"Claire, could you stay behind for a couple of minutes, please?" Mr Reynolds called to me over the hubbub of twenty five rowdy History students packing away their belongings at the end of the school day.
I glanced up at him. He was looking intently in my direction over his rectangular glasses. Wearing a smart, sky blue shirt with a darker blue tie, his chiselled but rugged features, luscious, kissable lips and chocolate-brown eyes made him a definite heart throb with the girls. I'd guess he was in mid-thirties - young enough for me to still find attractive, but old enough to definitely be an 'older man'.
I was eighteen years old. One of the youngest of my year, I had come of age just a a few weeks before in the April. It was now May and we were approaching the end of the academic year. Most of my friends had applied to go to university and were awaiting for their exam results to see if they had got grades they needed to enroll. I was going to find a job and work for a year, hopefully deciding just what to do with my life in the meantime.
Trying not to fret over what I had done or not done to warrant being kept behind, I waited in my seat until he had finished dealing with the handful of students who wanted to talk to him after class. As soon as they had trickled out into the corridor, I approached him.
"Mr Reynolds?"
"Claire! Just take a seat please," he smiled at me, twisting the lock on the door. "Just for privacy," he added, noticing my confused expression.
"Now, Claire, is there anything you need to talk to me about? Anything at all?"
"No, I don't think so."
I wondered how I might have been acting without knowing. Sure, I was nervous about the upcoming exams, but so was everyone and I thought I was dealing with it well. I'd had very little in the way of meltdowns, which is more than could be said for some of my friends, who had spent many a break time in tears recently.
"It's just that you appear... how shall I put this? Distracted."
"Distracted?"
"Like your mind is somewhere else. It's not like you. Before Christmas you were on the ball, but lately getting your attention has been really difficult. It's like you're constantly in a daydream, Claire," Mr Reynolds explained.
"I'm sorry, I honestly wasn't aware."
"Do you know why?"
I scrambled for an excuse. "I suppose just... just exam nerves probably."
"Oh, Claire, I think you can be honest with me."
"Sorry?" I asked, now completely lost.
"I've seen the way you look at me." He looked at my now, his eyes fixed on mine. I had to look away, though I could feel my face flush.
"L-look at you?" I stuttered, the butterflies starting to bubble in my belly."
"Yes, the way you undress me with your eyes everytime you see me. The way you blush and stumble over your words when I speak to you, like you just did. The way you avoid my gaze when I walk past you but watch me from the other side of the canteen when you think I can't see you. So be honest. For just how long have you wanted me to fuck you?"
"W-what are you talking about?" But it was too late. He knew.
"Just be honest Claire. Answer the question."
He'd been the star of the show in my secret fantasies for the last few months. During those late nights when sleep wouldn't come, I would feel my hand slip into my knickers. It was his face that swam into my mind in the seconds before I fingered myself desperately to orgasm. I couldn't tell you how it had begun, just that my stomach twisted itself into knots and my heart felt like it stopped beating whenever his body brushed against mine in the crowded corridors or when his gorgeous voice called my name during role call.
"Just the last few months I suppose. I'm so sorry. I know it's not appropriate but I don't know how to stop it. There's just something about you that makes me giddy." I felt completely humiliated.
"It's okay, sweetheart. I'm not going to tell anyone." He put his arm around me and my heart hammered in my chest, feeling his strong grip around my shoulders. "You need to be aware of something though."
I looked at him. He had a funny expression on his face, a mixture of anxiety, anguish and excitement.
"I feel the same way."
"You like me?"
"Like you? Claire, that's a phrase children use."
"S-sorry."
"I mean that I've wanted to fuck your brains out since the moment I set eyes on you, baby girl."
Confidence grew in me at that moment. Here was this handsome older man telling me he found me sexually attractive. Surely I could get away with saying what I wanted? I felt a flutter in my crotch.
"So what are you doing to do about it?" I murmured, finally able to look at him again.
"What do you want me to do about it?" He licked his lips, his hungry eyes fixed on mine.
"I want you to screw me. I think about you screwing me all the time."
"I know you do."
"So are you doing to?"
"Screw you? Yes, I most definitely am going to screw you. But I need to make sure this is something you also want. You know it's wrong for me to do this and I could lose my job if anyone finds out?"
The realisation of how much I wanted this man hit me. "I won't tell anyone, Mr Reynolds," I said, trying to hide the desperation in my voice.