My name is Marjerie. I'm thirty-nine years old. I was married to George when I was only twenty. He left when I was just twenty-three and Charles was only two. I got an uncontested divorce three years after he disappeared. Charles is the only thing George gave me and the best thing I've ever received.
Charles is now eighteen and just graduated from high school. I have a great job and I've managed to give him everything I could and everything he wanted, except one thing. Charles is going off to university this coming August and he's still a virgin.
A week ago, I was having lunch with Mary. Mary is my best friend from high school and has supported me emotionally, and in other ways, through every crisis in my life. During lunch, I shared my anxiety over Charles' impending departure for school. I shared my concern about the separation and the void I would feel when he left. I also explained my worry about his inexperience and sending him to an environment where he might be embarrassed or worse.
Mary listened to my concern but shared that she thought I was over stressing about Charles' lack of sexual experience. She had gone to college and she was sure that he wouldn't be the only freshman virgin. She tried to explain that, in a coeducational dorm, no one was a virgin by the time they became sophomores.
I thought she might be right but I was still concerned about how difficult his first sexual experience might be. I remembered my first time and how terrified I was. I wanted Charles to have only positive experiences, especially with sex, and I wanted him to leave for school with skill and confidence.
"I really want someone to love him and teach him the right moves. You know, the things a woman likes and those she doesn't," I said.
"That's a noble goal," offered Mary. "However, you're messing with something we've all experienced and we've all done nicely afterward."
"Not all of us. My experience left emotional scars I still carry and I want Charles to have wonderful memories."
Mary considered for a moment and said, "I think I get it. Do you have someone in mind?"
"That's the problem. I don't know any of his friends. He doesn't have a girl friend. He only goes out alone. I think he meets others somewhere but I don't know where and I don't ask him. I prefer to respect his privacy."
"There is one option," said Mary.
"I think I know where you're going and I've already rejected paying someone," I responded. "A professional would be too much too soon and not really be emotionally involved in Charles' experience."
"So what's your plan?"
"I was hoping you would help."
"Whoa. You want me to have sex with your son?"
"You've known Charles from the day he was born. You love him almost as much as I do. You'd be perfect to teach him the things I can't."
"I'm a married woman with a husband and children of my own. How on earth could that work without destroying my life?"
"No one would ever know. You can use my house. I'll go out and leave you alone with him. You don't have to tell me anything about what happens and I'll never ask. Only you and Charles would know and he'll never tell. You and I have been together many times and no one has ever asked a single question about what we 'girls' do. Please think about it."
"I guess that would work," a thoughtful Mary hinted.
"Then you'll do it?" I said hopefully.
"I'll meet him once. Just once. No promises. I'll never speak about it and you can never ask."
"Deal," I agreed.
We planned I would leave Charles home alone while I went away the next weekend. Mary would arrange to go with me, but stay nearby instead.
I picked Mary up early Saturday morning for a supposed weekend long shopping trip to the city. I rented a car for her to use, and no one would recognize, while I drove alone to the city.
* * * * *
"I don't know what I was thinking," thought Mary as she drove to Marjorie's house.
I parked in the empty driveway and looked around. No one was on the street and I saw no one looking in my direction. I couldn't be sure some busybody wasn't watching from behind some window curtains but I had to walk to the door sometime. I stepped out of the car and locked it remotely as I walked to the side door of the house. I knocked gently and then harder when no one came to the door.
Charles opened the door and seemed surprised it was me. "Aunt Mary, I thought you went with mom to the city for the weekend. What are doing here?"
"Can I come in and I'll explain."
Once inside, I tried to explain without giving away my real purpose and, I suppose, maybe avoiding keeping my promise to Marjorie. "Your mom is anxious about your impending move to college. She's trying to get her head around being alone in the house after eighteen years sharing it with you. She's also wondering how you'll adjust to living in a dorm with all the temptations that entails. She respects your privacy and doesn't think you'd be comfortable talking about it with her. She arranged for you to be alone this weekend and for me to come by to see it you'd be willing to discuss it with me."
"That sounds like mom. She's always on edge around me. I just wish she'd just get it out so we could talk. However, I think there's more to it. What, specifically, is she concerned about?"
"Shit," I thought. "This isn't going to be as easy as I hoped."
"Well, your mom thinks that college is a sexual swamp and you, as a virgin, will get swept up and embarrassed without the proper experiences and expectations." "There, I said it," I thought.
"Whoa. My mom thinks I'm a virgin?"
"She told me she has no evidence to the contrary. She said you don't have a girl friend, don't date and usually go out alone. That led her to an assumption about your virginity. Are you telling me you're not a virgin?"
"Come with me, sit down and I'll fill you in, with the commitment you'll never repeat anything I tell you to anyone, especially my mother."
We sat on a half sofa in the den. Charles continued, "I'm not a virgin. Haven't been since sophomore year. I don't have a girl friend since I don't need one. I leave the house alone but I don't spend the evening alone. I usually have more than one girl asking to 'date' me at any time. I don't bring anyone home since it would probably upset mom. I can see, as an afterthought, how she could reach that conclusion but I assure you, that's not the case. And everyone calls me 'Chuck' not Charles. Only mom calls me Charles."
I sat there, amused and silently thinking about the conversation I needed to have with Marjorie. Chuck continued, "However, I think you're here for more than just an explanation. I think mom sent you here to 'educate' me about sex. Am I right?"
"Damn, he's intuitive," I thought. "This is leading somewhere and I'm not sure I don't want to explore it further."
"Your mother wanted you to learn the basics from someone with experience. I see now that's not necessary. I get the feeling you may have more experience than I do."
"That doesn't mean I can't learn something from you."
"Hold on. I agreed to help your mother because she was deeply afflicted. The situation has changed. You could probably teach me something."
"OK," Chuck agreed.
"Wait. That came out wrong. I'm a married woman with a husband and children, one of which is almost your age and I'm over twice your age."
"Yet you agreed to help my mom with my 'problem'."
"I did, but ...," I stammered.
"Let me show you. You can tell me when you have enough information to convince my mom not to worry about me."
Chuck leaned forward, took my face in his hands and kissed me chastely on the lips. He leaned back. "I've wanted to do that since I was in diapers."
I didn't know how to process that. This young man had a crush on me for almost two decades.
He leaned in again. "Remember; let me know when you have enough information." He kissed me again, more aggressively, and I returned the kiss. With the next kiss, he opened his lips slightly and touched my lips with his tongue. My eyes closed and my mouth opened to welcome him. The kiss seemed to last forever. Our tongues danced with each other and penetrated deeply into each other's mouths.
He leaned back and I, reluctantly, did the same. He reached out and unbuttoned the top button of my blouse.
"What are you doing?" I asked.