I had our big conversation about Madison last Saturday night, and here we are on the following Thursday evening, and somehow I haven't mentioned her name to him even once since then! But trust me, you have no idea how hard it's been to restrain myself. We're talking five full days, of which this whole time I've been absolutely dying to talk to Greg about his secret crush, and yet I haven't said a single word.
You see, I know my boyfriend, and I could tell last weekend that as soon as Greg confessed he was attracted to one of the players on his basketball team, he instantly started worrying that he shouldn't have told me. But in reality, I'm so glad that he did!
And I get it. Even though she is officially 18, she's still in high school, and he's both one of her teachers and her coach! Even just admitting a small level of attraction to her is conceivably putting his job at risk, so I definitely understand his trepidation. But of all people, he can definitely trust me. I fully understand how critical it is to keep this a secret, and I would never, ever do anything to jeopardize the career he loves so much.
But on the other hand, it's so freaking hot that this adorable, little, curly-haired, try-hard (as he describes her) turns him on. But part of that is you have to understand Greg. He's literally one of the nicest, most sincere human beings I've ever met. And I think it's this combination of seeing someone who's so genuinely good, have these salacious, hidden desires that I find so appealing. Or maybe even reassuring?
And all things considered, his desires aren't even that extreme. Granted, I've never actually seen what Maddie looks like, but it's certainly not unusual, unexpected, or unnatural in any way for a 37-year-old man to find an 18-year-old girl sexually attractive. It's obviously taboo in our society though, and doubly so when you throw in the whole teacher-student aspect.
But because it's Greg, and how much of a model citizen I know for a fact he is, it's almost comforting to see that people like him can have these feelings and desires too. It's like it actually makes me feel better about my own impure thoughts?
I feel like I'm pretty accepting of myself, and I'm definitely not a judgy person, but even I'm not immune to feelings of guilt sometimes, even if it's for simply thinking about something, and not even doing anything.
I have a son in college now, and I can't tell you how many times over the past few years I've caught myself concocting ridiculous sexual scenarios involving one or more of his friends. It's like as soon as I meet a new acquaintance of his, my first instinct is to immediately start fantasizing about this poor kid in some way. Seriously, I'm so weird!
And while I do know that these thoughts are most likely completely harmless, I can't help but feel a little guilty. It's obviously nonsensical, but I'd be mortified if my son were to ever just accidentally read my mind somehow. But there's another part of me that's like, is there something wrong with me? Like why can't I fantasize about men my own age like a normal person?
But when I hear my boyfriend confess similar thoughts and feelings, it goes a long way in helping me to actually feel normal. Like, maybe there isn't something wrong with me after all? And I'm sure that's a big part of why I find it so appealing to explore this specific fantasy of Greg's.
So here we are, the two of us together at Greg's condo and already in bed for the evening. Tomorrow night is his team's first basketball game of the season, and so I think it's finally time to revisit this Madison subject. I mean, he didn't honestly think I was never going to mention her again, did he?
Me (leaning in to give Greg a kiss while we lie next to each other under the covers): "I'm excited for tomorrow."
Greg (clearly not sure what I'm referencing): "Tomorrow?"
Me: "Yeah silly, your basketball game. I'm excited to watch you coach!"
Greg (putting two and two together): "Ahhhh... of course. I'm sure you're also excited to pay attention to one particular player on my team as well."
Me (with exaggerated faux confusion): "Someone on your team??? Well whoever could you mean??"
Me (after having a good laugh): "But seriously, all kidding aside, I really am genuinely excited to watch you coach during a game. But I'm also super intrigued to get a peek at this Maddie girl, too."
Greg (sounding legitimately somber): "I shouldn't have told you that. Or really... I shouldn't have had those thoughts in the first place, is more accurate."
Okay, I really need to fix this. Greg is not at fault here, and I need to somehow convince him of that!
Me (quickly): "No, no, no! Hon... you did absolutely nothing wrong by having those thoughts. And I'm so, so, glad you told me. I absolutely love that you trust me enough to confide in me something like that."
Greg (quietly): "I don't know..."
Okay, I feel like I'm already making progress here. This is doable.
Me (giving Greg a longer kiss on the lips): "You're literally one of the nicest people I know. Don't ever feel bad about being attracted to someone. It's human nature to feel that way. In fact, you telling me about Maddie has actually made me more attracted to you than ever."
Greg (skeptically): "Seriously?"
Me: "Yeah, I'm not joking. I love it."
Okay, my plan tonight was to bring Maddie up in the conversation and to see how Greg reacted. Obviously, he's still feeling somewhat guilty about the whole thing, but it's not the end of the world. I think the key here is I just need to try and normalize his feelings as much as possible. But it also probably wouldn't hurt if I helped associate any conversation around Maddie with some positive physical feelings? If you know what I mean... :P
I not so subtly begin to slide off both my sleeping shorts and my underwear underneath them. Greg notices and gives me a look that says both 'what are you doing?' but also 'please don't stop'.
Once I'm bottomless, I slowly start to free some space under the covers so I have enough room to climb on top of Greg. He's still wearing his standard boxer briefs, but that doesn't matter right now, as I have a different plan in mind.
One thing I've learned about Greg in the couple of months we've been dating, is that there's nothing he loves more than oral sex. And I'm not even talking about blow jobs, I'm talking about him giving me oral sex.
Now don't get me wrong, I've encountered a guy or two since my divorce that genuinely seemed to enjoy going down on me, as well as a few that had zero interest whatsoever (those guys didn't stick around for long!). And I think I do a decent job of keeping myself nicely groomed (i.e. shaved) down there. But the level to which Greg enjoys licking me, is something of which I've just never experienced before. He's downright addicted to it.
And while this is obviously a nice-to-have feature in a boyfriend on an everyday basis, right now it's especially convenient. You see, at the risk of sounding manipulative, I really need to make sure that Greg is fully in the mood, if you know what I mean. So I figure I have no choice but to use this weakness against him.
With room now under our covers, I gracefully swing my leg over his bare chest and lift my naked lower body overtop of him. From there, I start inching my way further up his body, bringing my vagina closer and closer to his face. I can see his eyes alternating their focus between making eye contact with me, and darting back down to stare at my slowly approaching pussy. Each inch forward brings me ever closer, and then I see Greg both close his eyes and take a deep inhale through his nose.