C & S Part 3
Dreaming
So what to do. They were the best of friends, totally in love, but unable to be together the way they wanted. She was married, and he couldn't get past the guilt. It didn't matter that she was married "on paper". Married was married due to their strict religious upbringing.
They had attended the same school, and both of them knew they were in the wrong, but they also knew they had too much together to walk away. Besides, they had tried, and couldn't do it.
CJ felt he had hurt not only her, but her family, no matter how much Sherri told him otherwise.
He also felt he was to blame since her couldn't control himself when he knew full well she was married and vulnerable. She felt frustrated that neither her husband or CJ, her best friend, gave much credence to her insistence that she made her decision to pursue divorce based on her own inability to trust her husband LONG before her feelings for CJ were validated.
She constantly argued that she was being nothing but honest and open with her husband about everything so there wouldn't be an issue. They were married on paper and nothing more. He knew she wanted a divorce, and was in love with her best friend.
Alas, there was an issue; CJ felt so much guilt.
It had been over eight months since they crossed the line into a physical relationship and had sex, but CJ still struggled with any kind of physical contact with her.
Oh and there was plenty of contact between them, no matter how they tried, but he always suffered for it afterward. Sherri felt guilty, yes, but it was different. Her guilt came from being unable to honor his request and respect his wishes not to have a physical relationship until after she was divorced. It was her fault that they'd broken the friendship boundary after all.
It was she who seduced him, made him so hot for her that he gave in and had sex, but it had clearly been a mistake. It changed everything.
Everything that is except the passion.......
Her dreams were often very vivid, but this one was so intense she awoke soaking wet. Dam shame she couldn't finish that dream before the alarm went off! Ahhh well, it would have to wait until later, and hopefully she would experience some real life sexy encounter verses just dreaming about it.
CJ wanted to see her. She could hardly wait, but she'd do just that since she first had to run errands. They had a plan to meet around noon so if she could finish up quickly she may even get there early enough to play before he arrived. She couldn't help but relive the dream over and over while she did her shopping, donated blood and worked on her laptop.
The way he had kissed her so hungrily, felt so hot to the touch...."Get hold of yourself." she said out loud. It was a dream after all. It wouldn't ever happen anywhere else except in her imagination. Well, she decided, it would be nice to relive it through her writing.
She resolved to do just that, but in the meantime she'd need to hurry if she wanted to play before CJ arrived. She knew she'd be playing with fire, so to speak, because when she played it was like a double edged sword. It was both satisfying and tortuous.
Playing made her hungry for more. It was solo foreplay, which was dangerous if she wanted to avoid sex with him, especially when they couldn't seem to keep their hands off one another. And today they were meeting in a public hot spot. It was public yet pretty secluded, and THEY were what made it a hot spot to meet. It was where their chemistry began.